Deepest Wound
TO SANTI'S HOUSE
...Happy reading ...
I've been thinking about Dani's words for a few days. I am confused who to talk to because I have not told Kak Laras at all about my relationship with Dani. I finally remembered Santi. I want to see her and see her baby.
I asked for help from Kak Laras to order baby items as a hand.
“Sekalian aja Kakan order for the needs of baby Sister later.”
“Still long. Rifqy clothes section baby time is still a lot and still good.”
“But the belly of Brother is already big this way.” I looked towards the stomach of Kak Laras. “Pake my money. Buy now just mumpung some funny tuh,” said I while pointing some baby clothes on the phone screen.
“That's the name of waste. The baby clothes are only briefly in the package.”
“Emang Aja want ngirit mulu,” cibirku.
“This is one of the reasons that make Brother do not believe you hold a lot of money. You want to spend money without thinking. You do not get any difference in which one is needed and which one is just a wish!”
“And there's money, Kak.”
Brother Laras arranged his sitting position while staring at me. “We don't know when you'll be in the hospital again. Yesterday's wrists were sliced with knives. How do you know tomorrow-tomorrow you cut your own neck!” Laras looked furious as he said that. “You forgot you used to be sick and almost ran out of expenses for the Hospital? Are they helping you? No, right!? Never help, not even visit at all. Suddenly they come after you've been like this.” I was silent and could not argue.
“Do not get too carried away. I know you miss the name of parental love. But you don't have to sacrifice everything. You understand!?” I was still silent with my lips cut.
“Don't get angry.., people say it's not good if you continue to get pregnant. Later if Brother suddenly lahiran here how am I? Sister also has not bought baby clothes.” I stared at Laras still in a half-down position.
“Basic recalcitrant! Free at sayain!” Kak Laras moved from his seat wanting to get out.
“Kak...! Continue when dong Sister can trust me!?” I raised my voice so that Brother Laras could hear.
“If your mind is mature, can take care of yourself and not wasteful! And there's one more..”.
“What!?” I poked my head from behind the wall of the middle room so that I could hear the words of Brother Laras.
“If anyone has been able to guide you.” I went back to my position and returned to my position. Meanwhile, Kak Laras has walked out.
I was already at Santi's house and it just so happened that her husband was not there because he was at work so we were free to chat. After putting her baby to sleep, Santi invited me to sit not far from her baby's bed so she could still watch over the baby. While his eldest son was playing with the art below.
“I already have a pair of these, when?” Santi asked me.
“Ihh, haven't thought. Where I do not know how to give birth,” I said. Santi even laughed at me even out loud.
“You why the hell? It's been an experience,” sewotku.
“What's plain b*go, anyway? Funny tau nak.” Santi laughed again.
“Enak aja ngatain me b*go. Yesterday who mewek girls confide in me who, try?”
“When I gave birth to my first child there was no experience either. But the doctors and nurses will guide us later. So tell Dani quickly to bed you so you can experience.”
“Well, that's the problem, San. I'm not ready.”
“You doubt that Dani can't take responsibility?”
“Not that. But the problem is that I'm not ready to get serious. But that doesn't mean I'm messing around. Just not ready to get married.”
“Yes have you guys done it first.”
“Wah, nice dong. That means he's serious about you. Faster then it will be better.”
“My family doesn't know about this either. I haven't had the courage to come clean.” I started to think about telling a little bit about my previous story.
“San...”.
“Care. I'll listen.” It seems like Santi can already guess my thoughts. I also told him the core part of my problem. I was also honest that from the beginning when accepting Dani I was forced and thought our relationship would end quickly.
“I think it's good you keep seeing her parents. But before you know Dani do not first talk about marriage which will make Dani's parents think you want to get married quickly. Later you slowly invite also Dani to meet your family so you do not constantly bump if you want to go out. I am glad to know no. Like ABG children who are banned from dating aja.”
What Santi said was true. We are like minors who are still banned from dating.
At night I tried to contact Dani through a message. Not long after he called me after reading the message I sent.
“Darling, I'm glad you finally called me again. I'm so scared that until you get angry long.” I smiled when I heard his words.
“Sorry, I just needed some alone time in the last few days. I'm not angry.” I didn't call him after that night. I never answered her call either.
Dani changed our chat to a video call. I see her sweet smile adorning my phone screen.
“Darling, are you sick? You look pale.”
“Ngak. I'm healthy kok.” I tried to smile to dispel her worries.
“Have eaten?” I just shook my head to answer Dani's question.
“You want me to bring you something?” Dani seems to be starting to understand my wish.
“Yakin?” I asked.
“You doubt my ability?” I laughed at the expression on his face that seemed to be unacceptable to me.
I also mentioned what I wanted.
“There again?” Ask.
“Hmm, chicken noodles good times yes. Chicken noodles one deh.”
“Udah, is that all?”
“Oiya, one-fill vegetable burger yes. Because there was chicken. It is not good to add meat again.”
“Ok. Anything else?”
“That's it first, ntar if mostly I can ndut.” Without realizing what I ordered was already a lot.
A few moments waiting for Dani to call me and I rushed to him at the usual place he stopped his car.
“Thank you,” I said with a big smile as Dani handed over all my orders. “Dani, I'm willing to meet your parents. Please don't talk about marriage. Can, right?” I stared half begging.
Dani looked at me and replied with a smile. “Yes, I understand. You are ready to meet my parents I am happy, kok.”
...Tbc ...
