
"Roy, I want to go home," said Nita turning over. His feet felt floating while trying to tread. Her lips were still numb, Roy's kiss marks and her chest were still beating fast when they were together. A feeling he had been trying to ignore but couldn't.
"Let me deliver. You're drunk Nita. Wait, I'll get a jacket in the room."
How can you move on from your ex if he's always around you? That's very unlikely. Especially when they have lived together for a year. There's a lot they've been through. The relationship is deep and deeply rooted in the hearts of both.
See him every time. Interacting as if there was never anything between the two was a real torment for Nita. She can buy anything but the warmth of Roy's love can't be given to Adry, even though her husband always gives her what he wants.
His heart and mind were filled by Roy and the guilt he felt. The only way he doesn't remember it is with work. Therefore, he was always busy for ten years the marriage met with Adry in just a few days and then sank back into his world. Fortunately, Adry is a super busy person who often travels abroad and lives more often in Germany than in Indonesia. So he had a good reason to keep his distance from the man.
He was a heavy drunk because he was depressed. Funny thing and one thing Nita likes is Roy always takes her home when she gets drunk without Adry. So that he could be near the man again. Feeling her warm embrace or smelling a body scent that she misses so much. Those ten years were hard for Nita to live.
Nita was glued when she looked at her picture and Adry who was sitting together in this house. In the photo, they both look happy laughing. No load. He grabbed.
"You remember, that was the last photo of us together. Before Adry came and you preferred him over me, this poor guy" Roy said.
Nita bit her own lips and rubbed the water point at the end of her eyes. Put the photo back in its place.
"I'm trying to be realistic Roy, I need him to put my name on the entertainment scene. You know my dream is to become an international model and I can't get it if I don't sacrifice our relationship." Nita turned her body to face Roy who was in front of her
"Now you have your dreams. Being famous and much adored by people. Are you happy with all that?" Nita was speechless unable to answer Roy's question.
"Take Adry off sincerely and give her back to Raina, we can get back together again" the man said.
"Why Roy, why are you still waiting for me? Why do you still love me when I hurt you so much. You're supposed to hate me or scold me or maybe be disgusted. But you still care about me. You know that's been torturing me all this time. Seeing you, feeling your attention, and being around me drives me crazy. I can't go back to you because I'm married to Adry."
"Why did you say?" Roy snorted while shaking his head.
"I don't know either. The first time you wanted to part with me it hurt me. I'm powerless to resist your and Adry's wishes because he's the son of my foster parents. He's crazy about you, too. I can only hand you over to him. Even if it feels heavy." Roy advanced forward to tidy up Nita's black mane that covered part of her face.
"I fell and fell at that time. Wanting to get away from the two of you but not because my life is devoted to the Quandt family. My family owes them a lot. You don't think I'm tormented by Nita's feelings, very. Seeing you with Adry makes my heart hot, and yet you're so heartless doing it."
"I was so devastated when I found you dying badly, over-dosing. You were dying and almost dying. The thing that broke me was that it got our future son killed. When my feelings are messed up, I have to sort this out. Don't let Adry's family know if you get pregnant and miscarry otherwise we'll both reap the consequences."
"I started to give up on my heart. There is anger and hate in you. However, seeing you unconscious in a coma, made me think that I'd rather see you happy with another man than never see you at all."
Roy pressed his eyes tightly to hold back the tears that would come out. Remembering this matter made his old wounds which he buried, rise again.
"I was so depressed back then, Roy. Adry broke up with me and I thought at the time that you must have hated me for betraying you. On the one hand my work is in trouble, I have no passion for life and it all feels in vain. I feel alone. One more thing, at that time I didn't know if I was pregnant. You know if I'm wearing a syringe KB and maybe when we were together last time I was late. I'm just as surprised as you that it also carries a new weight for me. I'm mad that you helped me, why don't you just let me die?" nita said like a crazy person.
"I told you I love you so much that I can't let you just walk away from this life."
"Why don't you hate me for killing our son? I thought your residence and your coldness were because you were so angry that you could no longer look at me" asked Nita.
"I'm angry and consider you the most selfish woman in the world. I hate you but still can't forget you. If your happiness is with Adry, I'd love you to stay alive and enjoy your day."
Nita who heard Roy's words clenched her lips tightly. He looked at the man closely.
Roy was so good and perfect. He could not raise his face again in front of Roy after what he had been doing all this time. He felt that he had done unfair and evil to her.
"Nita finish your relationship with Adry and come back to me" Roy said.
Nita retreated her steps. His chest felt full and tight making it difficult for him to breathe. However, right now he had to take the right decision for both of them.
"I know you love me so much and will always love me. But I already have a husband. As bad as I was, I would never cheat on my husband or betray him. So don't ask me to get divorced from Adry. Let him do that, but not me. I don't want to make the same mistake of leaving a meaningful man out of my life."