Is it My fault, If I Desire Heaven..??

Take Rose kidney mi....!!

"Sir, alms, I am hungry" Geyna said, sobbing sobbing holding the side of her stomach that was getting more painful.

"There there..!!, it's so dirty.!!", snapped a man in a roadside newspaper.

"You made my warteg dirty!!", exclaimed a woman who owned a warteg, and swiftly pulled Geyna's hand and threw it into the streets until it fell down.

"Ahhhkk.!!, pain buk.".", said Geyna moaning in pain while crying.

"Makanya.!!, when young did it.!!, old glandang deh, surely not really young", when the woman left Geyna with a sad state.

He tried to get up and endure the pain.

As the doctor said, Geyna's kidneys were almost dead, and she needed to wash the blood until she got a suitable kidney.

Then...!!, seeing the current state of eating also ask for the mercy of others, how can it wash the blood or buy a kidney.

It is like the desire to reach for the moon, which will not reach human hands.

Geyna continued to step on her feet, thinking about the words of the woman who owned the warteg.

How did he spend his youth first...??.

How was his attitude when he was healthy..??.

Where a sincere person loves him, until old age and sickness, he must be stranded in the streets, under the hot sun and befriending hunger at all times.

Geyna sat in the corner of the alley, crying sobbing sobbing isak remembering her past.

All he could ever do was satisfy the whims of striped-nose men.

Without thinking about his old days he had now felt.

"Mawar ...!!!", said Lirih Geyna in memory of the only child she had.

"God has been kind to me, but I have always rejected his good intentions", exclaimed Geyna lamenting his fate now.

"My proud foster son is showing me up now, expecting my death" he cried out to the sky with his ever-increasing cry.

Then he fell silent, pensive, and blank-eyed.

He began to wipe his tears.

"Oh my God, I'll take it, you won't be able to punish me more than this, my kidneys won't last longer than this, especially without drugs, dialysis, even new kidneys, he said, in a few days I'll die to see you, whatever you want to put me in your hell" said Geyna already desperate with her life.

He then grabbed a trash can beside him, a rice wrap he grabbed and he ate.

Expressionless and without flinching.

This is his life now.

It is as if God had heard Geyna's words the other day.

That said that he would die along with his kidneys that would die.

God seems to say something else.

Geyna survived with her damaged kidneys for days or even months.

If viewed from medical science, he should have long died with his condition.

But.., Allahhua'lam.......

Geyna continued to follow in her footsteps, until she finally reached a big house and asked for alms there...

It was seen that a woman and a young man were fond of holding the nimang of a baby in their lap.

"It is so happy for them", said Geyna envied, why he could not feel the pleasure during his life, even the only child he gave to a baby sister.

Geyna walked and sat by the gate of the house, her strength had run out from morning to night and met again in the morning.

"Begging alms is not good" exclaimed Geyna asking for the mercy of the owner of the house.

"Bik Mus..!!, take my bag dong", exclaimed Rose left Fatimah in the lap of Burhan and walked into the house looking for a Mus bik.

"Bik Mus where is it.???, yes I love myself" said Roses took his bag and took some money for beggars in front of his house.

He walked towards the gate of his house.

He sat down and held out some money in his hand.

"Oh, may the blessing be, please this is for your mother's purposes" said Rawar did not realize who the beggar really was because his entire body was very dirty.

Geyna receives the money given by the good girl in front of her.

Geyna simply nodded her mark she thanked him without looking at him.

He looked at the amount of money in his hand, he was very happy at that time, with the money he could eat for the next few days.

Then the rose again went to Burhan and Fatimah was.

"Here dear.", said the Rose took Fatimah again from Burhan's sling.

Since their meeting at the park a few months ago.

Burhan and the children of the halfway house often visit the Rose residence, fulfilling the direct invitation of the Rose.

Roses want their homes crowded and always hum the sholawat.

Moreover, the garden and the Rose yard are large enough for where they study.

Burhan, who has learned the truth about the actual unmarried Rose, tries to vent his intentions.

"Please", said the Rose while fondling the Nimang Fatimah.

"Will you be my makmum the world of the Netherworld Rose..??", exclaimed Burhan ventured to propose the Rose.

Roses were shocked and astonished at Burhan's words.

His heart was stirred, between yes and no.

The rose has not yet answered it......

Bruck...

"Masyaallah", exclaimed the Rose immediately ran up to the fainted Geyna in front of the gate of her house.

Burhan also ran to follow the rose.

And immediately Madam Lastri who heard the cry of the Rose came out of the house and approached the origin of the sound of the Rose.

"Please go to the house.!!", cried Roses asking for Burhan's help.

Burhan picked her up and laid her in the guest room of the Rose residence.

"Bik Mus please hold Fatimah for a while" said Roses like knowing the figure of the woman lying in bed.

He then approached her and removed the hair covering the woman's face.

The rose was shocked and immediately cried for a moment.

"Your rose why.??" exclaimed Burhan frantically looking at the rose that arrived hysterically.

Pastri went into the guest room and immediately approached the Rose.

"Son....!!, you why..?" exclaimed mbak Lastri worried.

"Bukkkk, thatuu mami buk.!!", exclaimed Roses rising from his seat and holding the hand of the Lastri madam by showing the face of the weakly lying woman.

In one look, the lastri also recognized who the woman was.

"Yes Allah mami..!!", exclaimed Madam Lastri approaching towards Geyna.

"Rose...., why did your mom get like this.??" said Pastri, not believing what she saw.

The rose just cries and shakes.

And then asked Burhan to help her again.

"Mas, please help Rose take the mami to the hospital" exclaimed Rose holding Burhan's hand who was still confused by what happened.

"Yes", said Burhan immediately carrying Geyna to the car and immediately drove to the hospital.

Geyna entered the igd room and was handled for 3 hours.

"Dok, what is the condition of my mother..??", exclaimed Rose as she saw the doctor coming out of the igd room.

"Your mother is still very weak, we have done the act of dialysis just now, we are also confused in such conditions it is impossible for someone to survive that long on the streets" the doctor exclaimed in astonishment.

"What do you mean doc.?" said the Rose.

"Your mother should have had to get a kidney donor months ago, because in view of her condition now her kidneys have been very damaged, a miracle she can live until now", the doctor said the rose was in shock.

"Take my kidney, doc.!!", exclaimed the hysterical Rose.

"Patience to you" said Pastri to appease the Roses.

"Wait until your mother's condition passes the critical period first, later we will do the next step to prepare for the operation, I'm sorry first" said the doctor back in the igd room.

Rose sobbing isak hear the condition of Geyna.

Although during his life Geyna always behaved badly to the Rose, but the Rose still loves his biological mother like the teachings of Pak kyai and his adoptive mother Mbak Lastri.

A few hours later Geyna began to wake up, she woke up in her room.

He was surprised to see a girl holding his hand so tightly, he looked at the beautiful and peaceful face before him.

Then he began to realize that in front of him was the Rose of his son.

She cried hysterically, embarrassed to be in front of the Rose after all she had done to her son.

"Roses...!!, are you that.??, ashamed mami looking at you Roses", exclaimed Geyna continued to cry regretting her actions.

"Here come, then let it pass, maybe this is the way God resuscitated the mami and reunited the mami with the Rose again" said Rose hugging her biological mother.

Lastri's mother could not see the Rose who was so sincere in forgiving her biological mother.

He went out of the room and sat crying in the waiting chair.

"You do not worry about the rose, the mother has been rebuked by God all this time, and soon the mother will leave this world forever, maybe it's a way to atone for the sins of the mother", geyna kissed her son's hand.

"Don't say so mi, mami still has me, take my kidney mi, insyaallah Rose will be fine, just think of it as the way the Roses are filial to Mami" said Mawar rubbed Geyna's tears.

"Don't love, mom doesn't deserve it" said Geyna, ashamed of her child's kindness.

"It is the noodles, the important thing is that the mother is healed, and repent, that is all that the Rose asks" said Rose assured Geyna.

Geyna was crying.

"O Allah!!!, what kind of parents am I" said Geyna hugging the Rose in her arms.

Roses also cry in the arms of Geyna, because this is actually the first sincere embrace he felt from a mother who had given birth to him.