Paper Dove

NANDES: I'M HEARTBROKEN

The dew recovered but his personality changed slightly. She became quiet, disliking it when I touched her. Not as happy as before, there was no happy smile on his face. There are many things he hides from me. Pretending to laugh with me. I wanted to ask but always held back. I wanted to hug her but she refused.

Dew resigned from his place of work and lived in the home of his parents on the grounds of recovery after the accident. He did not want to make both his parents anxious because of the problems that had occurred lately.

Several times I had seen Juan around the Dew house, but he had no intention of greeting Dew. Just watching from afar and I didn't tell Dew anything about it.

When the Dew woke up from his long slumber that time, the tightness in my chest lifted, the slight burden of my heart vanished. I hugged him tightly, looked at him all day, it felt like half my soul was back. 

Until that night comes. The night he returned the ring I gave him. I felt like I was struck by lightning. 

“ What's the problem? Why?”, I grabbed her arms and shook her slowly. One of my hands held the ring. 

“Let me go. Nandes I'm not ready to go back with you again”, Dew tried to take off my grip. 

By then we were in my office. It was late at night, all the employees were home. I was alone waiting for the arrival of the Dew.

 “ What reason is it? you're playing me?”, I'm yelling annoyed.

“ I'm sorry. I realized that deciding to be with you was Nandes' fault. You... are nobody to me”, Dew said haughtily.

“ Dew you want to keep me away from you? wh why? what during 3 days with Juan did you like it?”, I started to get emotional.

I saw the Dew fall silent. I laugh. “ Haha son of a bitch.”, I hit the table strong. “What did he give you until you wanted to leave me? The money? a luxury? ***?”, I'm approaching a still-riveted Dew. 

“ Hah... I. don't like you Nandes. Accept that reality. I go”, Dew goes towards the door.

There's a tightness in my chest. I pulled him rough and leaned him against the door. I kissed her brutally. The dew tried to escape. I locked her legs with my knees and one hand held her face. His hand hit my chest trying to push me. I could feel the saltiness of her tears in my mouth, she bit my lips with all her might. I could feel the blood in my mouth.

I let go of my kiss, she broke free. I let go of my lock and hugged her tightly without caring about the pain that struck my lips.

 “ I beg you not to leave me Dew, please”, I cry on his shoulder. 

I became so crybaby because of a woman, I begged her. I don't care what this woman will say about me. The woman who took all my heart and my life. Suck out my life force and take my soul with him. 

Dew silent then pushed me strong “ I just used you to make Juan jealous”, there was a lie in his voice. “ I.. never...love you Nandes”, her voice vibrates. 

I know he's lying but my heart is breaking. I clasped tightly to the ring in my hand. It seemed like the ring had already been destroyed in my grasp. Dew came out of my room, I could only catch a glimpse of her hair and back posture with eyes blurred by tears. I'm shattered. When he left, he took my whole heart and my life. 

I threw the ring at the wall with all the anger, disappointment and heartbreak. Destroying everything in my office. Until my hands bleed through the broken glass table. I sat on the floor against the wall. My mind was empty, I was blown to pieces. I drank straight from the bottle. And stay seated like that until morning. It seems my secretary was afraid to wake me up. He called Adam to come get me. 

Someone walked into my room “ Nandes, what is this?”, Adam shook my half-conscious body.

I raised my face “ Adam. I... Dew left me”, I cried. I don't know why I could cry in front of Adam. I'm famous in the business world as a cold, expressionless man, but because of a woman I could be ruined like this.

Adam was silent “ I drove you home. You drank too much Nandes”, Adam led me and went out of the office in secret so that no employees could see me.

I went to Dew's house and found out that she was gone. Out of the island, even his parents don't know where he is. Father Dewun just held my shoulder excited me and left me in front of the house. He also felt sorry for what happened to us. He knows how much I love his daughter. Not many words were spoken to me as usual. Elsa was silent, there was not a single word she said. 

Next I just spend my time with drinks, bars, smoking, women. But I refuse to sleep with any woman. I'm just looking for a woman who looks almost like that woman. His hair, his posture, his body, but when I saw their faces I wanted nothing. I'll either leave them or tell them to leave. 

I lingered in my heartache until one day Monic came to my apartment and slapped me hard. 

"If you keep this up, your company will be destroyed. I'm not gonna help you, Nandes. Wake up. and live the future son of a bitch. You look like shit now". 

After that Monic left me with all the liquor bottles that filled the table. 

***

Currently.after 2 and a half years of his departure.

I was struggling with the documents in front of me. There's a lot of work I do to distract me from the bad woman. 

The company grew rapidly with me becoming the CEO of a startup company and Monic as president director. Adam's company also succeeded and cooperated with my company.  We are in the number 2 best business company in Asia. 

I loosen my das. Sit straightening my back and massaging my own forehead. Some of the lawsuits came from other companies and made me dizzy over it. 

The phone rang Nadia's name on the screen. I picked up the phone. 

"Hmm", I picked up a lazy phone. 

" Don't you finished work? I'll come to your office. Since you don't like surprises so I'll tell you first", Nadia spoke in a spoiled tone. 

" Don't come to the office. This is not where you play", I said coldly. 

" That's terrible. Yaudah I'm waiting for you at hotel XX. We had dinner together then you can rest here. Okay. I'm waiting for ya beb", Nadia spoke quickly did not want to be denied and hung up the phone. 

I let out a pissed breath. Nadia wandered around me like a fly swarming with flesh. Want me to get rid of anyway, he still came. I got lazy and let it go. I'm tired of having to take care of unnecessary things like that.

I took my suit and walked out of the room. My secretary saluted and walked behind me.

" Sir, this afternoon you have an appointment with Company X with Director Monica".

" Okay", I kept walking towards the elevator.

" Night, Miss Nadia.", I haven't finished my secretary talking I cut straight off.

" Skips. Tonight I want to rest", I said firmly and went straight into the car that was waiting for me in front of the lobby.

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