Is it My fault, If I Desire Heaven..??
Expulsion from pesantren
Roses still sobbing sobbing in the front yard of the pesantren.
While the residents of the boarding school who used to honor Roses now turned to look at Roses with disgust full of anger.
"Here you are, son, you should forget your mother's attitude, she is so" said Mbak Lastri calming Rose.
Roses are silent, as if physically and mentally no longer strong to face the trials that continue to linger in his life.
Pastri was trying to get the rose to walk to the cottage.
They passed through all eyes that looked at them unfriendlyly.
Whispers from their mouths began to be heard.
"Kasian ya Nia, the fate must be like that because of the Mbak Mawar" said one pesantren manager.
"Yes I also did not expect, more he turned out to be the son of a pela*ur", whispered whispered between the students.
Pastri tried to ignore their words.
It is more important that the Rose is now very weak.
Do not let him lose faith and inner weakness because of this incident.
When the Roses and the Lastri madam wanted to enter the cottage, the teachers at the boarding school stopped their steps.
"Stop buk" said one of the teachers blocking lastri.
"Oh, please let us in the cottage" said Pastri.
"Sorry buk, it seems that it is impossible, I beg your mother and Rose to be self-aware, we do not want any more victims here, it is enough Nia to be the victim of Rose parents, Roses, you better get out of here" exclaimed a female teacher who gave a bag containing Rose goods and Lastri's mother.
"But buk, have mercy on us, we have to go where else" said Pastri with sobbing sobs.
"Sorry buk, Rose does not deserve to be in this pesantren, mother is not kasian with the good name of Mr. Kyai Usman.???" said one teacher again.
When Pastri wants to answer their ugly accusations about the Rose.
The rose tried to stop Lastri.
"Have been buk, they were right, none of that would have happened if the Rose had not been here, perhaps even Nia was still alive now, do not let any other Nia who fared the same as him because of the Roses" said Roses trying hard and wipe his tears.
He took his bag of goods.
He then took the hand of Pastri out of the pesantren.
Rose's gaze was empty, she walked as if she was without a soul, all the events that happened in her life made her even more fragile.
If he falls and gives up, what will be the fate of his mother.
Pastri cried staring at the fate of his son, he could not speak what else.
He looked around the pesantren, a place full of history for their lives.
This is where they lived and lived for almost 8 years.
But the status of the Rose as the child of a pela*ur is difficult to be accepted by the community anywhere.
In her downturn, Rose thought of the insults and mockery of everyone she met in her life.
Ever since he was a kid.
When he was a teenager.
When he was insulted by the father of the doctor Malik.
Humiliated by a pesantren family that he has regarded as his own.
Her tears trickled, she immediately wiped them and determined she would never cry again.
There is a God and a mother who loves him.
Lastri's roses and mbak arrived at the gate of the pesantren, sharp gazes still surrounding them.
The rose looked back.
"Thank you, Mr. Kyai, for everything, I will bring knowledge from Pak Kyai wherever the rose steps later" said Mawar continued his steps that do not know where.
Determined to forget doctor Malik too, he will focus on his career and his mother.
May he be able to stand on his own feet, without having to rely on the mercy of others.
Roses do not hate mami, however Roses are born from the womb of the mami, the mother God chose for the Rose, may the mami realize all her faults, the Rose murmured in her heart.
The atmosphere in the pesantren at that time was windy and cloudy.
It was as if nature was sad to see the suffering of the Roses and the Lastri.
But God never sleeps, there will be light after darkness strikes.
If God had not given anyone the opportunity to enjoy the light in the world.
God will give him in the Hereafter.
