Is it My fault, If I Desire Heaven..??

Mom?, do you remember me ?.

Fatimah continued to stare into the isolation room before her.

A woman was singing with a child in there.

"That's your mother" said Mrs Ratih stroking Fatimah's hijab.

Fatimah wanted to go into that room.

But that iron-trealized door blocked his steps.

"Assalammualaikum", cried Fatimah with sparkling eyes.

"Walaikumsalam", exclaimed the woman who was none other than Rachel.

He immediately got up from his seat and walked over to the two women who were standing outside the isolation room door.

"Who are you looking for?", asked Rachel as she reached the door of the room.

At that time, Fatimah could only stare at her biological mother whom she had never seen before.

There was a sense of disappointment in him when he saw his mother.

There was anger and there was a sense of longing that whipped in Fatimah at that time.

Fatimah's tears could no longer be contained when she saw a childhood doll in the hands of her mother.

The doll he left in the lap of a woman 15 years ago.

Her childhood memories were faint in her mind.

When her mother decided to leave Indonesia, that's when the doll was no longer in her grasp.

Is the woman I used to visit him?, Fatimah muttered inwardly.

"Do you still know me?" asked Ratih to stare at Rachel's twinkle in front of her.

For a moment, Rachel fell silent while observing the middle-aged woman before her.

Rachel was stunned and started crying.

"Mother once came to visit me with Roses, right?", cried Rachel considering the arrival of the woman with Roses before the Roses had the intention of leaving Indonesia.

"Thank God you remember me" Ratih said, wiping away her tears.

"Mom, how are the Roses?, how is my daughter?", exclaimed Rachel eagerly waiting for news from the Roses and her daughters that she had not seen 15 years ago.

Fatimah immediately cried in silence when she heard her mother ask her news.

"I miss her so much ma'am, does she know that I'm so sorry about what happened in the past?, will she forgive me ?", rahel started crying while sitting on the floor.

Mrs Ratih looked directly at Fatimah who was trying to hold back her crying, and hinted at Fatimah to try to talk to her mother.

With trembling hands, Fatimah began to sit on the floor and clasped her hands from the door.

"Mom, do you remember me?", asked Fatimah no longer able to stem her tears.

Rachel stared fixedly at the beautiful girl in front of her, Fatimah's hand-stringing made Rachel feel a peace that she had never felt before.

"Si, who are you?", asked Rachel wiping her tears.

"I am a lucky child, Mom, I have two mothers and I am surrounded by people who love me" Fatimah said.

Rachel was still speechless listening to the speech of the girl in front of her, which she had not realized who the real girl who was now staring at her was.

"I was thrown away by my biological mother when I was a baby, but I'm sure she still loves this child" said Fatimah, clasping her hand.

Rachel began to understand Fatimah's words.

At once it also immediately appeared shocked and cried hysterically.

"My son?", cried Rachel trying to wipe the face of Fatimah who she began to recognize.

"It's beautiful that you, dear, are just like your mother Rose, veiled like an angel of heaven, surely she educates you very well" she exclaimed with a very happy face.

"I wouldn't exist in this world without my mother, so don't keep blaming myself for what happened in the past" Fatimah said, wiping tears on Rachel's cheek.

"What kind of mother leaves her baby Fatimah!, I don't deserve you to call mom" she began to hysterically exclaim.

"Calm down, calm down", exclaimed madam Ratih began to calm Rachel who began to move away from them.

"Mom, istigfar!, do you want the mother's condition as it used to be and can not be close to me anymore?", cried Fatimah made Rachel slowly land began to calm down.

"I'm sorry" said Rachel, sitting on the floor limply.

Hearing Rachel who was crying loudly.

Several sisters rushed into the isolation room to calm Rachel down and tried to keep the children in the room from being frightened.

"Better you go home first, you can visit her tomorrow if she is calm", ask a sister to Ratih and Fatimah while asking Rachel to lie on her bed.

"Grandmother!", cried Fatimah again crying in the arms of Ratih's mother.

"Propay dear, the most important thing is that your desire has been fulfilled, no, Fatimah has met the person Fatimah is looking for" said Mrs Ratih trying to calm Fatimah.

Fatimah just nodded without making a sound.

"We go home yes, mother must have been looking in you from earlier" said Mrs Ratih memapah Fatimah walk out of the mental hospital.

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While at Azizah's halfway house.

The Rose car just entered the yard.

Roses and doctor Malik immediately rushed down from the car with an agitated look on his face.

"Isn't it too much mom?, big brother is already big?", ketus Aqly get off the car.

But neither Roses nor Malik's doctor answered Aqly's complaint.

They continued to focus on finding the existence of Fatimah who from morning was not at home.

"Mother!", complained Aqly again.

"Before Aqly!, you must find your sister, she is a girl, not good outside alone, besides you!, already know there are needs outside, you know there are needs outside, why did you let your sister go alone", cried Rose slightly evoked her emotions.

"I told you, mother, sister wants to go to this house, Azizah's sister's house!", said Aqly.

"But this house is very far from our house Aqly", said the Rose.

"If I'm the one who goes, will you look for me like this?, won't you!, big brother continues to be in your mind!, I'm not!, I'm not !, actually who here is the mother's child?", joked Aqly while leaving in front of the Rose.

Aqly's words made the doctor Malik and Rose very astonished.

"Astagfirullah !, why his character is increasingly unfounded", complained the Rose staring Aqly who chose to enter the car rather than enter the halfway house.

"Patience of the Roses, calm yourself, Aqly is still unstable so do not you enter the heart of his speech" said doctor Malik walking back with the Roses into the halfway house.

"Assalammualaikum, mother!, Azizah!", cried Rose hurriedly looking for anyone he could ask about Fatimah.

"Walaikumsalam, Roses?", cried Azizah out of her room.

"Azizah, do you know where Fatimah is?, is she here?", exclaimed Rose directly throwing consecutive questions at Azizah.

"Repeat the Rose, Fatimah came here" said Azizah to make the Rose and Malik's doctor was relieved.

"Thank God, you don't know his taste when you hear Fatimah going outside the house alone Azizah" said Rose breathing with relief.

"Yes, but he went straight away with mom and hasn't come back until now, even I haven't had time to say hello" Azizah explained.

"It's okay, I will wait for their return, I've been calm to hear your words" said Mawar sitting on the sofa waiting for the return of Fatimah and Ratih ma'am.