Deepest Wound

FAILING TO FOCUS

Me and Brother Ardi are already sitting on the porch bench. I kept quiet not knowing what to say. I am still very embarrassed to remember the incident this afternoon when I boldly kissed Brother Ardi's cheek.

"Anita...., why have you been quiet? He said he wanted to explain the incident this afternoon," said Mr. Ardi breaking the silence between us.

"Eh, I did. Sorry, I was just a reflex, and I feel happy because Brother has returned," said I turned to look at Kak Ardi and then back down.

"What do you mean? I'd like to hear an explanation of how you went with the person you said Biology Teacher. It doesn't matter what you kissed me this afternoon, that's why I took it."

Jeez 😵😵

I was shocked and very embarrassed. What's wrong with me? Why am I not focused?

Though I myself promised to explain the matter to Brother Ardi, but why I forgot and even discussed the incident that embarrassed myself. Finally I just explained how the beginning of me and Mr. Adji can come to that place. And I keep apologizing about what happened that afternoon to Ardi.

"Sorry for what? I told you that I've let her down. Although my cheeks are finally no longer virgin," said Kak Ardi.

"What's!? Not virgin? You can just cheek Brother is not a virgin anymore when I kiss him!" I grunt not accept considered to have removed the virginity of Kak Ardi's cheek.

"Oh, so since you think my cheek is not virgin so you can freely kiss it?"

"Sister! Not funny, yeah!" I'm getting upset with Ardi.

"Haha. You can't joke with your own boyfriend." Brother Ardi showed off his smile that was so tempting to me.

Uhh.., I always get weak every time I see that smile.

"I have something for you."

I looked at Brother Ardi. "What?"

Brother Ardi took a paper bag that he had placed on the terrace table that limited the two chairs we were sitting in.

"What's this?" I asked while receiving the paper bag.

"Look at yourself" said Ardi.

I also put out the contents in the paper bag. It turns out a t-shirt with a very unique motif.

"This is for me, brother?" I smiled when I saw my name and Kak Ardi's name was written on the front of the shirt.

"Yes, later if we go out with us wear it together, yes. I'll wear the same shirt too."

"He'm..," I nodded happily.

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The holidays are over, it's time to go back to school. My relationship with Ardi was smooth without a hitch. There are no distractions in our relationship. Ardi's sister is not a crocodile as her friends say.

Although Ardi was very busy with his schoolwork, but he always gave me news. We can still go together, and the place we visit most often is a cafe with a view of the sea. I really fell in love with that place and made me feel at home to linger there. We always choose the time in the afternoon to go there and of course the goal is to see the beauty of the sunset.

We sat at one of the tables in the cafe. Even the cafe waiter there was already very familiar with the food we ordered.

"Anita, I'll be facing my graduation exam soon. After that I will return to my hometown to continue my education there."

I was not surprised at all to hear the words of Brother Ardi, because before I knew sooner or later we would be separated by a distance, because before, because Kak Ardi's parents just happened to be assigned to this city.

"What am I supposed to say? If I can do something to prevent Brother's departure, then I will." I turned my gaze to the middle of the sea where the big ships that looked small from where I looked.

"Do you think I want to be away from you? Of course not, An. I also only fulfilled my Papa's wish so that I could continue my education at the best college in my hometown. Papa wants me to be a doctor too."

I understand that, this city is not as big as the home town of Kak Ardi. I heard a story from Kak Laras the other day.

"Never think of ending our relationship. You heard me, An?" Said Ardi holding my hand.

"I was thinking that Brother would end this relationship" I replied.

"will not. After I succeed later I will take you to see my family," said Kak Ardi looking at me earnestly.

I returned the gaze of Brother Ardi who had been looking at me since. I'm not so stupid as to understand what Brother Ardi said he wanted to introduce me to his family.

I also nodded. "He's."

"But what if I miss you, An? Yesterday was only a few days ago I was eager to rush home."

I find it funny to see the frustrated face of Ardi. "It's okay, let me go there later. Laras promised to take me there when I have a vacation," I said with a smile."

"really?"

"Yes." Yeah."

"Later I will take you around there," said Ardi again excited.

Not long after the cafe waiter came to serve the food we had ordered. We ate while enjoying the wind and the beautiful sea view. We also never missed the sunset view with the sunset. Later I will really miss moments like this with Brother Ardi.

Doesn't feel like Ardi is done with his graduation exam.

We both sat under the tree behind the school.

"After this I'll be gone, but I won't be long. I'll be back after I finish my college enrollment" said Kak Ardi.

I don't know why I feel so unwilling to stay away by Brother Ardi. Though I was the one who always looked tough all this time after Kak Ardi said he wanted to continue his education at that time.

"Why you?" Ask Brother Ardi because I just kept quiet from before.

"It's okay" I shook my head.

Tomorrow, Ardi's sister left and she called me before her departure that morning.

"Sister.., be careful," I said. I want to say be careful with your heart. But it's impossible, I'm afraid that Brother Ardi will become unsettled. Honestly speaking, Kak Agil's speech at that time was still circling in my brain.

My days are also busy with various activities to face the class exam. From tutoring to extra lesson hours. It crossed my mind to continue my education also to the city where Kak Ardi attended college.

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...Tbc...

Sorry if there is a typo scattered, because Author also often galfok 🤭