Deepest Wound

FEAR AND DOUBT

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I thought about what step I would take this was right. To meet with his family Bang Fauzan.While I have not been able to interpret my feelings at this time.

What if his family asks what our current relationship is?

What if his family demands to immediately formalize our relationship?

The questions were spinning in my head.

It just so happens that we are both in town. I was at my house and Bang Fauzan as usual he was staying at a hotel not far from my house.

I tried to contact him to speak even though I was also confused as to how to explain my doubts.

“Iya, Deck. What's up?” Sahut Bang Fauzan's.

I'm still silent about not knowing where to start.

“Dek...?”

“Eh, yes Bang.”

“What's up...? From earlier Abang nanya but you did not answer.”

“I'm confused how to explain it to Abang.”

“Emang wants to explain what, hmm...?”

Akhh.., Bang Fauzan's murmur made me so thump. My brain suddenly became dead.

“Bang...”.

“Hmm, why?”

“Ishh, Brother don't hm hm doang..dengerin I said.”

“From yesterday also Brother has been trying to horrify you, but you have nothing to say. Do you miss your brother, yes?”

“Ihh, GR!” My sewot.

It sounded like Bang Fauzan was chuckling there. ”Terus what...? From earlier you have not said anything Dek...,” Bang Fauzan still patiently face my behavior.

“Ya, talk later. I have forgotten what I wanted to talk about,”, I said.

“Ok, but when?”

“Hmm, whatever, when do you have time?” Ask me back.

“If for you Brother will definitely do anything,” stressed Bang Fauzan.

“I want to talk now..but confused where to start...”.

“Then you think first, aja. Then if you know where to start then we talk again. How?” Bang Fauzan's.

“Ya already, later we talk again.” We both closed the call.

The idea popped into my head not long after we closed the call. I relayed my point through a message to Bang Fauzan. I feel more able to concentrate when talking through messages than having to talk directly. At least the words I want to say I can think first than later I even mispronounced if through a call. Not to mention that I suddenly became nervous when I heard Bang Fauzan's voice.

The question is, since when can I be so nervous?

I type what I want to tell Bang Fauzan. After the message was sent I waited for a while maybe he was reading it. Because the message I sent was quite long and hopefully Bang Fauzan can understand it.

Trings...

The message from my phone reads. I immediately opened the message and read a reply to a message from Bang Fauzan that was no less long than the message I had sent. I smiled when I read the message.

...Fauzan POV's...

The beginning of our brief introductions has sprouted the seeds of love in my heart. Unfortunately I didn't have time to ask any more because it seemed like this woman I liked didn't want to give me a chance to get to know her more.

There was something interesting about this woman, from her gaze that held so many puzzles. There was a towering barrier wall making it difficult to reach.

Apparently he doesn't remember me. The response is still the same, indifferent and cold. I tried to give her a bottle of mineral water in the hot weather. All in all to mince words looking for chatter material.It turns out he immediately wanted to receive the water I gave even he downed almost half the water in a bottle. Her thirst has been a blessing to me.

I tried to talk that we'd met before. I was happy that at the end he could remember our very short meeting in the village. For the first time I could see her smile when she returned my joke. Hopefully this will be the beginning of my path to get closer to him.

I will not waste the opportunity God has given me.

The more I know her, the more I solidify my intention to choose this tough woman as my future life companion. But still I have not been able to pass through the wall that surrounds him.

Sometimes my heart wonders, does anyone else have a heart?

But as far as we know each other, I've never seen him close to anyone. Although I know there are some male friends who might also put their hearts on him.

The opportunity is still there for me to fight for the hope I've always dreamed of. I don't want to be rash in my actions.

However, as a real man I still tell him how I feel.

I knew it wasn't that easy he would accept me. I don't want to demand that much that'll keep him away from me.

By allowing me to remain his friend I am grateful.

Until one day he said the words I had long wanted to hear from him. My patience has been so sweet.

Little by little I can recognize him. It turns out that behind that toughness she is still a woman who can be sweet. There was one trait he liked the most, he always said things directly without covering it up.

...Fauzan POV END's...

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I was in front of Bang Fauzan's house. I glanced towards my right side where Bang Fauzan was standing.

“Ayo,” take her while holding my hand.

“Bang..I am afraid.”

“Udah, you are calm. The rest of Brother who will answer questions from the family Abang.”

I just nodded then followed Bang Fauzan's footsteps by walking beside him.

“Assalamu'alaikum..”.

“Wa'alaikumsalaam..,” answer everyone in the living room.

Deg deg...!

My heart until it sounded like my hands were cold and my body was almost shivering. What else all who were sitting there suddenly looked towards the two of us. More precisely they were focused on staring at me.

“Let's here,” said one of the people sitting there and it turns out she is the Mother of Bang Fauzan.

I sat there with an uncanny feeling. I felt like a stranger coming in the middle of the family.

All the eyes there were still looking at me with a difficult look.

...Tbc...

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