Is it My fault, If I Desire Heaven..??

Bridal night.

The night is getting late.

The guests also left the venue.

Mr. Bram and all his relatives and children of Fatimah decided to go home each.

Now in the big house of doctor Malik, there is only a couple of brides who will spend the night alone.

Now the rose sat pensively in front of the mirror.

He has strengthened his heart as much as he can.

But whatever the power, the shadow of Burhan still lingers in the hearts and minds of the Roses.

He felt guilty for breaking his own words to not marry again.

But for the sake of the father, he could do nothing either.

Being devoted to his biological father is the main thing for him now.

Click (door opens).

Doctor Malik walked into their bridal room nervous.

He tried to walk up to the Rose who still wore white kebaya, an appearance that succeeded in making Malik's doctor amazed during the wedding.

"Fatimah has moved your stuff in the closet" said doctor Malik looks so awkward to be near the Rose.

"Yes mas, I know", said Rose began to take off the makeup of jasmine flowers on her hijab.

Doctor Malik's eyes were fixed on the mirror before them.

He was again made to drift away from his love.

Seeing the Rose sitting and busy taking off her makeup as well as her standing right behind the Rose, made Malik's doctor smile.

If only, murmured doctor Malik chose to go from the side of the Rose.

But a subtle touch in his hand made his footsteps stop.

"Where are you going?, do you not want to help me remove the hijab?", exclaimed Rose made the inner doctor Malik more slashed.

Without saying anything, Malik's doctor clasped Rose's hand and invited her to sit on the edge of the bed.

Making the Rose nervous and frightened at every step of her foot.

"Are you afraid of the Rose?", asked Malik's doctor, trying not to show his heart's sorrow.

"No mas, I am your wife now, tonight I belong to you" said Rose without daring to look at the husband's face.

Long enough doctor Malik was silent staring at the face of the Rose who kept bowing, he wanted to satisfy his desire to look at the angel of his heart at that time, before the opportunity was missed and just disappeared.

Silence doctor Malik long enough to stare at her, making Mawar took the initiative to remove her own hijab.

She felt it was her time for her to carry out her obligations as a wife.

Bismillah, murmured Rose broke herself.

But the hand of doctor Malik suddenly stopped his hand movement.

"Let the hijab stay in place" Malik's doctor said, leaving the rose stunned and confused.

Before the rose can say anything.

Doctor Malik extended a document to the Rose.

"What is this mas?", asked the rose in wonder.

"Read" asked Dr. Malik.

The rose is only according to her husband's orders.

He began to read the documents that were now in his hands.

The look on the face of the Rose began to stiffen, and gradually changed, there was a dam of tears that arrived suddenly created in the eyes of the Rose.

Tears now flowed down her cheeks.

Rose stared fixedly at the small smiling face before her.

He immediately hugged her and thanked her repeatedly.

Doctor Malik wiped his tears and tried to be firm and not cry.

Doctor Malik only showed a smile and a smile in front of the angel of his heart.

"Thank you mas!, I don't know what to say", cried Rose in the arms of Dr. Malik.

Wanted both of his hands to return the Rose's embrace, but he was too fragile for it.

"With the Rose, I know this is not your wish either, I try to appreciate the decisions of your life that you have made before" Malik said stoically.

"Everything you do means a lot to me, you are willing to do all this for the sake of my past promises to myself and god, thank you once again !", the rose cries happily.

Doctor Malik's heart was getting crumpled, there was a sense of happiness because he managed to help Rose not to renege on her appointment, but also there was pain and destruction in her heart that was mixed into one.

"Then, you refresh yourself and get ready to sleep, I'll go to my study first, there's work I have to finish" said Malik's doctor, releasing a Rose's embrace from his body.

Marriage written agreement :

First party on behalf of Malik.

Second party in the name of the rose.

This agreement is made on behalf of the first party for the second party.

This marriage takes place only in front of religion and law.

The first party will not touch the second party for any reason.

And will not demand his rights as a husband.

The second party is given the freedom to annul this marriage whenever he wants.

The first party on behalf of Malik, made this letter of agreement without coercion and pressure from others.

Legitimate with Stamp and guaranteed by law.

Doctor Malik entered his study and sat on the floor.

She was crying in silence so she was in the room.

He overflows all his heartbreak, he releases all the burdens that are in his mind.

"Mami!, strengthen Malik!, hug Malik mi!", exclaimed doctor Malik grabbed the photo of Maryam and hugged her tightly.

While the Rose who had changed clothes and prepared to sleep was worried about the condition of Dr. Malik.

He decided to make tea and rushed her to the doctor's office.

As he reached the front door, Rose was stunned to hear the heart-wrenching sobs of Doctor Malik.

Making the Rose feel guilty and sitting at the door.

So kind of her heart, sacrificing her happiness and life for my sake, murmured the Rose inwardly while closing her mouth so that her cries could not be heard by Doctor Malik.

They alike cry for the path of their destiny and the helplessness they face.

I'm sorry mas, I'm just being a prick in your life, murmured Rose again.

The night that should be happy for them instead invites crying for both of them.

The same heart is surrendered before God.

A heart that suppresses its own passions and ego.

A heart that always rests with the destiny of God.

Allah promises that there will be happiness for his people even if it does not happen in this mortal world.