Deepest Wound
DUE TO THE CUTTING OF THE MONEY
...Happy reading...
Lately I've been giving more time to Dani. I don't know what or how I feel about him. I didn't want to hinder his intention to melt my heart even though he never knew what I was going through before.
Since I separated from Junior High I have never been in contact with my friends again. It was only when I met Santi that time that we were finally able to ask each other the news. Because most of them moved cities and there are also only immigrants like me. I also went to a different school than them. Until I graduated I worked away from the city. But I am grateful that they did not know my dark times and fortunately again Kak Agil swiftly canceled the invitation on time. If not, I feel more embarrassed.
Although there are some of my friends who know but they can understand and immediately delete the congratulations they had uploaded at that time. Because the date of the wedding is the same as the birthday, some think that it is just a normal birthday.
This time I followed where Dani took me to dinner. Looks like my ego is trying to give in to him tonight.
Maybe he was happy or maybe surprised by my sudden change had a lot of time for him. But if he asks directly then I'll be honest one of the reasons is because I want to be treated due to my pocket money. Silly, but that is the truth.
I am not ashamed to admit such a thing. If there was a right time I would admit everything without hiding the slightest bit of trouble in my life. I don't care anymore nor am I afraid to lose. Because I've been through all that and can be said to be an antibody.
The pruning of this pocket money seemed to be a blessing to him.
We ordered the food we wanted. While waiting for Dani to ask a lot about the things I like and the things I don't. This moment reminds me of that time.
“Until now I still don't believe in this relationship.” Dani kept staring at me with a smile that always puffed up on her lips.
“I mean, you're not sure?”
“Not so. I used to only see you from a distance. Seeing you joke with your friends. I do not have the courage at all to approach you even just say hello.” Dani bowed while keeping her smile there.
I don't really remember who he is and I'm really sorry why I didn't realize anyone was watching me in that detail. Even he knows the color and model of the jacket I wear to school if the rainy season comes. She knows my model and hairstyle to the accessories I wear she still remembers.
“I swear, I get goosebumps. You know all about it. Don't tell me you also know what I hid in my school uniform pocket.” Dani chuckled at my words.
“I only pay attention to the exterior. Where I might have gotten that far, I'm not a psychic.”
Our order has arrived. Pramusaji put all the food we ordered earlier.
Dani occasionally glanced at me but I pretended not to know and focused on the plate in front of me.
”Ayo.” Dani thrust a spoonful of food from her plate at me. I saw the contents of the plate worried that it was a meat menu or food that I did not like. After making sure it was safe, I opened my mouth.
“How?” Ask.
“It's normal, anyway. But because you are nyuapin, so there is a sensation that is,” kekehku. Dani chuckled while continuing to eat.
After eating and Dani paid all the bills, we left the restaurant. In the car I was fiddling to see the group and see the status of Santi who has now given birth. This morning we had a chat and he said he felt a bit mules.
“What's up?” Dani asked when she saw me smiling to myself.
“Try see.” I pointed my phone screen at Dani. He looked for a while and refocused on his drive.
“Pengen?” He smiled and glanced at me.
“Ihh, it was you who it was that I watched know the cause of my smile earlier.” While showing my sewot face. While he was chuckling.
“You go straight home what's a walk first?” Dani asked while still focusing on looking ahead.
Dani continued driving his car until it stopped somewhere. We walked around the place and Dani always held my hand. We found a suitable place to chat and sit there.
“Oiya, I want nanya,” I said when we were both sitting in that place.
“You want what?” While Dani tidied my hair that had been blown by the wind. I was amazed to see Dani's baby face up close. Before Dani realized it I hurriedly turned my face the other way. I almost forgot what I wanted to ask.
“What's up?”Dani grabbed my hand and held it.
“Why didn't you try to greet me or get acquainted?” I finally remembered what I wanted to ask.
Dani was silent for a moment. “You mean when we were in school?” Dani asked to be sure, and I nodded.
He smiled while I couldn't wait for an answer from him.
“If I had courage like this, I would have done it. After all I was aware as a younger brother of the class, and was not old enough yet either. But now we are both quite old, it is good if we inaugurate with ijab qobul.”
Deg!
Hearing the words ijab qobul my chest felt tight and the memory again twisted all those very painful events.
“Udah hour this way, let's go home.” I also stood up.
“Ya. Come.” Dani held my shoulder until we were near the car and she opened the door for me. I went in without much protest.
On the way home we would prefer to be quiet. But Dani was unceasingly smiling and grasping my hand while his other hand was holding the wheel.
He stopped at the usual place I asked to put him down.
“I go in first. Thank you for taking me for a walk.” I was holding the doorknob of the car about to open it but Dani's hand was still holding my arm. “And, please let go first, how do I want to go out,” while turning towards Dani.
Dani approached and gave her first kiss on my forehead. Suddenly I turned my face away after that and wanted to rush out of there. But Dani held my arm back.
“Dani...lepasin, what if someone sees!”
“Come we get married.”
“Let's talk again, I'm tired.”
......**Tbc ......
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