Deepest Wound
STARTING LIFE AGAIN
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This time I really enjoy my journey when usually I always fall asleep even though only a few kilometers of travel.
In the afternoon we arrived home. There was Oma Maryam and Kak Laras who greeted me in front of the house. I greeted Oma and hugged Kak Laras. Long enough we hugged releasing longs and tears.
“Kakak udah slim.” I looked towards Kak Laras' stomach then we laughed together.
We all got into the house while Om Wandy took some stuff out of the car.
I miss the atmosphere of the house, miss the nagging of Kak Laras and miss the food in this city.
Oma and Kak Laras spent the night at my house and we slept together in the living room using a floor mattress. At first Kak Laras did not agree considering I had just recovered from illness. But I ask only this once because I miss the atmosphere in the village when I used to spend the night at Oma's house, sleeping rame-rames in this way.
At dawn we woke up the sound of crying from Aira. Aira is the second child of Laras. It seemed that he woke us up on purpose because after that he was silent and laughing when we could not all fall asleep anymore.
Kak Laras's efforts are also progressing. In addition to online, there are also those who come directly to the store to see the goods in person. During the end of childbirth he no longer received orders to make cakes. But he sells clothes, herbal medicines, furniture and much more.
While I also slowly recovered my finances that had been very drained during my time at the Hospital. Every month I do regular checks and every time I ask Ardi never answered clearly about my pain.
And this is the number of times I ask and even force.
“You should not be tired. Your body's defenses are highly susceptible to viruses. And you can say you really can't work or think a lot. Because if forced, it will be fatal as a result. That's why your family is asking that you be treated here. If you are let go home then you will continue to work without regard to your health.” I gulped rough not knowing what to say.
So they're all the ones who got me in the care. But why not tell me from the beginning? I almost expected that I would die from a dangerous disease.
“Auww!” My left head suddenly hurt.
“Anita, I told you, don't think much first.” Brother Ardi approached me. He looks panicked and worried.
“Nnothing, later also lost itself.”
“Do you often feel like this?”
“Iya, sometimes. Maybe it was because of fatigue.”
“Do not underestimate the disease from the fatigue factor. You have always worked hard without time. There is no point in the money you make if you run out for medical expenses. Now you know, right?”
It is true what Ardi said. I was too ambitious to try to keep living properly until I forgot about my own health.
I'm not angry at anyone and I don't blame anyone. I accept everything that has happened. After all they did all this for sure because they care so much about me.
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I'm not as quick as I used to be if I was addressing something. I learned to relax and not be too rash.
Ardi said, "if you're a 40-year-old, maybe you won't survive" I didn't expect a doctor to say that to his patients. Or maybe because the patient is me.
I've already heard from Dani. That two months after there was no news from me he decided to continue his S2 which had been delayed in his hometown Mama is quite far away and chose to be independent there. I am relieved that he is okay and will apologize if he gives me the chance to meet again.
One day I changed overnight at the house of Kak Laras because it happened that Kak Agil was working out of the area. After putting Aira to sleep she approached me.
“Anita, Brother want to talk.”
“Iya, talk aja.” I turned off my phone and focused on listening to Kak Laras who wanted to talk.
“Who's Dani?”
Deg!
I was shocked and nervous when Kak Laras mentioned Dani's name. But I tried as casually as I could to react to it
“Oh, he's my friend.”
“He'em,” nod me. “What's up?”
“Friends? But BABE?” Brother Laras looked with his gaze that forced to be given an explanation.
Huhhhh! It's free that I lied.
“Yes yes, he and I are not just friends. But now he's not in town anymore.”
“Oh, so now you secretly have a girlfriend without telling Sister?”
“Sorry, he once asked to be introduced to our family, but I refused because I was still not ready to be serious again.”
“You didn't try to contact him again?”
“I'll apologize if I see you again. But to come back may not be. It's been a while and maybe now he's happy with the others. Even if we decided to continue our relationship again was also impossible, surely his family would not agree. Because I disappeared without leaving any news.” I look forward to remembering my last time visiting Dani's parents' house.
“You've met her parents? How did they react?” Laras became more and more enthusiastic in asking.
“His family belongs to the modern family. I think the hell like that, because when I try to be honest they seem ordinary without being disturbed at all.”
“If Dani is not married then you guys meet again how?”
“I don't know yet, anyways I want to focus on enjoying life and trying to make myself happy. That's what you always say?”
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My life goes on how it should.
I heard the news that Gea had remarried after officially divorcing her light-handed husband.
Papa's condition has improved. Erlang has also become a permanent employee in the company with a decent salary.
Mom is not as hard as before. Maybe by itself Mama realized her mistake all along. I can't really judge if it was a mistake or a test for me.
Year passed ...
Have I been able to feel the name happy for a year?
I can't conclude yet. I don't even ask God for that happiness anymore. All I want is a calm.
There are still small pebbles in my life. People are starting to question when I got married? What age is it?
Why not get married?
I started to talk about all of that. I only talk if I want to talk about it. Sometimes I answer as I like. I also do not hesitate to break off relationships with people who ask a lot about my life. I'm tired ...
I used to be afraid of getting married. At the end of the day I am ready, but fate says something else. But at least I've tried and tried.
...**Tbc...
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Sorry if for the next few days it may not be up yet. Othor prepares for the end of this story and there is also a rush in real life.
Hopefully later it can be up and straight end.
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