Please Don't Forget Me

#Papa Teen

I began to rebel with my situation, I do not like to linger at home, for me the house is like a grave that always reminds me of my beloved Almh.Titi

The little sister I love and miss.

"Why go on the boy?!"Mother always seemed worried about me.

"Go.."I replied not connecting.

"Well, why go on, Father and Mother are old you should help us" Mother stroked my shoulders.

I'm rarely at home, I go hanging out as I please, I do work odd jobs, but only to connect my own life, I make fun for myself there is no intention to help Mom and Dad.

"Of course you guys are old" I left Mom.

I know that my words must have hurt Mom, but my heart is also wounded, because of this poverty I must lose the person I love most.

"Never go to school" you asked me.

Andik is my countryman, he's the son of the guy who financed my school, yeah I'm still in school but at a student's expense.

People know Andik was the one who financed my school since Elementary School, Junior High School, and now High School, because although I rarely learned more time to work and hang out, but since childhood my brain was diluted, but since childhood, so people know you don't want me to drop out of school, they're attentively giving me scholarships.

"Work is Bro" I answered casually, but actually honest in my heart I feel burdened with bad I did this, they've been kind to give me scholarship help, I've been, but I often miss school.

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But even truant by force, if my parents were rich I wouldn't be busy working, I'd make sure to always carry and read books, but the truth is I'm a poor boy, which is just for a chance to drink coffee I have to slam my own bones.

"Tomorrow I'll go to school.. Bro" I'm an indistinct grim

"Yes, I know your position, but don't let you regret it later" Andik left me at the stall, he left a message that was recorded in my brain but has not been able to get me straight now.

I'm seventeen and fifteen days is my birthday, I don't want to be home.

Every birthday, I'll never be at home, I'll have my hard-earned money, I'll keep it to myself, and I'll make it my own fun, which is clear I want to live on my own, for me life is hard, I have poor parents, I work hard myself, and the result is of course for myself.

Actually in my heart I love Mom and Dad very much but Almh's death. My sister Titi I can't accept, my heart keeps blaming Mom and Dad, even though I know, if all this is also not wanted or expected by my parents, but somehow this heartache can never heal.

"How do you keep skipping school, Man?!" Mom went into the room that was all walled from the triplex

Ever since I started growing up, I've asked to make my own room, but never minded, I'm ashamed if I have to sleep together on a thin mattress, limp and stink, I'm afraid,

I collected a little money to buy a used triplex, I cut it and stick it myself in the corner of the room, I'm a partition, from that restriction I'm magic, I make my own private bedroom.

"Why is the name, if you can't be a good parent, don't be wise" My words again hurt Mom, I'd love to hug and apologize to the woman in front of me, but I could never do it.

Mother does look older than her age, her hair is gray maybe she is too tired to think about the life she is experiencing, so that gray hair and wrinkles appear even though it is not time.

"Mom asked ma'af son...Mother and Father love you very much, various efforts we have done, but all ended in bankruptcy, we ask ma'af, if we can choose we also want to give you and Almh. Your sister's all the luxuries of the world, but we can't afford it, we're not good parents to you, we're asking ma'af" Mother out of the slum

i, I see him crying why I always hurt the people I love, the women who have bet their lives to give birth to me into a world that to me is so cruel.

"I'm sorry Herman ma'am" I can only speak for myself, in my own heart, there's no way I'm saying that in front of Mom.

After school and work I'd rather hang out

"Please like it like you, man" Heri spoke while codifying that Ayu was secretly watching and watching me.

Heri is a songful friend, probably because I hang out with her too much, until I end up following the song like her.

"Huss.ngacoh" I never think about women, for me work and then being able to hang out with Heri and friends is enough to make me happy, at least I'm not dizzy and tired at home.

I used to hang out for coffee and having fun at the ugly stall near my house, but since you found out I often skipped school, I was a little bit nervous about it and from then on my hangout moved further.

The meeting with Heri made me more song, I'm still in school but to work I have to be more active, because my hangout is now more elite and classy.

"Good girl" I don't want to be weird, I still have the desire to be successful, rich not like now, although I don't know which way I have to go.

"Udah brush it off" Heri persuaded me

Ayu beautiful girl, obedient she lives near the cafe where I hang out, she lives alone without parents, she is very quiet, her clothes are always covered and polite, she is very quiet, I don't want to mess with him.

I who is not a child anymore there is a little feeling with Ayu, because Heri who every day undermines to get close to Ayu.

Heri was too free, she was in a relationship with many women, her association was free uncontrolled.now I seemed to be her slave.

"Had brushed, he had nothing to look after, at home alone, he would not refuse and do anything" Heri again persuaded to give sweet words but actually poison the world, but now I'm still sane not knowing in the future, do I still have the strength to resist the temptation of the shethan

It's raining heavily and I'm stuck in the cafe can't go home

"Rain is always a bitch" I grumbled to myself.

"Kok Masi is here" I didn't realize Ayu was next to me.

"Why come here" I'm starting to like her, but I'm sincere not what Heri wants

"It's okay to buy something" Ayu spoke with a sweet smile

Turns out he bought some food and drinks for under-home.

"Can I drop off, the rain must be bothered under it all" I saw a glass filled with warm torabica coffee and some naget on a small plate, maybe Ayu wants to enjoy the rain by relaxing to enjoy a snack..

"Can"

We went home to Ayu's house, broke through the rain I carried the tray and Ayu held the umbrella.

"My body is wet" I feel cold

"Wear this towel" Ayu who had changed clothes, still wearing a veil made her look always graceful.

"Lamp is dead, how is this" Ayu said there was a voice of fear there.

"It's okay, there's Me" I'm holding her hand attentively, yes I've started to store her feelings, but this feeling is sincere not what Heri wants.

Ayu who lives alone, I love him, I want to succeed and make him happy later.

I have a new bike that I buy on credit, I pay every month, I work hard for my own life. My bike is still parked in the cafe.

It turns out that shetan is smarter, I am starting to feel sincere love for Ayu, he has no parents, I want to be a successful person, can repay all mistakes

I to Father and Mother, want me under Ayu to live happily with me, but shetan has ruined everything.

Dark nights and heavy rains made shethan so easy to possess me, the impulse of love but wrapped in lust, I don't know what I've done.

I've betrayed my heart, I've ruined my first love, I can't forgive myself.

Since the incident Ayu went somewhere, his house was always deserted and uninhabited, a few months later the house has been sold.

"Where is my Ayu?!" I wept regretting my actions, I truly loved her, but I myself have so much to do harm to her.

That Alim girl has left me, because of my stupidity, and I have lost so much.

Everything was going normally like nothing ever happened. Heri didn't even know about what happened, I kept it to myself until my school graduation, everything was normal but not with my heart and regret.

Andai Ayu datang, Aku akan lebih bahagia, entah apa kabar yang dia bawah, dia hamil tau tidak, Aku akan tetap menikahinya dan berusaha menjaga serta melindunginya, tapi Ayu pergi, cinta ku pergi tanpa kabar.

I went to bring all the regrets that only I and Ayu can feel, I went to leave Mom and Dad, after graduating from school I want to work in Jakarta, Jakarta, at first they refused but I insisted with my determination. They finally let me go and let me go.

I'm selling my bike, even if the loss doesn't matter, I'm giving the money to Mom and Dad, this is the first time you've given them money, I want to start from scratch,

"Thank you son" I cried, but actually he tried to refuse, maybe he felt bad receiving my gift money, because usually men are more self-respect, do not want to be loved by their children.

"Well sir, Herman asked ma'af, it's always been troublesome" I said but my body was filled with nothing, my brain just wanted to find Ayu.

The girl who accidentally changed my mind to be filial and happy parents, before they died.

"You've never troubled us, son, we're the ones who don't become parents, since childhood you've worked hard to just snack, 'sorry we are" night filled with novelty, we hugged each other

Although I know this is not easy, whether I can or not I still think about Ayu and still hope to meet someday.

I'm the one who gave my parents permission to go to Jakarta was not, the nights I ran away from home, I don't know where I'm going, I just want to find my love, I just want to find my love, I can't lie to my own heart.