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" I'm sorry I hurt you. I. I just love you too much", Juan looked at me sadly. 

I lowered my head "When you left, I cried over your departure. Once I find something valuable you come and destroy it. Claiming me is yours, saying you love me as you please. Do I have to cry for the second time?", I looked at Juan who drank his drink in one breath. 

" I'm guilty so I'll make amends to you. Ii'm sorry. I'll make you happy if you're with me. Marry me", Juan took my hand. 

I gulped down my drink angrily and got off the chair. As I was about to walk I felt something creeping up my chest, a little hot. I stopped and held my chest.  The song went soft, Juan grabbed my waist and twisted my body. 

" I'm sorry, please don't be angry again beautiful. Just hit me if you want", Juan pulled me into his arms. 

Juan moved his body and asked me to dance.  I followed his movements. He took me gently, danced in his arms, my breath began to hunt as something rippled in my blood. As Juan turned my body I started to feel dizzy, something was spinning in my head. There was a different taste that rose into my chest. I grabbed Juan's shirt. My head is resting on his chest. I feel hot and my desire goes up. 

I grabbed Juan's shoulder "fuck, you .. drug .... what?", I broke in my breath hunting

Juan smiled he turned my back to her his hand was on my stomach "I want you to Dew. I'll do everything I can to have you. I only provoked a little so you wanted me tonight ". Juan whispered in my ear and kissed my neck. My breath accepted her kiss. It was like there was a stream of electricity that made the two beauties on my chest twitch. 

I pushed Juan with my remaining strength. I didn't hear anything Juan said. I let go of his embrace and walked towards the room with a stagger. Right now I feel like I'm floating around and want something more than a man. I was stuck with a little bit of her kindness, I felt like I wanted to cry. 

Juan followed "Where are you going, baby?", Juan called me. Ignored him.

I walked towards the bathroom about to splash myself with cold water. I need to be sane before I get Juan's touch. Not yet able to reach the toilet door Juan has pulled me and carried me. 

I fell asleep, the medicine was controlling my entire bloodstream and my head. My logic is dead, only desire fills me. A desire I want to fulfill. My heart was pounding because of the medicine. 

The dizziness came along with my desire. Juan put me to sleep on the bed, he watched me limp and tried to fight it. I looked into his eyes, sometimes love was seen there, sometimes a look of sadness flashed past, but there was a lustful look that was occasionally seen. 

I turned my body around trying to crawl off the bed. This drug tortures me, I'm burning with my own desire. I felt Juan kissing my back from my waist up to my shoulder. He pulled my hair and whispered "I'm sorry for using this dirty way Dew. This is all I can do to get you. Forgive me for being a coward", Juan kissed my shoulder in a loving manner.

My body shakes feeling the kiss. My breath is hunting, there are no words I can say. I was in between hovering and treading on the ground, half my soul adding a touch. I turned around and pulled Juan towards me. I just looked at him, Juan kissed me gently. I replied to him in an unusual way, I was very aggressive. I kissed Juan, biting his ear, his neck. My hand went into his shirt. Tracing his stomach, his chest reached his back. I want it in my mind.

I lost my control. I drowned myself in Juan's kiss, for the first time I didn't reject Juan's kiss. I grabbed Juan by the neck, I floated feeling his every touch on my body. Juan took off his shirt. I watched her, I bit my lips to hold back the madness that was peaking in my chest. 

" i.. Juan. I. .. very .. hot", I complained in an *******. 

" I'll want you baby" Juan said with a smile looking at me. We kissed in excruciating desire. 

As Juan grabbed both of mine in his mouth, I trembled beneath him like liquid was coming out and making me wet. But I don't feel enough, my dress is somehow wasted where. 

" I.. can't.. can resist .." , I squirm under Juan. 

Juan entered me, I screamed and sighed with each movement. Juan gave me a dozen styles. Until I was exhausted and exhausted. I drifted deep into nirvana, as Juan ended his game. 

" i love you, Mom. Loving you so much", I vaguely heard her words in my ear. 

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I woke up with pain between my groin, I squinted my eyes looking around. I am confused by the situation. I took off the blanket and found myself naked for nothing.

Last night, the taste of alcohol was still in my mouth. I covered my face with my hands. What I do. I betrayed Nandes, I. I slept with Juan. I'm bonkers. I must be crazy.I'm draping a thin blanket wrapped around my body.

Someone opened the room door, Juan came in in full office clothes. I got so angry because I saw it. Juan came up to me wanting to wipe my hair, I angrily brushed his hand away.

" Bastard, what are you doing to me?", I avoided it.

"We slept together. You and I", Juan answered calmly seeing me dodge it.

" You set me up. You put drugs in my drink, you son of a bitch. Cowardly.. Juan you changed. You're like a monster", I yelled at him for his loyalty.

Juan walked over to me, I backed away from him "Don't come near. I hate you. I hate ", I took an item near me and threw it at Juan. Of course Juan dodged easily, seeing that I was getting angry.

I ran towards the sideboard and grabbed the vase that was there. With all my might I threw it at Juan. The vase shot down and shattered into pieces next to him.

Juan who was shocked by my angry outburst did not shy away from throwing the vase. I'm really rampaging. I was angry with myself for treason, I was angry with Juan for setting me up.

" You ruined my life Juan. Get out of here. I don't want to see you. Go", I pushed Juan out of the room. I felt no pain in my feet stepping on the shards of the flower vase. Blood-shaped patches of legs stuck to the floor. I don't care about it.

Juan pulled my hand "Stop the Dew, your leg is bleeding. Stop it", Juan was as hard as he could to calm me down.

I cried as I continued to rage at Juan, I hit him with all my might. My feet left traces of blood on the floor. Juan held me back, without saying a word. He accepted all my insults until I finally got tired and my punches got weaker.

Juan hugged me, I cried in his chest. I don't know what I cried, my stupidity or my betrayal of Nandes. Suddenly I felt dizzy, my eyes twitching. Then I fell drooping, Juan called me "Dew? A dump?". Juan was holding me, I could feel his embrace. And what I heard for the last time was Juan ordering someone to clean that room.

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