Deepest Wound

SATURN

Samar I heard the sound of the Adzan who was reverberating because of the distance of the mosque is quite far. I got out of bed and went ablution. Actually I was very sleepy and still feel tired after my trip that afternoon, but if I skip prayer then I will definitely regret feeling very sinful. After the prayer I returned to my bed next to Oma Maryam. Oma Maryam has been awake ever since.

"Oma not praying?" My toot.

"In a moment," said Oma, massaging her ankle. For the current age of Oma Oma can not immediately stand if you wake up. I helped to massage Oma's feet so that Oma could immediately perform the morning prayers.

After the Oma prayer woke me up because I was asleep again. "Come, hunt for a bath before all on waking up," said Oma.

I got out of bed and went to the bathroom. Lucky no one woke up so I could immediately take a shower because if not ready if I can queue the very back.

After the shower I got dressed and dressed a little.

"You wear this yes, let it be uniform with others" Oma ordered, giving me a suit. I wanted to wear it but I paused it because I didn't want to add nyinyiran if I wore a uniform with them. I still wear clothes that I brought myself from home, a white-bottomed dress in a mix with sea blue on the edges. Because I'm not very good at styling hair after I comb then I use hairpins on the right side of my hair and I match the color of my dress.

"Loh Anita why don't you wear the clothes that Oma gave you?" Oma.

"His head is great" I replied.

"Yes, come on," asked Oma while holding me, then we got into Om Wandy's car which was waiting in front.

Not long we arrived because the distance of Oma's house and Kak Laras' wedding venue was direct not so far away. I saw some of the troops begin to do the action by staring hatefully at me. I try to ignore it and hope it's over soon and I can go straight home. But there was still a reception at night.

That afternoon we went home to Oma's house for a bath and changed clothes after that I and Om Wandy went again to attend the reception. While Oma had given up and chose not to come along.

"Come, let's take a photo with Brother Laras" said Om Wandy invited me. I also agree because this afternoon I have not had time to take pictures with Kak Laras. But some of the army of nyinyir who were there instantly moved away while I was among them.

"Be careful not to live long if the photo with him."

"It could be shit, let's go!"

Ninyiran for the sake of nyinyiran slid from their mouths. It might not hurt as much as it would feel if those words came out of someone else's mouth, but in fact those words came from my own family people who had a blood relationship with me.

I got away from there and went to the parking lot where Om's car was. Not long after Om Wandy came to me. "I want to go home tonight, too," I said with a hiccup as I cried.

"Come on." said Om Wandy without refuting in the slightest.

After picking up our belongings and saying goodbye to Oma Maryam, we left the place.

Through midnight we arrived at my rented house.Om Wandy was staying overnight because he was too tired to continue the journey home. I went straight into my room and dropped my body on the bed. While Om Wandy sleeps in a room that was once occupied by Kak Laras.

I opened my eyes slowly as the sunlight entered through the gap of my bedroom window curtain. I have the lyrics for the wall clock in my room at 08:27.

Ahh.., this time I missed my morning prayer.

"Om not working," I asked as I sat on the bench next to Om Wandy.

"No, because yesterday Om has permission not to enter today," replied Om Wandy while drinking his coffee. "Breakfast was there" Om Wandy commanded.

"What breakfast? Anita, you can't cook" I said.

"So, I bought breakfast, it's in the kitchen. Don't forget to take a shower" said Om Wandy.

I immediately went to take a shower and then hurriedly went to the dinner table to peek at what food Om Wandy bought for me.

"Ahh, Om Wandy know my taste," I said as I took a spoon and enjoyed the chicken porridge in front of me. When I was eating Om Wandy say goodbye to go home but I said with a nod because my mouth was full of porridge.

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Tomorrow I go to school and I see the smile of someone who welcomes me in front of the class. Who else if not Ardi.

"Where were you yesterday, why didn't you come in?" Ask Brother Ardi to come up to me.

"There's a family event" I replied as I walked into class and headed to my seat.

"I'm a little worried, I think you're sick" said Mr. Ardi.

"No one should worry and never worry about me. And I'm asking that Brother Ardi stay away from me!"

Brother Ardi looked surprised at my reaction. "Anita, are you in trouble?" Asked astonishment.

"Go!" My hardik.

Without making a sound, Ardi went straight from my class.

The effect of yesterday's signalling made my psyche a little shaky and made my emotions hard to control.

Since that day Ardi has no longer followed me and sometimes I see him deliberately avoiding us if we will cross paths. There is guilt in my heart but I just pat because this is the best for me because I do not want if later Brother Ardi away from me because I know my origin is not in the desire of my own family.

The bell ringing home. I packed my books and writing equipment and left the classroom. I don't know why I feel like there's something lacking and it's not as usual, but I don't know if it's. Arriving at my house threw my body on the bed and I closed my eyes for a moment I saw the face of Kak Ardi there. Ahh.., I covered my face with a pillow but the shadow became clearer. I went to fetch the ablution water and perform the prayer hoping to repel the shadow.