Paper Dove

I'm Into You

After a few weeks of exhaustion, finally the awaited art scene arrived.

The night before H was performing art, I was in school until nightfall. All students are there from the committee to the event. Full of busyness. 

When the dress rehearsal was over, Juan pulled my hand away. We sat in the front garden of his class. Small elephant grass makes it comfortable to relax. 

" It's really tired..but how come you guys weren't at the rehearsal?", I asked curiously. 

" Yaaa. It will be no surprise. The exception for the upperclassmen was no problem right?", Juan said casually. 

I nodded while sneering at "Iye iye upperclassman".

Juan laughing. Juan sat down towards me. 

" Dew".

I feel like the atmosphere has turned too serious. " Yes... What do you want to say? About the gig tomorrow?", I tried to guess the origin.

" No. It's about me to you", Juan bluntly. 

I was kind of stuck, trying not to guess the direction of this conversation. " Why are you going to me? You made a mistake, didn't you? ", i guessed. 

Juan looked at me fixedly, under the garden lights I could see his flat face, like he did not want to express himself. I kept quiet and did not urge him to speak.

" I.. to you, there is a different taste ", Juan is a little stammered but quite firm in his words. 

I still stared at Juan, my body stiffened not just because of the cold of the night. But because of the words from Juan about his feelings for me. The jacket doesn't make me feel warm.

" From the first day I met you, I was interested in you. I've been bothering you all this time not without cause. I like you Dew ", Juan stared into my bead. 

I was silent, my heartbeat was irregular. It felt like my heart was pounding giving a strange sensation to my entire body.

Happiness mixed with anxiety. I saw my breath become steam as I exhaled slowly. It felt like I was dreaming, I also really liked Juan.

But when she expressed her heart to me, it felt like I believed and didn't believe every word she said. I was afraid he was pranking me. 

" Sister... Shoot me?", I asked bego. To convince myself.

" No. I didn't shoot you" Juan said firmly. 

I was shocked to be embarrassed. There was a slight sense of relief and so much disappointment instantly tucked into the chest. As expected, he was joking. Fortunately I haven't been too overwhelmed. I laughed stiffly "Sister Juan jokes outrageous".

Juan saw me "I'm not kidding either".

I looked at Juan confused by what he meant, I didn't understand. He said he liked it but didn't want to date or anything? I argue in my heart.  

Juan held one of my hands." I say my heart is the same as yours. I want you to know that I like you, I love you. But I didn't ask you if you wanted to be my girlfriend?... ".

" Oh.", now all the disappointment hits my chest. 

"... I want you to be my girlfriend. Without rejection, I don't like to be rejected. From tonight you are my girlfriend ", Juan said firmly do not want to be denied. 

I looked at him, digesting every word. 

"For a moment.. Brother didn't ask my opinion?", I protested. 

" no. Dislike you should want to be my girlfriend ", Juan stroked my head slowly and softly said "any more things to ask dear?".

I just shut up. Not because I don't like it but because I try to hold back the happiness that will fly out of my chest. I like Juan, not since when. 

" So.. my girlfriend's sister?", I asked to convince myself. 

" Yes, I'm your girlfriend" Juan held my hand tightly. " From the first time I met you, I've loved you" Juan explained slowly. 

I frowned considering the first time I met Juan who was full of chaos in my opinion. 

" It was our second meeting" Juan said.

" When was the first? If ever I don't remember my sister's face", I wonder.

" On the registration of new students. Do you remember the time you asked for forms on the committee? The one who handed the form to you was me, you talked to me when long enough. But you don't remember me? Ckck when I was the most handsome in this school", Juan shook his head in disappointment. 

I covered my mouth with "Good? Did ya? ", i tried to remember again, turning every memory cell in my head hoping to find a piece of that event. 

" I'm sorry, sister.I forgot.at that time you weren't my type." I apologized while teasing her. 

Juan saw me flat "that's it? ", then she drew me closer to her. Now we sit facing.

Juan came closer to me, too close. Then he took something under my eyes, to be honest at the time I thought Juan would kiss me. 

" What kind of you? But whatever type you are I will make you like me until your type changes according to me", Juan said as he placed a piece of my lashes that fell out into my palm. 

Dag dig dung …

My heart was ringing too hard, I think Juan could hear my heart beating. My cheeks are red, I hope Juan doesn't know my dirty thoughts.

I turned my gaze from Juan to the palm of my hand. Then quickly throw away my eyelashes by rubbing both hands.

" The base of baboon eyelashes. it may fall out during cold weather.. already know thin.. still fall out anyway", I ngabbing-ngoceh not clear because it is awkward with Juan's treatment. 

Juan laughed softly. " Are you?", Juan asked me.

" What?", I asked to see Juan. 

" Easy?".

" Yes".

" Yuk's coming home. I take you ", Juan helps me stand up and pulls my jacket zipper down my chin, puts a jacket hat on my head, ties a jacket hat strap under my chin.

Leave my eyes and nose visible. With this thick jacket and a feathered jacket hat I might look like the man at the south pole. I'm not used to Juan looking relaxed with his Hoodie, but he says he wears 2 layers of clothes. 

Juan and I walked hand in hand towards the parking lot. If I can show the world, I want to show this butterfly of happiness in my chest to everyone. I love Juan, I love the way he is with me, I love his smile. I fell in love with her. 

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The event that was held for 1 full day was very lively. Starting with the opening dance and the pick-up of important guests such as representatives from regents and also envoys from other schools. Then continue with a long series of events. The rush made me forget what happened last night between me and Juan. 

The clock is 5pm when bands start filling out casual events to entertain students and invited guests who are getting tired of the many official events. The atmosphere began to relax because the representative of the regent's office had resigned since earlier.

Several bands from the 1st and 2nd grades started playing songs. I sat on the grass leading to the stage, all the chairs had been removed so that the students were more free to move.

Adam and Elsa sat beside me hand in hand, throwing jokes at each other. Juan did not see the trunk of his nose. I looked enviously at the two of them. 

" You're here with the Dew. I appeared first in Juan's waiting", Adam spoke to Elsa in a tone that I thought was too subtle. 

"Okay. Quickly back yes", Elsa looked spoiled towards Adam. 

I grabbed Elsa's hair pulling her away from Adam "Udah.. ". Elsa grimaces shyly. 

" Dew.don't be rude with Elsa. Please take care of this beauty yes", Adam spoke to me in a tone that was not as firm as when talking to Elsa. 

" Iye iye.. sana .. tingle with the same behavior of the two of you", I began to emotionally see their purity. 

Adam laughing. Then run to the backstage. 

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