Paper Dove

NANDES: ARE YOU HAPPY?

I sat in the living room of the apartment. Glass filled with vodka in my hand. The mini projector reflects a video of a woman laughing while holding an ice cream cone in her hand. I noticed his movements in every video that rotated alternately. There are many activities that this woman does. Cooking, soaking in a bathup, dancing with me and her pouting face upon waking up. 

I miss her, my chest feels tight, my heart hurts. It felt like something was piercing my heart with a dagger when I saw him smiling in the video. I really miss him. I miss the ones I miss during the day. And when night falls I'll sit for hours to see it in this video. I did the same thing for 2 and a half years. 

" Dew." I began to lament my broken heart. 

And I fell asleep on the couch with a drink bottle next to me and a video of the Dew as my bedtime. 

***

I woke up feeling dizzy attacking my head. My mouth feels dry because of the liquor I drink. I sat down trying to regain my consciousness. 

The sun came in through the window, it was Sunday. A day where everyone relaxes and exercises. But I killed myself with all this booze. 

I stood up and walked towards the kitchen taking warm water. I gargled and vomited all my stomach contents into the sink. I must have gone mad, because of the evil woman's actions, I became like trash. I hate him but I miss him too. 

I took a breath and walked back to the sofa. Hpku Search. Lots of messages coming in, one of them from Elsa. 

I opened the message, not usually he sends a video message. My eyes grew when I saw the video. I found it, Dewun. He's in the video Elsa sent. 

I replayed the video many times, Dew she is still as beautiful as ever. His smile warms my heart. I saw the emblem of the organization on the shirt belonging to the woman interviewed. 

" Cendrawasih Health Center ? ", i tilted my head, thinking very hard. Like I've heard it somewhere. I saw Dewun surrounded by small children from Papua. 

" A dew ever in Papua?", I ruffled my hair in frustration not being able to guess where he was. 

I finally called someone. On the second ring the phone is picked up. 

"Hello Rian's. Have you seen the video I sent?", I asked slowly but firmly. 

"Yes, it looks like he's there. I made sure it was him. Find the woman. I'll give the aid to the organization on your behalf. Then bring him before me using the excuse of the aid fund", I told my plan. 

The answer from next to the phone responded to all my requests. I breathed a sigh of relief.

" I'll pay more if I manage to drag him in front of me" I said coldly.

After hanging up the phone I stood up with a stagger and quickly held the end of the table. I closed my eyes and sighed "I finally found you, Dew".

***

For a week I was restless, waiting for news from my men. When the news came, I felt a little bit of my life power rise to the surface. 

" Sir, we found it in the eastern tip of Papua. We did what you asked. Now just waiting for him to come see you", Rian spoke on the phone. 

" good. How is it?”, I asked in a heavy voice.

“ Mistress is very healthy and fine sir. And.. madam looks happy”, Rian said honestly.

I'm sighing “ Let's hear about the next development. Always keep an eye on his every move, lest we lose him again”, I said firmly. 

I threw myself in the chair. Thinking of what I should do if I meet that wicked woman. Maybe I'll spill all my anger, disappointment and heartache on him. I hate him, I want him to feel what I feel when he leaves me. I'll make him suffer, I'll make sure of that. 

***

Two months later, my heart was pounding when I received the news that Dewun was willing to come as a representative of his organization to meet with a new sponsor that he did not know was his intention. I sat waiting for him in silence in one of the privacy rooms of a fancy restaurant. When I heard the sound of the door opening, my heart was pounding fast. 

“ Thank you”, Dew spoke with the waiter who drove her. Her soft voice pierced my heart. I hate him but I can't lie, I miss him more than anything. It felt like I wanted to run and hug her but with all my might I planted my feet on the floor so as not to move carelessly.

“ Sir, the sponsor representative has arrived”, My personal assistant spoke to me who turned his back to the entrance. 

I put on as cold a face as I could and stood around welcoming the Dew. In a flat voice I greet her “ Good evening miss, thank you for meeting my invitation”, I smile coldly.

Dew could not hide the shock on his face. He hurried around and walked quickly towards the door, but it was free that the door was locked from the outside at my request. I was sitting across the table.

“ Please sit miss, we will have dinner together. As an organization envoy and supporter of your funds”, I glanced at him at a glance. 

“ Nandes, stop toying with me”, Angry Dew.

I looked at him with a frown “ Where is your manners miss? are all members of your organization like this his behavior? disappointing”, I smiled cynically.

With heavy steps she pulled the chair and sat on the other side of the table facing towards me. I watched her, her face was still as beautiful as it used to be, her eyes were soothing, her hair was short as shoulder to shoulder was still able to make my heart pound. It was just that there was no smile on his face, a smile that he always showed every time he saw me.

I miss this wicked woman, miss her so much and hate her. I exhaled a long breath of calm myself "Please order the menu miss", I smiled kindly.

He just kept quiet and did not open the menu book. Deep down inside my heart a speck of guilt arose for disturbing his peaceful life. If I could, I wanted to hug her and say 'I miss you. I miss you so much'. But no words came out of my mouth, I was petrified.

" Why not order?", I asked to see it. " Oh well. I'll help you. emm... How about a Steak ? or Pasta?", I saw him waiting for an answer.

The dew remains silent. I nodded in understanding then looked towards the waiter "please 1 pasta and steak. Medium rate and the best wine you've got. A little story, I used to have a woman who liked pasta. So I thought maybe you liked it. Do you want to know where that woman is now? He turned evil. Ah sorry I shouldn't have talked about anything personal here ", I laughed insipidly.

The dust is looking at me cold. As the waiter left, I began to open my official conversation with Dewun. " Your organization built a free school for what purpose? Can you explain it to me?", I looked towards the Dew.

Dew looked at me like I couldn't believe my purpose in calling him was for professionalism. I raised my eyebrows waiting for an answer, but he remained silent.

The waiter poured wine for our glass. " No meaningful explanation? Was I misplaced in providing funding support?", I provoked him a bit.

Dew coughs slowly and tidied up his sitting position, then began to speak. He tried to be as relaxed as possible. I smiled a little.

" Good night, sir. Introduce my name Dewun. I am a representative of Cendrawasih Health Center".

I looked at him without blinking. Actually, without explaining, I know what this organization stands for. But only in this way can I hold it longer. With the little cunning I had, I would make him shut up and realize that he should be next to me instead of leaving me.

I can't wait to cut the explanation "Quite base the base. How are you doing Dewun? long time no see. Are you happy? ".

***