Deepest Wound

FIRST KISS

Ardi's brother came back two days ago but we haven't been able to go together as usual. Because I'm facing my class-up exam. We just sent word over the phone. Day after day when I face the test, Ardi does not stop giving me spirit.

When the exam was over I and Ardi went to places we used to go together to spend time together before Ardi really returned to his hometown.

"Sister, I will ask Father and Mother to educate me in the same city as well later" I said to Brother Ardi.

"really?"

"Yes." Yeah."

"That's good, that means next year we can be together again." Ardi's sister clasped my hand with a happy smile.

"Sister, promise me?"

"What promise?" Ask Brother Ardi.

"Promise not to look handsome while there" I said.

"What's!? Hahaha...."

"I don't want Big Brother in the lyrics of the girls there."

"If they glanced, I could not forbid it, but I was sure that my eyes and heart would still only admire the person who was currently before me."

"I don't want anyone to look at you!"

"Yes, I'll take a shower every two days so as not to look handsome."

"Ishh, how about once every two days?"

"Ok, once a week, and don't have to leave either."

"Ihhh, slovenly!"

Brother Ardi chuckled and I could only wash my lips in annoyance, it seems like Brother Ardi did not take my words seriously.

Two months passed so quickly. Ardi's brother is going back to his town. The morning before he left, he came to my house to say goodbye.

"Anita, take good care of yourself, and never accept an invitation from any man to go. Because not all men are as good as me. And I don't want anyone to take advantage of our current distance." Ardi looked at me while holding both my hands.

I could only nod in disbelief as if I was separated from Brother Ardi. I don't know why I didn't want to be like this. Before that, I prepared myself for today. But my tears still flowed without excuse.

"Why crying? Couldn't we be together next year? And I'll be here if I'm on holiday." Brother Ardi wiped away the tears that soaked my cheeks.

I looped my arms around Kak Ardi's waist by hugging him. Brother Ardi immediately returned my embrace.

I looked up at Brother Ardi with tears still wetting my cheeks. Brother Ardi kissed my forehead for the first time. But I was very surprised when Brother Ardi put his lips on mine.

"Sister!"

"Hmm, someday I'll have all of this." Brother Ardi rubbed my lips with his thumb. I immediately bowed very embarrassed. I close my face to Brother Ardi's chest. But Brother Ardi raised my face back and we stared at each other.

"Sister!" I held down the chest of Brother Ardi who seemed to want to kiss my lips again.

"This time alone, let today the angel record our sins. After that we will repeat it when we are halal."

I don't know what to say. I do not agree, but I do not refuse. I let Brother Ardi kiss my lips and this time it is not just a kiss, Brother Ardi I**mat my lips so softly. I've seen scenes like this on television.

I was silent to feel a sensation that I had never felt before until Kak Ardi released the pagutan. I hurried back down to close my face to Brother Ardi's chest. I felt Brother Ardi peeking at the top of my head. And I raised my face again to look at Brother Ardi.

"I love you too, Brother."

We exchanged hugs. I want to stop time so we can be together.

Brother Ardi waved his hand from the car window and I replied with tears that again almost spilled. I went inside after Ardi's car was no longer visible.

Hiding the face behind my puppet with tears returning.

After being satisfied crying I immediately grabbed my phone and typed a message for Ardi.

📨 [Me] Brother, don't forget to let me know if you get there.

Long time no reply because Kak Ardi is still on his way. I waited until the afternoon if Brother Ardi had arrived he would have seen my message.

Just this morning we split up, why do I feel like it's been days. I couldn't even eat anything since this morning because I didn't feel hungry at all. But I felt my body very weak. I opened the fridge and took some milk and drank it so I could get a little more energy.

My phone rang after I finished my Ashar prayer. I was so happy when I saw Brother Ardi calling.

"Aren't you here?" My toot.

"Yes. What are you again?"

"I just finished praying, and I've been waiting for a call from Brother since then" I said.

"Let's just move on, I'm gonna take a shower and take a little break."

"If you have time, don't forget to call me" I said before we ended the conversation.

"Surely," replied Brother Ardi.

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Day by day with my weight. Every time I went through the alley to school I remembered Brother Ardi. I also always look at the stalls where we used to shelter in the rain. On the weekend, we will go to our favorite cafe. If Ardi's brother is not doing any activities he will call me to accompany me to chat while watching the sunset.

I can still cry when we talk to each other over the phone. But I always try to look strong. But still in the end Brother Ardi found out that I was crying. All this time he was the one who always comforted me, filling my days with happiness when I thirsted for attention. When he was far away from me, of course, the sense of loss was very torturing to me. Of course it is different, between just being able to hear his voice and meeting in person. I want to embrace and shed all the weight of this longing in his arms.

The longing is intangible, just like the wind. But it can be felt.

🤧🤧

All this time I never told Kak Ardi that I often met Mr. Adji at the cafe even though it was just a coincidence. Although I know that Mr. Adji seems to like me but I try to be indifferent and still act like a student to his teacher. Indeed, I used to harass Mr. Adji and admire him a lot as well. But in fact my heart has already dropped a choice on Brother Ardi. Someone who can really make me comfortable.

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...**Tbc...

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