Deepest Wound

IS MY DESIRE TOO MUCH? (END)

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“Then we have to give permission first to Reka, hopefully she agrees.” Arman chuckles.

“I'm sure he agrees, later I will teach him how to concoct cyanide coffee.” Arman laughed loudly beside me.

“Hai, Arman?” Someone came and stretched out his hand to shake.

Arman welcomed him. “Yes, Mr Dani?”

Although I tried to be indifferent, but still I could not throw my nervousness when I met Dani again. But I hope he doesn't recognize me. I pray in my heart.

The show has started since. The bow of the ship was already full of people arriving. I walked towards the back of the ship to find a quiet place while waiting for Arman who was still talking to some of his colleagues.

The geep!

Someone pulled my arm.

“Dani!” I screamed in shock.

“Oh, thank goodness you remember. Then why do you seem to not know me!? I thought you were different, it was the same! You are even more powerful! Disappeared without news without thinking about my feelings and circumstances!”

“Sorry.” That's all I can say.

“Sorry? After leaving me and disappearing but that one word is all you say! What do you want, huh!?” Dani got me cornered so much that I could no longer reverse my steps.

“I'm sick!” I got along quickly because Dani kept getting closer.

“Sick? What pain?”

“I also don't know what I'm sick with, but now I'm fine.”

“You're sick, but you don't know what you're sick of? Nice.” Dani smiled wryly at me.

“Trust or not it's your business Step away from me,” while pushing lightly the body of Dani standing before me.

“Our business is not finished yet, so don't go anywhere just yet.” Dani held my arm.

“Nothing needs to be solved, after all we have no problem anymore. I admit I was wrong for disappearing without news but I've apologized. Whether you forgive me or not!”

“But we haven't broken up.”

“What!?” I looked back at Dani. “You discussed the problem that we haven't broken up? Look, I thought so at first, too. I'd like to apologize if I ever see you again and explain everything I've been through. I'm still hoping for our relationship to hang on, but that's before I see you with another woman. So don't ever tell me we haven't broken up!”

“Anita! Don't go again, please. I'm sorry also.”

“I've forgiven you. But I have to keep going. It's free for you to give your heart to me, but your body is free to come into contact with other women. I'm disgusted!”

At first I still hoped for him. It's not without reason that I reject the men I'm trying to introduce. Even I was willing to be considered bad so that some of them rejected me.

Do I refuse to live happily?

I could have received an elopement from Bang Fauzan but is there any guarantee that I can be happy?

I could have taken Ardi back and lived happily without thinking about the people who would be hurt. But I didn't. I could have taken a husband but I wouldn't have taken a father figure from a child.

I could've married one of the men who came to me without having to research it. But I want one forever.

I can take Dani back and start a new chapter. But back to the principle. If he still loves me why not try to find me back? Not even looking for an outlet. If I can take care of myself for him why can't he take care of himself for me?

Basically I just want a man who can love me sincerely. Accept my shortcomings without complaining. Being able to keep her heart and distance from other women when I'm not by her side.

Is my desire too excessive?

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Right now I want to enjoy my life which might just stay a little. Because we don't know when the angel of death will come. So you better enjoy this life.

I will not reject the soul mate God will give, but now I have stopped hoping to go that way.

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Love is so powerful that it can make anyone willing to sacrifice.

Love is not a thing but very sharp to be able to hurt and give a very severe pain without having to bleed.

I'm not a naive woman who doesn't need love. But right now I need time to understand myself. Until one day I find someone who can give me a reason to start over.

Hopefully hopefully ...

...END...

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