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NANDES: QUESTIONS WITHOUT ANSWERS

Dew and Elsa cuddle off the longing. Adam and I looked at the two of them who looked like children. We spent time eating lunch together and talking. We spent the whole day with Adam's family.

" So, om and aunty already know Dew home?", Adam asked as he sipped his canned drink. We stood outside the house to smoke in the open room. 

" No, Dew doesn't seem to want to go home yet" I turned off the cigarette butts in the ashtray. 

Adam nodded "Slowly, bro. Don't be too forced, one day his feelings will open up to you again" Adam advises.

" yes. I was too scared that he was gone. I'm trying to make her comfortable with me right now. Thanks to you and Elsa being with me when I'm down Adam", I'm sincere.

Adam smiled "that's the job of Nandes' best friend. When Elsa was scared to see how you were, she thought you were going to end your own life. So when Dew sent him that message, he called you right away. He felt guilty for hiding the Dew from you all this time. Forgive us Nandes, Elsa must have chosen her best friend", Adam gave understanding.

" Yes I understand. Hopefully with him alone at that time he can forget all the bad events. Most importantly at this time I would try to take care of her as best I could", I looked at the Dew standing by the kitchen window holding the second child Adam and Elsa. 

" Yes, I hope you will be happy at last" Adam prayed. 

I smiled at her prayer and guaranteed it in my heart. 

***

When I got home it was late at night. I saw Dew walking unsteadily towards the stairs, he turned towards me as he climbed the 3rd rung. 

" Nandes, thank you today. I'm so happy", Dew looked at me with a happy smile. 

I didn't answer, the little bit of alcohol I was drinking made my mind wander. I went up to him and stood at the bottom of the stairs. 

" Dew.", I bit my lips in dismay.

" Yes?", Dew replied calmly. 

" I miss you too much", I looked at her with a meaningful look. 

The silent dew did not give any response. He looked at me with a look I couldn't understand.  I climbed the stairs and grabbed the back of her head with my hand, I leaned her against the wall near the stairs and kissed her brutally. I can't help myself anymore, my defense broke down because of a little alcohol. 

Dew tried to push me away from "Nandes.. wait a minute", Dew tried to push me. I kissed her lips, felt her sweet mouth, kissed her cheeks, her ears her neck and her shoulders.

" Nandes, you're drunk", Dew resuscitated me. 

I stopped on his shoulder, I stayed there "I .. Not drunk. I'm crazy because of you", I pulled myself in and saw that I was like a beast. Half the buttonholes missed because of me. I tidied it up, after which I came down the stairs avoiding looking into his eyes. I then went out of the house, started the car engine to Alex's bar. 

***

 I tapped on the table in front of me. Dew didn't look at me when I left the office, it seemed like he was angry. I broke the contract. Not just once but many times. I put my body on the table, a little annoyed at not being able to hold myself back. 

My desire is only to react to Dew. Every time I saw the Dew I felt my defense as a man instantly crumble, all the nonsense about the promise of not touching it didn't apply in my head. I went wild, like a wild animal. 

Monica came, as usual, in without knocking on the door. He put the tablet on my desk. I saw what Monica was proposing, a big-case news portal filled the title page of "Supermodel Nadia is dating the CEO of Cain Company. The largest company in Asia".

I glared at the news then looked at Monica who was even cool lying on the sofa. " What is this?", I asked him. 

I picked up the phone and opened the CCTV, Dew is taking a cooking course. Seeing that I breathed a sigh of relief. Pushed one of the buttons on the phone plane and got my secretary straight in. 

" Close all news about this. And shut down all Nadia's access here. Arrange for us to only communicate with him on business" I gave the order. 

"Well sir", my secretary according to.

I took my phone and called my personal assistant. "Rian is coming to my office right now", I gave the command line that made him arrive in my room in less than 5 minutes. 

" Let's know who this news spreader is. And destroy", I'm angry. 

" Good sir", Rian answered obediently and went out of the room. 

Monic applauded "well look, how great our CEO is. Once pat all the problems solved. But her own love story couldn't work out", Monica said cynically. 

I saw her upset but did not argue. "we have to be prepared to look for another model. This woman can't be set", I'm talking seriously.

" Hmmm..  Okay.  I'll look up to your request", Monica agreed. 

I kept quiet while looking out my office window. High buildings decorate the city. Business competition is no joke. If there is one tick that bothers me, I will get rid of it my way.

***

I went home sooner than usual. As usual Dew was preparing our dinner. I walked into the house awkwardly, hoping he would nag me but wouldn't ignore me. 

" Have you eaten?", Dew asked me who was still standing while looking at him.

" Not yet", I answered quickly. 

" Wash your hands, I've cooked a lot" Dew spoke as if nothing had happened. 

I felt uncomfortable, he should have shouted at me. "Grab, if you want to get angry. Justdoit. I'm guilty", I looked at his back.

The dew stopped doing its activities. He spoke in a quivering voice "I have reasons I cannot tell you about Nandes. Can you understand me?".

Egoku climbed up to hear his words "What reason? ", i'm pressing. The dew remains silent. 

" I missed you half dead, I still like you. Are there not a few feelings left for me? What was my fault until you were like this? Did I hurt you Dew?", I spoke in a choked voice. 

The silent dew remained on my back, his shoulders trembling. I know she's crying, but I'm exploding. All year long I held a lot of questions on my chest and now I want answers. The answer to all my loss so far.

" I don't deserve you Nandes", Dew spoke again.

" What is it like for me? Explain something I can understand", I'm angry.

The silent dew did not give any answer to me. I hit the table in anger and walked away leaving the Dew. I was very angry, angry because of all his words and angry because I felt I was the only one who missed him so much but he didn't.

***