Is it My fault, If I Desire Heaven..??

Looking for the real mother.

Ting tong's..

"Yes a moment!", exclaimed a voice from inside the house.

When the door was opened, Ratih's mother was very happy because that day the guest was Fatimah.

"Assalamualaikum nek" cried Fatimah kissing the back of Ratih's hand.

"Walaikumsalam, nak Fatimah?", timpal bu Ratih momentarily felt stunned and amazed at the dazzling beauty of Fatimah as a Rose as a teenager, in the veil covering her crown, which she was wearing, Fatimah looks gracefully charming.

"Is grandfather in the house?", asked Fatimah.

"Grandpa has 2 days stay at the home of doctor Malik, for the preparation of the wedding of your mother and doctor Malik, masyaallah!, the end of the two brands united, fate can not be guessed dear", yang bu Ratih was very happy to not pay attention to the look of sadness that Fatimah tried to hide from everyone.

Fatimah just smiled over every speech of Ratih's mother who was very excited by the marriage of Roses and Malik's doctor.

"Oh yes!, how so chat here, yuk in baby", exclaimed madam Ratih pulled Fatimah's hand towards the living room.

"Sir, I actually came here to ask something to grandma" said Fatimah.

"Yes bentar yes, grandma take you food the same drink first", exclaimed madam Ratih but immediately stopped by Fatimah.

"Just a moment nek" said Fatimah in a pleading tone.

Making Ratih ma'am surprised by Fatimah's behavior so tense.

"You want to ask what the hell is dear?", exclaimed Mrs Ratih sitting back next to Fatimah.

"But grandma promised to answer everything honestly", Pinta Fatimah.

"Yes, grandma promises", said Mrs Ratih without guessing the question to be thrown by Fatimah.

"Sir, is it true that Fatimah is not the mother's biological child?", asked Fatimah suddenly made Ratna ma'am stunned.

"What question is Fatimah?", elak bu Ratih.

"Grandmother has promised" cried Fatimah holding the hand of Ratih's mother.

Makes Ratih's mom feel pity and pity for the teenage girl before her.

"Right, but you are still our favorite, there is no difference with Aqly" said Ratih trying to explain the position of Fatimah in their eyes.

"Then, is Fatimah really an illegitimate child?", asked Fatimah with a trembling tone and watery eyes.

"Fatimah!", exclaimed madam Ratih trying to stop Fatimah.

"Sir, answer honestly", Pinta Fatimah pleaded.

Bu Ratih just looked down while nodding in front of Fatimah.

Make Fatimah's tears flow so fast.

"That's the past dear, bury it all inside" said Mrs Ratih trying to advise Fatimah.

"Then, is Fatimah's birth mother still alive?", asked Fatimah continues.

Again, madam Ratih just nodded in response to a question from Fatimah.

"If that's true, where is Fatimah's biological mother now?", cried Fatimah as he pleased.

"He's in a mental hospital, son" said Mrs Ratih in tears.

The words of Ratih's mother instantly made Fatimah even more shocked.

"So, Fatimah's mother had a mental disorder?", cried Fatimah felt weak to hear the bitter reality.

"That's not all, baby, your mother also has HIV because she was raped by a gang of thugs when you were a child" said Ratih again to make Fatimah surprised.

"Is that the bad old days?, then what else does Fatimah not know?", asked Fatimah again.

"Your mother left you on the porch of your mother's house when you were a baby, in order to marry Dr. Malik", exclaimed bu Ratih was infuriated by the painful past that Rachel had inscribed on Roses in the past.

Suddenly Fatimah's cry broke.

"Why should all this happen to Fatimah?", cried Fatimah in between her sobs.

"Istigfar dear, all are destiny lines from God" said Mrs Ratih trying to calm Fatimah.

"Even Fatimah's biological mother who ruined your mother's life is nek!", exclaimed Fatimah feeling frustrated by that fact.

"Listen to grandma!, Fatimah is the child of the Mother of the Roses, even if Fatimah is not a biological child it does not mean that her upbringing to Fatimah will be in vain not!, it will be in vain !, Fatimah must have a mind like mother right?, grandma sure it must be, and grandma can see it all!, so now, learn from what Fatimah saw from mother, and grandmother can see it all, strong Mother, strong mother, because the Rose mother knows that God's heaven is not free dear!", exclaimed madam Ratih making Fatimah's cry gradually subside.

Slowly, Fatimah began to wipe away her tears.

"Grandmother is right, all this is nothing with the steep path of your life, I must be strong!", said Fatimah trying to get up and strengthen her legs to support her body again.

"That's the new granddaughter of grandmother!", exclaimed madam Ratih kissing Fatimah's forehead.

O Allah, take care of your believing servant, murmured madam Ratih in heart.

"Grandmother can take me to meet mom?", cried Fatimah.

"But you promise, you can not cry anymore" said Ratih directly answered a nod and a small smile on Fatimah's face.

"But grandma, don't tell anyone including mother if I already know all of it, I don't want your happiness destroyed because of me", Pinta Fatimah made Ratna's mother stunned.

bu Ratih then stroked Fatimah's hijab gently.

"According to the request of my granddaughter who is sholeha" exclaimed madam Ratih hugging Fatimah.

Then they went to the place where Rachel was.

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By the time their car had reached the courtyard of the mental hospital.

Fatimah continued to stare at the building with fear.

Madam Ratih who saw the unease on Fatimah's face again closed the door of her car.

"We can do this whenever you're ready" exclaimed Ratih.

"No matter what, Grandma, I'm ready" cried Fatimah out of the car.

He walked steadily into the building in front of him.

After asking permission from the sisters on duty, they were immediately directed to where Rachel was.

"Sus, it's not his room over there huh?", asked Ratih ma'am astonished by their purpose.

"Rahel Malik is buk!, he moved to another room 5 years ago, his condition is now much better than the first time he came here" said the nurse explained.

Fatimah and Ratih continued to follow the footsteps of the sisters who guided them.

Suddenly their steps stopped in a fairly spacious isolation room.

"You can only visit him here, because this is an isolation place for HIV patients, do I need to call Rachel's mother?, maybe now is teaching children with HIV", said the nurse made Ratih ma'am surprised.

"Teaching sus?, sister is not wrong?", exclaimed Mrs Ratih.

"Bu Rachel recovered from her mental illness 5 years ago, and she devoted herself to caring for children in this isolation room" she said.

"Areally?", exclaimed madam Ratih did not believe such an impossible thing could happen.

"I'll call him" said the nurse.

"No need to sus, let me call it myself" cried Fatimah.

"Are you sure baby?", asked Ratih.

Fatimah just nodded while looking towards the isolation room where her mother was.

"Well then, excuse me" said the nurse, leaving them.