The Way to Find You

speaking to the stars

Staring into the darkness of the night befriended the flickering stars far up there. I wish this wound would dry up soon and there would be no more pain that would make me moan. Seeing the people we love with others is heartbreaking. I am not one who will be happy to see the person I love happy with someone else because it should be with me that he laughs, with me he is happy and with me he should complain. I'm not that sincere to say, I'm happy to see you happy, because this heart is really hurt.

I smile miris looking at the sky. enjoy the silence, the feeling of sleepiness never come these eyes are still reluctant to be closed. Sitting on the balcony with a cup of tea. The look of light penetrated through space.as if there self dancing, joking and talking with the stars.

High daydreams imprinted me in endless delusion. This is probably the relay of the song's lyrics this delusion is as high, as beautiful '. I smiled bitterly at myself.realizing how weak and fragile the feeling I had.

I saw Haris' necklace now in my hand. Because I was still chatting with him just asking news about him. Now I really understand, not the love that I have for her. just a sense of comfort when the heart needs a backrest. Because in fact when I was far away there was no longing to strangle me.

Helaan breath long, trying to loosen the chest cavity that feels tight. the glint of the face of Indira and Adrian sometimes still looming. Until when was my heart confined by this pain, I sipped tea in a glass. The look in my eyes was still staring far away until the sound of the door blew my daydream.

" Lian, just in" I muttered as I watched Lian walk out of the balcony door of her room.

" why is mbak malem-male still there ? " ask Lian while walking over and sitting on the empty chair next to me. Because this balcony is connected to the two rooms above.kamaku and Lian's room.

'' not sleepy yet, 'lo himself why ?"

" getting sick, looking for the wind"

" why again mbak, do not continue to kayak gini dong. Lian knows it is not easy to forget someone. let alone he has been too long in our lives.but do not continue to gini dong mbak'. mature really my sister is. when if the tengilnya kumat nyebelinya ask for mercy.

"Mbak also really wants to forget all. But after returning from the village several times met him, and had met him with his wife. And again if he met her like opening a wound that almost dried up".

" And why is the item still in storage ?" asked Lian who saw the necklace in my hand.

" this" I picked it up showing Lian. "it's not her gift that it's "

" hold on ?" Lian put on a curious look.

" It's Haris's love." It's not finished explaining Lian's hunting cut.

" temen mbak time in the village. used to school and play mbak. temen mbak. continued to fit yesterday mbak to meet him again"

Lian mangut-mangut heard my explanation.

" if you give her aja kayak that. surely she likes the same mbak. why not mbak pacarin aja ?"

"Lian, Lian, who is not an LDR mbak in cheatingin. lha this is where she is. Partly if this time mbak courtship. the effect of the escape is not really ?"

" if according to Lian no problem. okay maybe at this time mbak can not give the heart mbak completely because the name Adrian still exists. But who knows the beginning of the escape so true love.Said love people can come because they are used to ".

" not really selfish ?"

" we deserve to be selfish"

I smiled at my brother.

" sometimes you can be an adult too"

" yeah you said I'm a child. it's 21 mbak"

" it's worth calling it an adult" I always say.

" that's"

The night was getting late, we were still talking. It was almost midnight when Lian and I entered their rooms. Sleeping in my sleep hoping that Keyika wakes up tomorrow morning there is a new sheet that is more beautiful for me.