Paper Dove

My Dirty Mind

Tomorrow I have made an appointment with Nandes to watch one of the newly released zombie-themed Korean movies.

I sat at Nurse Station wiggling next to my feet agitated, my eyes watching the nurse who was pacing back and forth before the clock came home. I've been working in this special unit for about 5 years.

A nurse reprimanded me “ The doctor hasn't come home?”, she asked.

“ Yes, I want to go home. It's all, right? take care today doctor Fani”, I said standing up.

I was nervous because there was one thing I planned in my head. Watching together is an excuse I'm using to carry out the plan I've put together with Elsa.

Today with steel intentions I want to make sure if Nandes still thinks of me more or just as a younger brother. 

I'm shopping at the supermarket for the night. Snacks, canned drinks, and some of my personal needs.

As I passed the personal shelf I saw some small box-shaped items with strawberry drawings and other designs. Of course I knew what it was, I immediately remembered what Elsa said about the ovum that had to be fertilized.

My face warmed up and I immediately laughed to myself “ haha. Dew base dirty brain. Not been in the door for a long time, huh? it could be that dirty thoughts so cross over. I'm just making sure I don't want to take Nandes to bed. Haha base perverted old lady”, I cursed myself slowly then rushed to the cashier and paid for all my groceries. 

While in the car I called Nandes, on the third ring Nandes picked up the phone. 

“ Hello..”, answer.

“ Brother, I'm done buying snacks. I'm going to sister's apartment now”, I said.

“ Yes, my car is damaged. I am a friend, now on my way there”, replied Nandes.

“ Oke”, I was cheerful then hung up and drove my car to Nandes' apartment. 

I entered the Nandes apartment complex and was about to enter the car park basement when I saw a white car stop in front of me.

Nandes goes down after a beautiful, tall and sexy woman. I pulled my car over a little bit behind them, like Nandes didn't know I was there.

Nandes like saying something and the woman smiled with flirtatious in my opinion, even though in the glasses of others it was an ordinary smile. The woman hit Nandes slowly on the shoulder in a spoiled style.

" Waaahh... flirtatious... and look at Nandes' smile...wah he seems to like to be touched so yes...hah!", I nagged in the car while glaring at them. Of course they can't hear or see me.

My heart slipped as the woman approached Nandes and stroked Nandes' cheek. Unknowingly I pressed the car horn firmly, they were both shocked and I was shocked by what I was doing.

Nandes narrowed his eyes to look at me and smiled, after which he waved at the woman and ran towards my car. I saw the woman smiling and waving to me, I put a forced smile on my face to return the wave. 

“ Hi, you just arrived yes ?”, Nandes asked when I was in my car.

“ Next time if you want to make out do not in the middle of the road, block the way aja”, I nag with a pouty face.

What she still likes, she just has a boyfriend like that my inner self. No need to be sure it is visible. I became upset with myself for eating Elsa's words. 

Nandes who heard me grumbling immediately smiled “ So if you want to make out where to?”, Nandes replied that he did not feel guilty. 

“ Where?Yes where the cake, in the cake house, in the cake room or in the hotel noh”, my tirade heard the strange question

Nandes nodded “ Okay, good idea”.

“ Dew said you were shopping? How not to bring”, shouted Nandes to me.

I turned to look at him “ You are the one who brought, I am tired”, I said annoyed and left Nandes who was dumbfounded to see my absurd behavior in his eyes. 

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Arriving at Nandes apartment I immediately cleaned myself while muffling my anger.

But briefly. Why am I angry? what's problem? it's good that Nandes has a girlfriend. I didn't have to embarrass myself with my vague plan. I closed the shower faucet, dried, put on my clothes and walked out of the bathroom. 

Nandes stood behind a dining table filled with a lot of plastic groceries. I pretended not to understand his frustration.

Looking at me, she came up to me, who was drying the ends of my hair with a towel on the bathroom door. He brought his face closer to me, I reflexively rewinded my face. You need to know right now my heart is pounding violently and my cheeks are starting to get hot.

Then with a pacified face Nandes said.

 

“ Excuse me, miss, I'm so tired of lifting all that groceries alone. Now that I want to take a bath”, Nades' hand grabbed the doorknob that was behind my waist and opened it.

I snorted at her behavior and she pushed me slowly to the side so I wouldn't get in her way. A severe and probable revenge I could have thumped because of it. I looked sharply at him thinking of another retaliation for him.

While she was in the bathroom for about 5 minutes, I came and turned off the bathroom switch making Nandes scream from the inside telling me to blame the switch again. 

“Just turn it on yourself, who told you to push me earlier”, I replied casually.

Without guessing Nandes came out of the bathroom with a towel that wrapped his waist down and showed his field chest and abdominal muscles that made my face red.

His broad shoulders I just noticed now, it felt like I wanted to run and lean myself there. His embrace has been warm all this time. I woke up from my fascination and turned my face away. 

“ You ... wear your shirt Nandes”, I yell at him while turning my back.

My brain and legs are out of sync, my brain tells me to leave but my legs don't move at all. There was no reply from Nandes, but I felt his aura behind me. I could smell the smell of soap pouring out into my nose as he lowered his head and whispered to me “ Do you now see me as a man?”.

I gasped at her words, without looking I immediately walked into the guest room and closed the door. My face was red, my heart was pounding so hard, I felt the air was hot when I had just finished a shower. I sat on the bedside remembering how Nandes whispered in my ear, my hair bristling. 

“ Waah... realize yourself Dewun.. Sadarkan yourself... Yes God keep me from all my evil and perverted thoughts”, I kneel by the bed as if praying.

Suddenly Nandes knocked on my bedroom door. “ Dew, when to start watching the movie? the popcorn is so”, Nandes calls me slow.

“Iya, bentar”, I replied.

Then I slapped my cheeks slowly to get back to reality, taking a deep breath so that my mind would calm down. After that I opened the door and found Nandes who was standing completely in his clothes. A little unnecessary disappointment came at him for seeing him fully dressed.

I cursed in the heart the basic lecherous brain Dew.

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