Is it My fault, If I Desire Heaven..??

Why didn't you tell me ?

That day, the feet of the Rose steadily walked into the house that was full of memories for her.

The rose relives every beautiful moment in her mind.

The main thing is his happy moment when with his one man who managed to have his heart until now.

The bitter moment was also repeated, when the house fire was several years ago, that makes Rose lose the figure of a mother who takes care of her since the baby sincerely without looking at that herself is the child of a woman of the night.

Given all that, the Rose tried to stop all that memory.

He tried hard by wiping the tears that had dripped on his cheeks.

"Mother often cries when we arrive in Indonesia, as well as we remain in America", complained Aqly while walking hand in hand with Fatimah and doctor Malik.

"That's Aqly's happy cry" said doctor Malik scrambling Aqly's hair.

"Stop!, my hair can be damaged!", ketus Aqly made doctor Malik shake his head.

From inside the house, the rose immediately greeted two great women from a distance.

The rose immediately ran over and hugged the two great women.

"How are you my best friend?, how are you?", exclaimed Rose hugging tightly two women who are now in her arms, they

the others are Azizah and Ratih.

"Is this really my rose?", cried Azizah trying to feel the face of her best friend.

After he was convinced by his hands, Azizah immediately cried and hugged back a friend who he had not seen for a long time.

"God be the Rose, how are you doing?, may Allah always protect you wherever you stand" exclaimed Mr. Ratih alternately hugging the Rose.

"I'm good buk, how are you guys?, I hope you guys are good too" said Rose rubbing tears that flowed on the cheeks of the two great women in front of her.

"We are good, as you can see!", exclaimed madam Ratih looking very happy.

Then the view of the rose is fixed on some photos that are neatly displayed on the walls of the house.

He was so surprised to see a photo on display next to the photo of his late mother Lastri and mother Geyna.

"Mother Maryam?, what does this mean?", exclaimed the Rose staring at everyone who was there.

Malik's doctor was silent as Rose stared at him.

"Is this a doctor?", asked Roses but did not get any answers from Malik's doctor.

"Azizah?, can you explain this?, why is the photo of Maryam's mother standing right with the photo of mother and mother, tell me !, Maryam's mother is fine right ?", the rose began to hysterically.

"Rose down!", exclaimed Malik's doctor, trying to calm the rose.

"Please!, I want to meet Maryam's mother, take me to her" exclaimed Rose forcing Dr. Malik.

"Mother Maryam is no Rose, she has overtaken your mother and mother 2 years ago", exclaimed Mr. Bram holding tightly his daughter's hand.

Rose's face instantly turned deathly pale, her cries instantly breaking right then and there.

His body immediately disappeared until sitting on the floor.

"Istighfar Roses!", exclaimed madam Ratih trying to calm the rose out of control.

"Oh, Azizah, why didn't you tell me about all this?" cried the Rose as he pleased.

"We can't bear the rose" Azizah said, starting to cry.

"Have the Roses!, all that is an almighty destiny" said Mr. Bram trying to calm the endless Rose crying.

"If I go home sooner buk", cried Rose as Miss Ratna tried to hug her.

"Please, son, we pray for them, they are great women, dear to God", said Mrs Ratih also filled with the loss of the Rose to Miss Maryam.

Roses then remember when they were considered their own children by Maryam even though Maryam knew that Roses turned out to be the children of her husband's dirty relationship in the past.

Even Maryam's mother wanted to love Roses like she loved Malik's own son.

"Can take me to his tomb?", said the Rose still continues as he pleased.

"Mariam's mother is in the tomb at the same cemetery as your husband and both mothers" said Mr. Bram.

"We can all visit the father and grandmother" cried Fatimah.

Soon the Rose pulls the hand of Malik's doctor and brings her into the car followed by Fatimah and Aqly.

"Why is everyone here so dramatic!", ketus Aqly tried to compensate for her step foot.

During the journey, the Rose continued to stare ahead without speaking a word.

Mami, Roses are just as lost as I was when my mother left me alone on this earth, why did she leave us so soon, muttered Dr. Malik in heart.

When their car arrived at the cemetery.

Roses immediately came down from the car while holding the hands of his two children.

"Come", cried doctor Malik showed the direction to the vortex of Maryam's mother.

The wind blows through the Rose hijab, hinting that there are also very happy to see the arrival of the Rose at that time.

Their steps came to a halt as a tombstone bearing the name Maryam bint Bukhori was clearly visible before their eyes.

At once, the rose cried at the tomb of Maryam.

Even repeatedly he kissed Maryam's tombstone with tears that kept dripping.

"I'm sorry Rose, I can't tell you because you asked me to leave you, I guess I'll make you angry when I tell you again", doctor Malik said he got no answer from the rose.

I know the doctor, I know you've been looking after me all this time from a distance, I also know it's really easy for you to find me and contact me anytime, but I know, too, you did it all because you didn't want to bother me when I tried to recover from the bitter past that I tried to forget, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, ma'am, the murmuring of the Roses in his heart wiped away his tears.

"We read the same prayer dearly", cried Rose holding both hands of her child.

Aqly and Fatimah just according, especially when they see their mother like very hit once heard the news of her death, Maryam.

They read the prayer as the Rose had taught them.

Dr. Malik also prayed beside her grave.

The pain in his heart was again felt then and there.

The sense of loss, loneliness, emptiness without the attention of the mother again so slashing in his heart.

Until its power collapsed at that time.

Her tears trickled as she prayed for her mother.

Seeing that, Rose immediately stroked the back of Doctor Malik.

At that moment, Doctor Malik's cry broke.