Please Don't Forget Me

Please Don't Forget Me - Same pain

"What's up Ai, what are you talking about? don't take too long, because I don't want Salsa to misunderstand and suspect later." Aldo told Ainun.

"Yes Al, thank you for your time." said Ainun paused for a moment before continuing his conversation.

"Al, do you love Salsa ? is your love for Salsa so great ? and are you married to Salsa because of that love or because you are in a match ? please answer Al." asked Ainun.

"I married Salsa because I loved her. Yes, I love Salsa very much. Why Ai, why are you asking like that ?" ask Aldo.

"Oooh okay you guys mean love each other huh ? well, it's good to marry because you love each other, because shouldn't marriage be based on love, right ? that will make the marriage continue to last." Ainun said with a smile, but as if hinting at the passing of what he said.

"I'll marry Al too, but we don't love each other. I don't love him, nor does he love me. I used to wish I could marry someone I love and who loves me but now she feels like she doesn't love me anymore .

No more love for me.

Because now he has loved another woman and will marry that woman . That woman has taken him from me. Now the name of the woman is in her heart.

Miris is not my fate ? either I have to cry or laugh for the fate I have to live with right now" Ainun said with a smile back along with the tear-filled mouthfuls that drenched his cheeks.

As if hinting at the openness of his heart. While Aldo was only able to remain silent when Ainun expressed his feelings.

"You know who Al is who I still love today ? my feelings for her have not faded in the least but they are growing in my heart.

You know Al, who is he ? do you know Al? don't you want to know??" said Ainun who was increasingly unable to stem his tears that continued to wet his cheeks.

"Who?" said Aldo weakly and shook his head.

"Someone that... You are Al. " said Ainun weakly.

"I ??" aldo Kelu.

"Yes you, someone I still love to this day but dear now there is another name that rests in your heart, there has been someone you love so much, someone who managed to shift my position and snatch you from me. Someone who will soon be with you at the pelaminan." said Ainun who could no longer hold back his cries and Ainun immediately ran away from Aldo to release the tightness he felt. Ainun tried to smother his mouth all the way so that his cries could not be heard.

"Ainun, wait.." call Aldo, but Ainun goes by as if he did not hear it.

"Ai wait, Salsa didn't take me from you at all. Please don't say that to Ai." Aldo said again which made Ainun pause for a moment but after that Ainun continued running away from Aldo.

His feelings are getting sicker with Aldo's statement that seems to defend Salsa than he is.

His crying was no longer able to hold.

When Ainun was about to leave from Aldo, as well as when Aldo pursued Ainun they overheard the conversation between Salsa and Ahmad Rafiq.

Aldo and Ainun stopped to listen to the talks between Salsa and Ahmad Rafiq.

Ainun's heart was increasingly overcrowded by the statement made by Ahmad Rafiq to Salsa.

That Ahmad Rafiq did not love him and between himself and Ahmad Rafiq was nothing more because of the matchmaking of the parents.

Although he knew about it from the beginning, but somehow it hurt when Ahmad Rafiq said that in front of Salsa, his best friend. Especially when Ahmad Rafiq expressed his feelings to Salsa, that Ahmad Rafiq loves Salsa.

His heart grew increasingly claustrophobic at the expression. His heart was broken and broken instantly..

How not ?

Two men, Ahmad Rafiq and Aldo both love Salsa.

But he is not loved at all.

Is there anything more painful than this ?

***

"Salsa ?" said Aldo.

"Ahmad Rafiq ?" Ainun..

"You love Salsa Aa' ?" ask Ainun Back. Salsa just left the place and left them.

Because right now his heart is in chaos .

"Aa' wait to answer my question, you love my best friend Salsa ?" asked Ainun trying to hold back the tightness he felt and the crying that he might not be able to hold back.

"Yes, I love Salsa. Why is there a problem ? Is love never wrong ?" ahmad Rafiq.

"I'm sorry I went to Salsa first. His heart must be in a mess . Excuse me.., you please continue." said Ahmad Rafiq back, who then passed away and tried to catch up to Salsa.

"Bro, wait for me to talk to you" Aldo said.

"Yes, what ? then yes. I want to follow Salsa first." said Ahmad Rafiq.

"Bro, you don't have to follow Salsa . Let me just, Salsa my candidate . Is it worth it that you caught up with him ? Do you care about Salsa until you take care of her like that? you're not who he is, you're not the candidate either, are you ?" said Aldo.

" I care about Salsa and I love her very much. Okay, sorry Bro.. Then what about you who are both in tandem with Ainun ? and your candidate Salsa ? Huh, what's that worth ? answer me!!, as long as you know Salsa was so destroyed when you heard Ainun's words to you" said Ahmad Rafiq.

"O Lord Salsa heard it ?" said Aldo.

"Yes, Salsa heard everything. Salsa heard your talk and Ainun's words to you.

Until he could not hear your talk, Salsa left you behind." said Aldo.

"Oh my God, did Salsa hear that?" aldo

"Salsa heard it all.. Salsa heard your talk. Salsa heard Ainun's words to you" said Ahmad Rafiq.

"Oh my God, why didn't Salsa come to us ? Are you sure Salsa heard the talk of me and Ainun ? If Salsa heard it, shouldn't she know what my answer is to Ainun ?" said Aldo.

"Yes because Salsa can no longer hear your talk ?, he destroyed Al how could he approach you ? he was too shocked to hear everything." said Ahmad Rafiq.

"Oh my God." said Aldo.

"Bro, please take care of Salsa. If you play him, then you will have to face me and Salsa will be mine. Because you are no more a man who betrayed him and hurt him." said Ahmad Rafiq.

"Bro, if you don't know what better to shut up and take care of your candidate Ainun" Aldo said.

"Okay Bro, take good care of him and don't hurt him. I want to go inside first, kill my Abah alone.

And I don't want my Abah to know about this either. Yasudah yes my Bro into first." said Ahmad Rafiq who soon passed into the.

"OK, don't hurt Ainun too and try to love her . Please take care and do not hurt the feelings of women as good as him" said Aldo who then also attended Salsa.

Ainun could no longer hear the conversation between Ahmad Rafiq and Aldo who were scrambling to get to Salsa. Ainun immediately left the place...

Ainun also wanted to pull over for a moment to decipher the tightness that felt and the crying that he could not bear anymore .

***

Then will anyone step back after they hear the expressions of their hearts ??....

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Please Don't Forget Me - They're Good People

After meeting a woman named Ayu on the road. Ainun's brother immediately drove his car to the boarding school and his house so that Ayu could immediately rest. And during the whole journey Aunt Ayu continued to fumble about her, her chastity that was taken away and about losing her child.And occasionally she cried and also laughed at the same time.

Ainun's brother hesitated a little to bring the mother home but he also could not bear and could not let her stranded on the highway like this especially that she had accidentally hit the mother that's. Shouldn't he be helping her?? ....

"His name is Ayu se Ayu himself actually.but unfortunately, hemm kasian is also this woman, his fate is very unfortunate.

Who could have made it like this? take away her chastity and make her lose her child?? may he recover soon and be able to reveal this truth, said Abahah Ainun..

***

When he got home, his brother Ainun immediately called his wife to lead the mother into their house.

"Yes Allah, Abah.. This who ? Why is Abah that this woman came to our house ? and sorry he seems crazy, right? is he crazy ?? oh Allah is a messiah but how did Abah bring him here ?" ask wife.

"Yes, we accidentally hit this mother in the middle of the road.

And Abah asked Ainun to go to Ahmad Rafiq's house alone .

Abah asks Ainun to take a taxi, and Abah helps Ayu and tells Ainun that Abah will bring Ayu to this house so that he can rest.

Abah plans to take care of Ayu until she recovers and can reveal this truth. We take care of Ayu ya Ummi." said Abahanya Ainun.

"Oh Allah, Abah. If driving a car next time heart dong. Ummi does not want Abah why napa and got in trouble. Ummi also did not want to end up like this. Go home, Abah bring people less sane like this. I am afraid of Abah. And wait who's Ayu ? this woman ? and he why ? does Abah know why he went crazy like this ? how did Abah say he wanted to heal her and so that she could reveal the truth? As if Abah knew something about this mother and the reason why she ended up like this ?" said Ainun's mother.

"Yes ummi, God willing next time Abah heart yes. Thank you for your attention, ummi care for Abahku as well.

But mother do not worry too much, this mother she once taken sanctity, until she lost her child.

Maybe he was depressed until he became what he is today. Honestly Abah did not have the heart to see it and hear the conjecture. Moreover Abah had hit him. Where could Abah let him be stranded on the road ? Abah wants to help her and take care of her until this mother is healed and can reveal the truth .

About who raped her and how her life story ended up losing her son and it was like this. Is it wrong for Ummi that Abah helps him and wants to take care of him until he is healed, wrong ?

Abah asked for help with mom to want to take care of him until he was healed, do you want ? Abah asked for help Ummi. Abah I hope you will." said Abahah Ainun.

"O Lord, O Lord... Well Abah, I want to take care of him until he recovers so that he can reveal this truth and tell his story until he ends up like this. What a shame his fate, I will try as much as possible so that he can be healed, hopefully no effort in vain yes. Hopefully he can recover soon and can reveal everything." said Ainun Mother.

"Aamiin Ummi, that is why Abah wanted Abah to save him" Abah Ainun said.

"Jaudah yuk Ummi we bring him into the room so that he can rest.

I've prepared a guest room for this mom to rest, right ?" ask Abah Ainun.

"Oh yes Abah until Ummi forgets. Yaudah ummi prepare the guest room first." said Umminya Ainun who immediately prepared his guest room.

"Yes Ummi." said Abahah Ainun.

A few minutes later, Umminya Ainun returned and immediately led the mother to the guest room so that she could rest immediately.

"Udah Ummi ? Yaudah yuk we lead this mother to her guest room, Ummi, so that she can immediately rest" said Ainun's mother.

"Yes Abah. Let us anter to his room." said Abah Ainun who immediately led this mother to the room was assisted by his wife.

After delivering Ayu to the guest room. Ainun immediately cooked and prepared food for them to eat.

"Ummi, what do you want to cook today ?" ask Abah.

"Ummi wants to cook asem vegetables, soups, soups,

"Ummi cook first yes Abah." speech that immediately prepare the ingredients to make vegetable achem, soup, the same baked bloated fish.

"Okeee Bu, Abah to the pesantren first yes want to check the situation there as well as guiding them for a while, want to give them the material" said Abahnah Ainun.

"Okay Abah, be careful" said Umminya Ainun immediately kissed her husband's hand to Salim.

"Yes Ummi." said Abahah Ainun and kissed his wife's forehead.

"Assalamualaikum Ummi" he said again and passed away to the pesantren.

"Waalaikumussalam Abah" said his wife who immediately continued cooking.

After an hour, it was all over.

"Alhamdulillah has finished the soup, vegetables and baked bloated fish." said Umminya Ainun with a smile.

"Leave it at the dinner table deh." he said again that soon passed to the dining table.

"Humm arouses this appetite. May Abah like it, as well as my son Ahmad Rafiq and the woman" he said by putting the food on the dining table.

"Hummm what is this smell ? I'm laper.." said Ayu.

"Astaghfirullah uh mom. Laper is Mom ?

Please, Ma'am, sit here. We eat together." said Umminya Ainun.

"Holeee ate.holeee finally I could eat. Is this really allowed to eat? not kicked out again ? I'm just a laper, want to eat. Don't throw me out.. I haven't eaten in a few days. I'm really hungry hiks." said Ayu in tears.

For a moment Umminya Ainun was a little surprised by the woman's statement.

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Please Don't Forget Me - Love Eating Ayu's Mother

"Yes, Mom, you can eat. Please eat yes, mother must be hungry. No one wants to throw my mother out. Sorry before, did you ever get kicked out if you want to eat ? " ask Umminya Ainun.

" I always throw you out if I want to eat? why do you guys have sex with me ? hyx. You're evil. Is it because I am no longer a girl and have lost my chastity that you treat me like this ? Because you are my son Sudsh gone and now you blame me for the absence of my son ? aren't you the cause ? hiks hahahaha.." said Ayu who began to mingle again and took a tablespoon and pointed it to Umminya Ainun, to make Umminya Ainun afraid himself.

"Mother what the fuck ? Ataghfirullah, ma'am please calm down. Okay sorry if you are wrong in asking, but I beg you to calm down. I apologize in advance." said Umminya Ainun.

"Ohya, I'll sit down. Please eat, I can eat whatever is available at this table and whatever. Please eat, Mom. I love being able to cook for my mother especially if you like my cooking" said Umminya Ainun who was still trying to smile.

"Can you eat ? I'm not being kicked out anymore ? even though I'm no longer a girl and can't take care of my son until I lose him ?" said Ayu's mother.

"Yes, you can eat, be free . And no one kicked mom. And about the status of the mother is still a girl or not for me does not matter because everyone has the same rights. I am also not a girl anymore Kok Bu and already have a child hehehe, we are the same." said Umminya Ainun who was still trying to smile and hold Ayu's hand to calm him.

While Ayu's mother was only able to quietly listen to Umminya Ainun's statement. Umminya Ainun immediately hugged Ayu's mother to calm her down.

"Mom, don't be afraid of me. I consider my mother like my brother. I can eat whenever I want. Mom is free here, can do whatever you want to do while it's not dangerous for you or us. I can think of this as my own mother's house" said Umminya Ainun who still hugged Ayu's mother.

"Thank you.." she shrieked Ayu's mother weakly, along with a round of tears that drenched her cheeks.

"Mother don't cry dong. Later I will be sad too." said Ayu Mother by trying to remove the tear-spread that soaked Ayu's cheeks and hugged him back to calm him.

"Assalamualaikum Ummi, it's done cooking well, Abah hungry nih want to eat immediately" said Abahah Ainun.

"Yes Abah, it's done. Come eat with Abah with us." said Umminya Ainun.

"Yes Abah eat yes, but Abah wants to clean the body first. We will eat together. But if ummi same mother Ayu want to eat first do not papa really." said Abahanya Ainun.

"Iya Abah, ummi just wait for Abah. Maybe let Ayu eat first." said Umminya Ainun.

"Okay Ummi, Abah go to the bathroom first huh." said Abahah Ainun, who immediately passed to the bathroom.

A few minutes later, his brother came out of the bathroom and ate together.

"What if Ahmad Rafiq is still in the pesantren? why haven't you gone home yet?" ask Umminya Ainun.

"Yes had just returned from teaching children in the park, Ahmad checks the boarding school as well as his students also want to teach and give them material for a while.

We better eat first yes ummi, because if you wait Ahmad will likely be long. When to go home" said Abahah Ainun.

"Oooh okay deh Abah, let's eat" said Umminya Ainun.

"Yes Ummu, yuk." said Abahah Ainun who immediately ate.

"Ah, yes ummi forgot to make Avocado juice the same Apple first for you.

Wait a minute." said Umminya Ainun back.

"Nob continue to eat first ummi ? make the juice later or don't do anything ummi." said Abahya Ainun back.

"No papa Abah, Umm make it a minute.

Wait a minute, yeah." said Umminya Ainun who soon passed to the kitchen to make juice Al trawl as well as Apples for Abnah.

"Alhamdulillah is done, now just make Apple juice I mix with tomatoes and carrots" said Umminya who immediately prepare 4 fresh carrots, 2 green apples, 3 fresh tomatoes. Then Umminya Ainun immediately wash all materials and cut the pieces to be easily inserted into the blender. Then put it into a blander with a little sugar or water.

"Alhamdulillah is finished, the pump is still cold . I serve it for them." said Umminya Ainun who immediately cleaned up the rest of the juice Al trawl and took it to the dining table and served it.

"Yee, Alhamdulillah the juice is done. Yuk please drink, the pump is still cold certainly also refreshed to eliminate thirst." said Umminya Ainun.

"Yes Ummi, look fresh so impatient Abah cobain" said Abah Ainun who then tried the juice.

"Humm, it's so delicious Ummi fresh again" said Abahah Ainun back, and continued to drink the juice.

"Let's Ayu's mother if you want to drink her juice in a drink yes" said Umminya Ainun back by giving her juice to Ayu's mother and help her to drink the juice.

"How does Bu Ayu feel?" ask Umminya Ainun to the mother.

"enyaaak, enyaaaaak I shukaaaaa" said Ayu's mother who immediately drained the juice.

"Alhamdulillah if you like. Come happy. Please spend ma'am, if less juice mother can add." said Umminya Ainun.

"Assalamualaikum, Abah, Ummi. Loh Abah so take this woman home?" asked Ainun who was still confused and wondering.

"Yes son, Abah brought it here because of pity also if alone and Abah wants us to be the same as care for him until he is healed and can reveal this truth, son." said Abahan Ainun.

"Owh is like that, Abah. Alright Abah may he recover soon after we take care of him so that he can reveal this truth. Aamiin " said Ainun.

"You didn't eat first, son?" ask Umminya Ainun.

"Humm, Ai is still full ummi. Maybe later Ai ate ummi." said Ainun.

"How full is it ? did you eat?" ask Umminya Ainun.

"Not Ummi, but somehow Ai was full" Ainun said.

"Dad, eat first. We can talk later. Ai can share with each other ummi, how?" ask ummi Ainun.

"Yes ummi, but I'm sorry Ai really does not appetite, why. Later if it's Ai's appetite yes ummi. Fearing that Ai force a meal now, there is Ai nausea and ended up vomiting Ummi and the food was not exhausted. Sorry ummi.." said Ainun.

"Humm, fine son." said Umminya Ainun.

"Yaudah Ummi, Ainun first go to the room, Si wants to rest" said Ainun, who immediately passed to his room to rest.

"Yes Ai." said Umminya Ainun who then continued eating.

"Ummi , Ainun why ? later Ummi approached Ainun yes and asked why with Ainun" said Abahanya Ainun.

" Yes Abah, ummi want to continue eating first yes. Later after the end of , ummi will go to Ainun's room to invite him to talk and also deliver food for him, because after all Ainun will have maagh Abah if it is too late to get sick and surely Ai is hungry later. Ai does not want Ainun to be sick, Abah." said Umminya Ainun, who then continued eating..Likewise with his brother while Ayu who has not eaten for a long time and can eat good food he immediately added three dishes at once.

"Alhamdulillah is finished, then went to Ainun's room" said Ummi Ainun.

After finishing eating the , Umminya Ainun immediately berberes and to his son's room, Ainun to calm him.

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Please Don't Forget Me - Advice from Ummi

While elsewhere Ainun who was in turmoil and heartbreak tried to listen to a song that was in accordance with what he felt, from the song Rosa and the genre of sad.

Toktoktok, "kak ummi can come in ?" ask ummi Ainun.

"May, please ummi." said Salsa who tried to wipe away her tears.

"Son, ..." said Umminya Ainun who then immediately entered.

"What's your son?" ask Umminya Ainun.

"Ummi, I.." said Ainun who then stopped.

"Son, why are you ? why do you love?." said Umminya trying to echo Ainun's hand and Ainun also leaned his head on Umminya.

"I was confused as to how to explain to ummi" Ainun said.

"Try to talk slowly, son." said Umminya Ainun.

"Aldo Bu hiks and Ahmad Rafiq as well, they are." said Ainun who cried.

"So like this Ummi the story ....." Ainun also recounted the meeting between himself and Aldo, Ahmad Rafiq, and Salsa at the house of Ahmad Rafiq.

"Relax baby, calm down. Is it about love, right ? This is a dear, it could be that we think he is best for us but not necessarily for God.

Likewise, we think bad is not necessarily according to God is also bad, baby.

We need to know, there is nothing more beautiful and impressive than a sincere heart. But, does happening and accepting everything with a sincere heart is a simple matter? No. gabe. Yes, the answer to that question is no. Being a person who is always sincere is a difficult thing, even very difficult. Although very difficult, it does not mean to happen and accept everything with a sincere heart is an impossible thing to do, dear Ainun.

Slowly and gradually, with a feeling of patience and sincerity, it is certain that we will have a sincere heart. Yes, although not completely or not one hundred percent we are completely sincere. To apply and accept everything sincerely, at least must be accompanied by a feeling of calm and always positive thinking. To be sincere, at least it must also be accompanied by a heart full of acceptance and submit everything to Allah Subhanallah.

There are times when we should feel resigned to all circumstances. Although resigned, it does not mean we are someone who loses. No, we are someone who sucks. Resignation is where we accept everything with a sincere feeling and great hope that what we experience is His best will." said Umminya Ainun, trying to advise Ainun.

"Behind all the grace that we do, it is still advisable to keep the effort and believe that everything beautiful will come someday. Behind the submission we do, it is also strongly recommended that we always try and pray for the best from Him, ask for His guidance and give everything only to Him.

There are times when we want something so much that we forget that what we want may not be the best for us. Because of this desire, not infrequently we will do various ways and too force the will. If you have forced the will, the wrong action becomes our problem. The feeling becomes more and more unsettled, always feeling less and completely uncomfortable.

In the meantime, do you know what the impact of all this is? Not only harming ourselves, forcing the will to push us wrong in acting will also harm the people around us, harming the people we love and making their feelings hurt and disappointed. If this were the case, wouldn't we be angry? Not only angry at these people, even we often will scold ourselves. Even more terrifying, sometimes we will be angry and blame the owner of life. Who should be blamed if this is the case?.

This is an old advice that we have to take deep. "God subhanallah will not give us something we want, but something we need." God will always give us what we need. And be assured that God always knows what we need. Behind all the sincerity that is in the heart and truly sincere acceptance, there will be something that will make us always happy. There is something that will always make us feel calm, comfortable and closer to Him.

When you force to keep everything, it could be that it will just disappear from you. Everything that belongs to you will come back to you, no need to force everything. If it is created and outlined for you, a sincere heart will lead it to something that makes you happy.

When we can be sincere, or at least full of acceptance, it is certain that this will make us always feel happy. A sincere feeling will also lead us to everything that makes a smile knot at the corner of the lips will always be sweet every day. Believe me, the more you try to make love, the more you will feel calm and comfortable." continued Umminya Ainun.

"So this is how loving the right partner who is your life partner can make your life complete later, while the wrong choice makes you lose direction. But isn't love always a mystery or a puzzle? Where is the right partner and which wrong choice can be missed after we finish living the household ark ? if it's still not , we won't know and ask questions.

Love is like two sides of a coin. Because of him, you can be the happiest, even the most miserable in the world. You are lucky if you currently have a partner who completes – someone who makes you stop looking. Love never comes with certainty. Every relationship must have two possibilities; between succeeding or even nil.

Even though you feel you have found the one who feels the best, there is no guarantee that destiny between you can run smoothly without obstacles. Even though you feel you can face all the challenges in front of both eyes. The love in the chest was so bubbling it felt. To the extent that you are sure anything that comes in the way can definitely be hit with a single kick.

Your reality, your compatibility and your beliefs are not everything. All return to the destiny of God, if you are not destined to mate, God must have prepared the best soul mate for you, for each of you. Even if you are a match, God will unite in his way, with things you did not expect before to make you smile at God's destiny and the pain will no longer be felt in your chest. Believe in God's destiny dear. "said Umminya Ainun who tried to embrace Ainun.

"Judah, you eat first. You haven't eaten yet, have you ?I don't want you to be sick. Eat first, baby. Ummi wanted to accompany Ayu's mother first." said Ainun's mother tried to shake Ainun's hand and then passed out of the room.

"God, why is my love destiny like this ??" lirih Ainun, who then ate the food that Umminya had prepared.

　

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Please Don't Forget Me - Ayu's Mother's Story

"Mom, you're not resting?" ask Umminya Ainun when he saw Aunt Ayu contemplating herself in the living room .

"Mother why? Mother can tell me if there is a thought that disturbs mother" asked Ummi Ainun back. But he did not answer until Ainun's mother brought him to rest. Ummi Ainun always accompany him every day to control, tell stories, eat together and others. Ummi Ainun hopes this woman will soon wake up and recover. Because he himself wanted to hear the story of Ayu's mother from himself.

Until a few months later, Ayu also gradually recovered and began to remember what had happened to him. Today is the day awaited by Umminya Ainun and his Abah. The day they all waited for, though,

They wanted to hear the story about Ayu's mother directly. Umminya Ainun and Abahah asked Ayu's mother to tell about her.

"Mom, I'm sorry can you tell me a little story about mom ?

Maybe we can help you find the mother rapist and find the mother's child, how?? " said Umminya Ainun and his Abah.

"Yes, I'll tell you.. I want to thank you guys for helping me and taking care of me until I recover. And thank you at this time you also want to help me again to find the perpetrator and my son.

But if I'm honest, I just want to meet my son, because I wish I was then. I did want to meet the man and see how he lived, but somehow for me it was still very difficult and not able to meet him.

Because I was still very disappointed with him honestly because he was the man who once loved me and I loved. The man who made me trust him. My heart still hurts too much to imagine what he did to me." said Ayu's mother.

"Okay, I'll tell you how the story of me and the beginning of meeting that guy was until I ended up crazy like that. It was really a long struggle...So look, .." said Ayu's mother who started telling stories.

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My name is Ayu, I was a teenager at the time. I live in a cafe, near a place where people hang out.

I'm a girl who often wears closed clothes, I find it hard to fall in love until a guy named Herman loves me,

He kept approaching me and all I knew was a nice guy to me even though people around him often said that he was a bad guy but to me he was still a good guy because I saw for myself how he behaved at me. Not just from the words of the people around.

I loved it in the end, and we got closer. But I didn't expect that when he came to my house he took away my chastity.

To be honest in an instant I was destroyed Someone I love managed to snatch my sacred master.

I'm shattered..

I'm kelu...

My heart's fucked

I can't afford to linger with her anymore I really hate her.

I chose to leave him, leaving him as far away as possible.

Yeah, until I went out of town

I disappeared without a trace

Especially for me that an orphan has no family or brothers of course it will be more difficult to find me .

But I was grateful for that, so that man couldn't find me.

Found my presence here.

In the past, I thought he would be my angel of help, who would help me and protect me in fact he was no more the destroyer of my future .

Now I believe he's no more a bad guy, just like his friend.

For a few days I left the house.

And I just turned out I was pregnant with that boy

With a child I don't want.

To be honest I would love to abort this child, but I don't want to add to my sinful actions by killing this innocent fetus. It was enough that I felt dirty and disgusted because I was unable to maintain my chastity which of course would also make both my dead parents, disappointed in me.

Although it was broken, it was chaotic at that moment that I felt. I tried to get up and start a new life with my son, but in fact my struggle did not get there because many trials that made me waver and fall down.

This fight is not that easy.

There are many lika twists that I have to face.

Yeah, a lot of scorn from people around me, about me, until I was stressed with the existing situation until I often fainted and the doctor declared weak content and to be removed because of seeing my condition getting here more stressful rather than recovering.

Yes, after the doctor gave me some prescription drugs and my womb but it seems nil because I am still weak and the doctor advised me to abort this womb. Because according to the doctor, my womb will not last much longer .

But I'm sure the kid I'm carrying must have survived, and yes I managed to prove my point. The kid I was carrying survived but he had a leaky heart defect.

I had to fight and sacrifice for my son. Especially the words of people around who often say words that do not please me and my son.

Those who often say I am a woman who is not a virgin and say that my son who is now sick as karma because I cannot keep my purity.

People around me often say that I'm not a good mother to my son and I can't take good care of my son. So often they want to separate me from my son.

Until that day came, a day that seemed to me like a nightmare. How not ?

My son was forcibly taken by them because I thought I was a bad mother to my son and my son was taken away somewhere, I lost track of my son.

But the one thing that makes me still grateful, I clearly remember my son's birthmark and at least I can still feel my child's embrace.

But I also hate those who have separated me from my son.

At that time I promised to take my revenge on them, especially on the man who had taken my chastity. Pretending to be nice to me just to get my chastity and destroy my future .

Though he had promised to protect me but in fact his words were no more a lie, it was he who had taken away my happiness and future. He really completely destroyed me and I promised to destroy him otherwise I wanted him to feel the destruction in a family he would not feel happiness and would be covered in guilt continuously, I said at the time.

Yes it has been decades but the pain I feel does not disappear at all.

I vividly remember how that man took away my chastity, took away my happiness and my future.

The man who made me fall in love and believe in him.

I truly regret ever loving such a man .

I have ever trusted a man like that..

Although now I do not know the whereabouts of the man, but I am sure now his life is not calm and will be haunted by guilt and regret.

Because how could he possibly be happy in his marriage ? it has taken away my happiness and my future.

He may be happy in my tears..

And how could he be happy without feeling his guilt and remorse after everything he did to me. How is it possible ...??

And for my son I hope he can be happy wherever he is, and I don't know why I can feel that actually my son is alive and he's not dead.

However, I am still a mother and can feel a mother's feelings for her child, about the presence of her child that she longs for.

***

After hearing the story told by Ayu's mother, without feeling Umminya Ainun also her brother cried.

They seemed to feel the tightness felt by Ayu's mother .

As a woman, Umminya Ainun can feel what Ayu feels, how the sanctity that has been kept is taken for granted, just like that, practice is blamed by people around him for mistakes he did not make especially have to lose his son after what he fought for his son. Because people around him consider he is not a good mother for his son.

Not the hug they gave Ayu's mother but quite the opposite.

And his brother Ainun was sad, annoyed, angry and hateful towards the man.

As a man he was furious at such an irresponsible man, a man who only took advantage of Ayu's innocence and innocence.

Then do not want to account for it or think about his actions before he does.

"Mom, I'm sorry if we reminded mom about mom's past. About that dark story. Once again we're sorry, we just wanted to hear it directly from mom and we wanted to help mom.

Do we have to find the man to account for him and the missing mother's son ? we promise we will try our best to find them yes." said Umminya Ainun who immediately embraced Ayu's mother to strengthen her and calm her.

"Yes Bu Ayu, we will try to help mom as much as we can" said Abahya Ainun.

"Thank you very much for your kindness and for helping me. Just one I asked for and expected. Please look for the whereabouts of my son, is he still alive or has he died ?

If he had died where he was buried and who would have cared for him ? and if he's alive, where is he currently living and how is he ?

I beg Mom, I want to know about my son, I beg you.Hiks.." said Ayu's mother with a cry that she could not bear anymore.

"Yes ma'am, we promised we'd find the mother's son. We promise, I'll take it easy." said Umminya Ainun who held Ayu's hand and hugged her.

"Yes we promise we will try to find out about the mother's child" said Abahanya Ainun.