Deepest Wound

REALLY TESTED

I left the village where I came from and went back to my rented house because in a few days the school will start.

There were a lot of messages coming into my phone when I activated it. Of course, the message from Ardi is the most. There was longing, happiness and laughter as I read one message from him.

I called Kak Laras and told him about Dad's departure. Laras strengthened by giving me advice so that I could be what you wanted me to be all along.

After calling Kak Laras I immediately cleaned the house because at that time I went so hurriedly that I did not have time to clean it. While I was cleaning my phone rang a few times but I couldn't take it because I was washing dishes. When I finished, I checked my phone. It turned out that Ardi's brother contacted me.

Then I called Ardi.

"Why didn't you get my call, you deliberately wanted to make me die because you held back longing?"

"I'm cleaning up, brother. The house was a mess when I left. And I rarely do homework, so it takes a little longer to clean up" I said.

"Oh, sorry. I'm so sorry for the passing of your father."

"Yes, Brother. I'm sorry I didn't get to the village yesterday."

"Yes, I called Kak Laras, saying you're back. Why don't you call me, hmm? Have you found another man in the village?"

Deg!

My heart was beating fast. Why can Ardi say that? Strangely, I felt like I was caught off guard. I remember a man named Fauzan who drove me home.

"What's the boy talkin' about? How could I be like that!" My answer.

"Where is it possible? Does that mean you're really gonna wait for me?"

"Yes, I'll catch up with Brother next year anyway."

"I'm glad to hear it."

Tired and sleepy, I fell asleep while talking on the phone. I woke up at night. I saw a message from Ardi.

📨[Sister Ardi] Happy resting my encouragement, may I always be in your dreams.

I smiled when I read the message. The pain and burden that was in my heart was slightly healed.

I was shocked when there was a voice banging from outside my room. I got out of bed and opened the door.

"What's up, brother?" I asked Brother Ina who was standing in front of my room door.

"Near-night, danger of girls living alone and doors open."

"What!?" I was shocked to find out that the door of my house had been open since.

"Other times be careful, don't be careless," said Ina.

"Yes, Brother." I closed the door and locked it when Ina went home.

Akh! Basic sloppy!

There are still two days of vacation. I decided to go jogging that afternoon. And again I met Mr. Adji while I was sitting and resting where we used to talk.

"Eh, Father!?" I was shocked that Mr. Adji was sitting next to me.

"How are you?"

"A--I, fine. How's your own father?" I tried to make small talk as well asking although I was sure that Mr. Adji's situation seemed to be fine.

I was a little surprised and turned to look at Mr. Adji. "What pain is it?"

"It hurts not to have something you want." While Mr. Adji is laughing at me.

"Oh." I no longer continue my question because I do not want Mr. Adji to express his feelings. As much as possible, I acted as if I did not know about his feelings even though Mr. Adji's attitude was very clear to have more feelings for me.

Such meetings often occur. Either coincidence or engineering I don't understand either. Every weekend when I go out of the house I often meet Mr. Adji. But I always try to avoid every word that will lead to feelings.

Lately I've been calling Ardi less and less, because I'm preparing for my graduation exam. My desire is to graduate with a satisfactory grade and I can go to college in the same place as Kak Ardi.

The afternoon after returning from tutoring I replied to the message of Kak Ardi who had piled up.

📨 [Me] Brother, soon I will face the final exam, pray that I can get the best grades and I can go to college at the same place as Brother.

There was no long reply from Ardi. He wrote words to encourage me. His words can always make me smile and really make me even more excited.

The graduation exam is over, just waiting for the announcement. I have tried my best to leave the rest to the Almighty.

I was very happy, it turned out that I graduated with the best grades. I called Kak Laras and reported this happy news.

If Dad were still there, he would be very happy.

But it seems like God still wants to test me, when I go back to the village to tell Mother about my graduation, I was greeted with a pile of clothes and some of my old stuff placed in front of the door. I was surprised why all the stuff was there.

"Sister, why was Anita kicked out?" I asked Brother Rama who greeted me at the door. "Where is Mother?"

"From now on you take care of it and you think about your own life. Enough of this family to hold a sly like you. You fucking son of a bitch!" I gasped at the words coming out of the mouth of Brother Rama.

My eyelids are hot, seconds later my tears are dripping. I don't understand why Brother Rama behaves like that. Brother Ilham was just silent to see Kak Rama treat me like that.

I'm confused how else. Then I saw Yurish and Arni walking down the street near my house. Then I called them both.

"Anita!?"

We hugged each other to let go of longing after such a long time of not meeting.

"Why come home after two days of Mother's funeral, you?" Ask Arni after we hugged.

"What!?"

"Don't you know your mother died two days ago?" Yurish's question surprised me even more and couldn't stem my tears.

Arni and Yurish accompanied me to go to Mother's grave. There I was crying so much. I finally understood why Brother Rama was acting like that to me. Apparently they were also affected by the remarks of some residents in the village. There was no one to defend me anymore, even the person I thought of as family had now discarded me as well.

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...Tbc...

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