Deepest Wound

GIVE A CHANCE

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“Who was it?” Ask Kak Laras to sit on my bed.

“Bang Fauzan,” I answered lazily.

“Hm..actually Brother has long wanted this nanyain to you,” said Kak Laras.

“What?” I who was originally in the face down position on the mattress immediately took a sitting position facing Kak Laras.

“Jawab to be honest, do you have the same feelings of your friend?”

“Bang Fauzan?”

Laras replied with a nod. I answered him too, shaking my head.

“Why? Is it because of Ardi?”

“Why because of him? Yes, no, Brother.” Although it is, I cannot forget it and I am not ready to accept the presence of others in my heart.

“Do not lie.”

“Kak...how important is this discussion? Besides Ardi's sister is married, why think of people who have status as husband.”

“Why don't you change your status too, as a wife?”

“So I don't know that I can't qualify as a wife yet,” I said reasoned.

“If you have become a wife, then by itself you will learn and understand everything.”

I think back to a time a few years ago where Papa and Mama who almost every day quarreled. To re-imagine all that I did not want to think at all about getting married.

“Yes yes..later I will learn if there is a soul mate,” I said as I lay begging Kak Laras and covered my ears with a pillow. That's how I shoo away subtly.

“Not already exist,ya?”

“Who?” I asked still in the back position.

“Fauzan.”

“And I told you, I'm with Bang Fauzan's friend. Onion, ihh.”

“Not you used to be the same Ardi was also friends at first, huh?”

My heart feels like it's torn to shreds when it comes to hearing his name again. But I try not to care and look ordinary. Although I accidentally screamed to call his name when I woke up in the dark of the night.

“Why not try to open your heart again? According to Brother, Fauzan is a good man. Yes, maybe at this time you do not have any feelings for him, but if you try, Brother is sure by itself you will be able to accept him.”

I thought of the last words of Brother Laras.

Should I just give Bang Fauzan a chance?

What if I still can't take it?

“Alright, I'll talk later with Bang Fauzan, my inner”.

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I have thought carefully about my decision to follow the advice of Kak Laras.

Coincidentally, the employees from the field also had lunch in the cafeteria with the employees of the office. Because their canteen is being replaced and their new canteen is still under construction. So for a while they'll join us on our lunch break.

Field employees consisting of a group of men were hysterical Karyawati office parts. The atmosphere of the canteen became more crowded than usual.

I deliberately searched for the last seat and I was very sure that Bang Fauzan would catch up with me if I saw me there.

Sure enough, not long after he came and took a sitting position in front of me.

“No one will be sitting here, right?” Ask. And I just answered with a slight smile.

”Have ordered food?” Ask again.

“Already.”

“What's up?”

”What do you think? Is there a problem?” Bang Fauzan asked seriously.

“Ehm, yes. The problem is I always think Brother,” my chuckle while making a smile.

“Alhamdulillah. Haha..!”

I laughed with the words I said earlier.

“Hopefully what you say can come true. Because some say, that speech is do'a.” Bang Fauzan started to look at me seriously again. He also returned my words at that time.

Our conversation came to a halt when another employee took a seat next to me. Because it's hard to find a place that's still empty, maybe that's why he's sitting with us.

“Ehmm..!”

I looked at Bang Fauzan who suddenly had a throat problem. Before it was okay.

“Sorry to interrupt, I will look elsewhere,” said the person sitting next to me wanting to move on.

”Lho, Bang..why?” I asked the guy.

“I want to join my friends there only anyone wants to talk,” while he points towards one of the tables that have been filled by other employees.

“But there is no seat anymore, Bang?” I said try to prevent.

Tuk tuk tuk...!

Bang Fauzan tapped on the table with his fingertips. As the man went on.

I turned to look at Bang Fauzan. ”Abang on purpose, right let that person go?” My tent.

”He should have understood that on this table there are both of us.”

“She won't be sitting here either if the other table isn't full,” I'm upset.

“Yes, but you don't have to sit next to you either. Because the seat next to me is still empty,” replied Bang Fauzan a little protest.

“Huhh! Jealousy turned out!” I said in my heart. I think back to Brother Ardi who used to be jealous. Yes, even though I am the one who is actually more jealous😪

Keinget Kak Ardi again 😣

“There is actually something I want to talk to Brother about, but later we will find the right time,” I said changing the topic. And it just so happened that our food had come.

“It must be very important, yes?” Bang Fauzan asked in between his meals and looking from his face he looked very impatient.

“Can be.” I answered ambiguously while shrugging both of my shoulders. So that Bang Fauzan is more curious.

“Oiya, next week there is an event in the village, and there is a night market as well. Do you want to pick up?”

I thought it was a good idea, and I immediately agreed.

The weekend has come, Bang Fauzan came to pick me up. Because we were worried that it would suddenly rain on the road, so Bang Fauzan took the initiative to let us go by car.

On the way I prefer to be quiet. Because if I talk a lot, I forget what I want to talk about.

“If it is not healthy, we should just delay the departure,” advice Bang Fauzan who thinks I am sick. ”The conversation will end next week,” he added.

“Don't.., we have to leave now,” and I insist that my plan for the night be delivered.

“Ya already, later if you feel bored just say it, do not hesitate. We'll go straight home.” I answered with a nod.

“Bang..aku...”.

Bang Fauzan slowly pulled over his car and stopped. ”What's up? Speak.”

I bowed for a while while gathering my courage and re-composed the words I was about to say.

“I really want to talk about our relationship. I want to try to open my heart back.” My chest rumbled after saying that. But there was a sense of relief I was finally able to convey it.

“You're serious?” And I nodded to answer that what I said was true.

“Alhamdulillah.., thank you for this opportunity. As much as possible you will try to help close your heart wounds,” said Bang Fauzan with seriousness.

...**Tbc...

Don't forget the trail 👍**