
"How about your own feelings? Frankly we, this family, especially I really wish you'd marry Roy. She's too old to be alone" Raina said. Hana smiled amusedly at the old term coming out of Raina's lips.
"I told you this was too soon for us. So I can't decide yet. Let it flow first as it is."
"Huh..." Raina breathed a disappointed breath.
"You compete with the dead while I struggle with the still there."
"I mean Brother?"
"Yes, I was married to my husband right away after he found out there was our son. I was second. Pain indeed, but all striving will never be in vain and sincere love will surely win it all."
"So Brother was made a second wife?" hana asked in surprise not to think that behind Raina's pleasant life there was a story of grief behind it.
"Your life is better than mine Hana. The main one is Roy himself, the widower, not someone else's. You just have to make him love you."
"I've never done that and don't know what real love is. Besides how I'm supposed to make people fall in love while I just don't love them."
Raina was furious with Hana's difficult attitude of catching what she said.
"Okey, look. That love can come from getting used to it" Raina explained. Hana nodded.
"Now you're trying to see what Roy's lack of a man makes you dislike him?"
"What's an ugly Roy?" ask Raina. Hana shakes.
"Didn't you like the physicals?" Hana seemed to be thinking about answering.
"I don't like the hair and the bewok is creepy, nor do I like the tattooed man but I know it can't be removed."
"That's all?" Hana hesitated. "There's nothing else. Roy is athletic and sexy. My husband used to be like that only now he eats a lot so it's a little full."
"Yes, her body is like a model." Hana imagined earlier when she rubbed Roy's body, felt the man's hard muscles under his skin, the curves of his shape like a macho man in a Hollywood film.
Raina held back a laugh staring at Hana's expression as it was.
"Smoke your saliva, that" Raina and Hana ordered. Raina laughs amusedly while Hana bends her tofu face gnawed by Raina.
"What about Roy's attitude?"
"Good and considerate, also perverted." The last word Hana uttered softly was almost inaudible. Raina was really amused by Hana's attitude. His stomach ached withholding laughter.
"All men are like that if they are attracted to women. Don't be surprised."
For a moment Hana opened her mouth to form the letter O but she closed it again.
"Pulling is not necessarily like?"
"That's a great start, isn't it? If you share your feelings, everything will flow easily. The point is you should open your heart to her as wide as possible."
"Hmm if you just leave him?" cetus Raina's.
"Then the kids?"
"You can take care of both of them. Even in a different place."
Hana frowned.
"Don't compare to anyone. You are you, Hana. Not another woman. Even though his late wife. If Roy hasn't moved on with his wife's death, then let him be with his memories and you live your life free. Don't be bound just because of the child. You were right to postpone the marriage. I agree with you."
Hana doesn't expect Raina to support her, she thinks she will encourage her to accept Roy as he is. In fact, it's reversed. Roy was right to have him talk to Raina. The woman knew what was in her heart.
"Don't think anything. Just live your life first. If you can't stand it, then you can choose to leave. Just be honest with Roy. He'll understand."
"But if you love her, you have to fight for her" Raina said.
Hana smiled at him and hugged Raina. "Thank you my heart became relieved after telling you everything."
"Don't look at me. If you need anything, you can call me. Consider me your brother."
Hana smiled happily and nodded. She is pleased with Raina's friendly and thoughtful attitude she can unravel a problem from all sides. Roy is his family but he doesn't defend Roy.
Hana is also curious about Raina but she does not want to ask any further. It was unethical and polite except Raina herself who told me everything.
"What about the trauma you've been through?"
"It's better after I've had therapy."
"That's great. You do have to interact with her a lot to slowly lose that trauma."
"Yes brother, I'm trying to deal with it."
After being satisfied talking to Raina, Hana returns to Roy's room. He saw the man standing on the balcony of the room.
"You're not sleeping?" ask Hana to come closer. Roy turned his body and looked towards Hana. In his hand was a glass of wine in a cup made from
"I don't usually sleep when the sun is still shining."
"You drinking?" ask Hana.
"Do you mind?"
"That's your right," Hana replied turning her body. Walk away.
"If you don't like it, I won't drink it" said Roy, prompting Hana to stop. Roy then put the glass on the edge of the balcony wall.