Is it My fault, If I Desire Heaven..??

The first day of the rose to school

Today Roses looked in the mirror repeatedly, he did not get tired of seeing the school uniform that he wore for the first time.

Since after the dawn prayer, Roses eagerly arrange his bag and book.

Today his wish is real.

He can mingle with his peers outside the home, study and play with them.

Since last night the rose had imagined that to be the case.

Since the baby until the age of 4 years Rose has never known another figure besides the occupants of this house.

May many good people like Mr. Usman enter the life of the Rose, Pastri prayer in the heart.

Pastri has been cooking since morning, he prepares food supplies for Roses to school.

With a feeling of pleasure, he cooked the favorite food of the Roses, so that the Roses do not starve in his school later.

"Oh, let's go.!!", said Rose drinking her milk and hurrying to stand from her place of eating.

"Slow down dear, mother is already taught, if eating should be slow and sit quietly, so as not to be visited by demons" said Mbak Lastri stroking the hair of the Rose.

"Oh yes buk, sorry yes, because I can't wait to go to school" said Rawar again sat down and finished his milk.

"Pinterrr" said Mbak Lastri to pick up the Rose school bag.

"Bah buk out" said Rose showed her milk glass.

"Yes, let's go.!!", exclaimed mbak Lastri holding the hands of the Rose.

As the Lastri and Rose bushes pass through the porch behind the mansion, the girls look towards the Rose.

Gea who was busy listening to music, then turned off the radio nearby, approached Rose and Lastri.

Lastri, knowing that Gea was approaching them, accelerated his footsteps.

"Ehh, ehh wait.!!", said Gea put up a body in front of the Pastri and Roses.

"Sorry madam, let us pass" said Pastri, bowing his gaze.

Gea glanced at the frightened Rose and hid behind the Lastri.

Gea chuckled after seeing the neat Rose in her uniform.

"Roses, roses, what do you want to go to school haaaaa.!!!", Gea snapped, making the Roses even more afraid.

"Sorry Gea, we can pass" said Mr. Lastri ventured to speak to Gea.

"Hunt hunt very, play first here the same mbak Gea, mbak Gea also pinter lhooo, but the pinter mbak Gea tuh looking for money malem" said Gea closer his face to the Rose.

The rose was only silent hiding behind her mother, she was still very small to understand all this.

"My mother please, Rose is still a child" said Miss Lastri with a face that kept her head down, not daring to look at Gea.

"For a long time you have been mbak.!!!", snapped Gea.

Rose cries to see her mother being yelled at.

Pastri was not even struggling.

Seeing the roses crying, Gea smiled.

"OK okay you can go, but stay here until I say go, you know.!!" said Gea, taking a cigarette from her pocket.

"But mbak" said Pastri in a frightened tone.

"If you don't want to, don't go all gpp" said Gea lit his cigarette.

"Yesaaa mbak we according", said mbak Lastri had no other choice, he just hope the Rose is not late on the first day of entry to school.

Gea surrounds the Pastri and Roses by enjoying his cigarettes.

Hufff........

Gea smokes cigarette smoke in the body of the rose.

"Bak Don't" said Pastri.

"Diammmm.!!, I said shut up.!!", said Gea snapping at Lastri while returning to smoke her cigarette.

The rose coughed a few times and cried.

Gea continued to repeat the moon of cigarette smoke in the body of the Rose with a chuckle chuckle.

After being satisfied with the action, he stopped in front of the Rose and squatted down.

"Emmmm, this new fragrant special house, there you can go.!!", said Gea with a laugh and passed away.

Pastri rubbed his fallen tears and tried hard.

"Honey, we change clothes first yukk" said Mbak Lastri holding the hand of the Rose.

Pastri also delivered the Rose to school.

They tried not to show their sorrow because of Gea.

But actually in the heart, it still hurts.

The smile of the rose was seen again when he saw many children his age.

Along with their mother they went into the school yard.

Lastri steps stop at the Rose class terrace.

"Honey, I want to meet your teacher first yes, don't be naughty" said mbak Lastri poking the nose of the Rose and leave it to take care of the registration of the Rose as a new teaching student in kindergarten.

Rose walked into her class, when the mothers of Rose's classmate's mother looked at Rose with her cynical gaze.

They whispered and said bad words about the rose.

As Rose's smile faded, he simply lowered his head and walked towards the empty bench.

There are many things that sound from their mouths.

The rose is too small to digest it.

Butterfly night, bastard child, brothel, that word that often Rose heard late this, I don't know, it's unthinkable for her to know the meaning of all those words.

"Why should he be the same class as our children anyway" said a woman in one of the mothers' moons.

"Yes, dirty child, hihhhhh I disgusted to see" said another woman.

"Bring to bad influence" said another woman, they used to insult the rose.

Roses just bowed with glassy eyes to hear the words of those who seemed to dislike the rose.

"Heee you..!!, what do you do in this kind of school, there is no other school what is it.??" said a woman approaching the Rose with a waistline.

The rose looked on with fear.

"Ibukkkkk..!!", said a frightened Rose calling her mother.

"Hum.!!!, ibukk.!!, just from yesterday, sick of me, she is not your mother, your mother is the Geyna, the son of harammmm..!!", said a woman arrived and came closer to the rose.

"Oh yes, with horror you want to be made a prima donna there too huh.?.??, my goodness, just stop by you the same Geyna from this village, embarrassed in tau..!!, tuhhh kisses the smell of mom, the smell of cigarettes" said another woman.

"Emmm yaaa, the smell of cigarettes" said the woman in front of the Rose, covering her nose.

The rose is crying all the more.

From outside the Lastri Mbak who had finished registering the Roses, ran in search of the Roses that sounded crying.

He entered the classroom and embraced the Rose who was being mobbed by the mother of the other students' guardians.

"O Allah is the Rose!!", cried the Pastri mbak examining the state of the Roses and looking towards the people who swarmed the Roses.

"Do you see!!!, he is really just a Haram child" said the woman in front of him.

Pastri could not stand still, he stood up and showed his finger to the woman.

"Oh.!!, please take care of her speech, Rose is still a child, she doesn't know what about everything you're talking about, let her live a normal life like any other child", lastri shed tears.

"Sok hilah.!!", said another woman pulling the veil.

"Dispose of energy talking to her mom, maybe she's also been sold to Geyna in the house, but acting pretentious in front of us", said the woman in front of Lastri as she passed away.

"Astagfirullah", said mbak Lastri stroked the chest and calmed the Rose.

"Oh, why do they hate Roses.??, Roses just want school" said Roses still a bit of a whim.

"Dear, they just want to talk, they don't know the Rose, mother's most beautiful child" said Mbak Lastri wiping the tears of the Rose.

Cringgg.cringgg...

The entrance bell has rung, Pastri leaves the Rose in class.

Roses seemed to follow all the advice of Pastri, but in his heart there were still many questions that he wanted to know the answer.

He just didn't want to worry his mother.

In the shadow of the Rose, today was a happy day for her.

For the first time, he set foot in school.

But before he started his first lesson, even before he got to school.

It all hurts for the rose.

A day that should have been fun, was the worst day for him.