The Way to Find You

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The figure that I wanted to avoid was now suddenly in front of me, clutching my hand and looking at me with a gaze that I did not understand.

" i want to talk" the voice, the voice I used to miss, the voice I wanted to hear, but now it sounded so sickening.

" there's nothing else you need to talk about" Livi said, removing her hand from my arm. And with a face full of anger Livi pulled my hand away from Adrian.

" please give me a chance to talk". Adrian followed our steps. Livi stopped her steps turning around with a face of wrath.

" you say, 4 years Widi love good opportunity for you. and what do you do?, you destroyed him in an instant"

" i need to talk to Widi instead of you" there was no less emotional tone than Adrian's mouth. Livi's cynical smile appeared on her lips.

" And I don't know if you're talking to him" Livi said as she walked away still with her hand pulling me. I was like a mute man who was silent in freezing. So much taste was raging in my chest. This pain is more painful.

" Dengerin Wid, my explanation" Adrian grabbed my hand again.I remained silent, and chose not to look at that face.

" off the hand of Widi or I will shout. you've mocked my friend"threatened Livi who turned out to be successful.

" Liv,please let me talk to Widi for a second"

" No"

I looked at Livi with my eyes sign.Let me do the talking.I ventured to look at the face that used to always give me peace.

" your 1000 explanations won't make 1 sense of my faith to trust you again.so everything that happens between us is done. Please live your life.and I with my life. there's no need for you to look for me for a reason I can't accept"

I suppress the emotion in every word.I hope not to let these tears spill.I don't want to be weak in front of him.

" please Wid, don't hate me. I still love you. Whenever my feelings won't change".

" keep all your love words.I'm not entitled to hear them, and I don't want to hear them anymore either. I'm entitled to feel it's just your wife"

" stop or I'll actually yell at the security guard"

Adrian chose to stop his steps. Livi and I walked to the car after putting the groceries in the back seat I got into the car. My feelings are mixed. Several times I sighed. regulating the feeling that was so stifling to the chest.

"no cry just don't need to be held" Livi clasped my hand gently.

I ran in his arms. These tears I can no longer bear. Livi stroked my back without a word, while I could only sob. Why let go of this pain ?.

We were in this position for a while. Until I can control my feelings and can stop crying.

"gue will always be there for Lo Wid" said Livi sincerely full of tenderness.

" thank you for always being my best friend.

" wid forever, we'll still be best friends". Livi's smile calms me down.

" so where now?, go to my house or where do you want it ?"

" the house is okay"

'' okay"

Livi immediately drove her car slowly leaving the mall. down the streets were quite quieter than this morning.

I was lucky at least when one love left me. There is a lot of love I still have. One wound that scratches the heart but many hugs that will keep me firmly standing. This cry will be a smile.This wound will bring happiness. And this pain will be a beauty.I leave it in time to change everything.

throughout the journey we were quieter. I know Livi gave me time to calm down. The time we spent together made us understand each other. Our presence will always strengthen each other.