Black Room

Jealous

When you start believing in hope. In that instant, you must prepare to get back up. Sometimes hope is born to bring you down.

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The sun started to rise. The scorching rays pass through the cracks of the leaves. Ripo and I walked out of the office in anger. We headed back to the local by swearing buk yana and buk de.

"Just because of the remedy, I had to bury my dream to be able to come with poprov" Ripo wrote sadly.

"Damn. The opportunity has come. We can't take it" I'm furious too.

Ripo and I were selected into the futsal team lancek manih in order to poprov in the city payakumbuah. We were able to enter the poprov futsal team this year thanks to bang yondra. However, bang yondra had to re-drove our name after the school did not give permission for us to participate in the biennial event. Our many remedies are the reason the school does not allow us to participate in the porprov event which will be held in November tomorrow.

Ripo and I walked up to the tek rida. We didn't go back to class because we're going to be on break soon. In the canteen there are only two people nagari padang sibusuk who used to also attend my school. I called him da imron and bang wandi. Bang wandi was our former school football coach last year at the LPI. Da imron and bang wandi lansung make fun of ripo with their typical guraun. While ripo lansung alone suffered complaints that were not given permission by the school to follow porprov.

Actually it is not a remedy that is the reason the school does not allow us to join porprov. Furthermore, me and Ripo are third grade and should focus on preparing for the national exam. The biennial event was held for a full month. If me and Ripo come along, of course we will miss a lot of lessons. But if you can choose. We will definitely choose to join porprov instead of being immersed in a boring lesson.

Ripo and I may be upset. But the reason schools don't give permission is also not to blame. Until bang yondra just relented and had to go home empty-handed.

15 Minutes sitting talking in the canteen. School bell signaled break time rang. The canteen was immediately full of children in school batik uniforms. I ordered the cigarette back to the tek rida and switched to sitting on the back of me. My three best friends told me about class fun in geography lessons. I didn't take geography lessons because I had to listen to the rejection of buk de and buk yana in the office. Aldi told me about the cuteness of lola and doris accompanied by laughter. My three best friends and I walked back to the school after the bell rang.

I sat in front of the class with my three best friends. The break was over ten minutes ago. But the students were still wandering in front of their class. Some tenth graders play ball in the field. The next-class students were seen approaching them. Dapit and zico yelled asking me to join them in their game. I refused by waving a wail from above. This afternoon the sun was very hot burning the skin.

"Why hasn't the teacher been in class yet?" I asked my three best friends.

"Teacher again breffing" Sahut ijep.

"Breffing moreover?" I asked again.

"The marching band's son wants a championship" Aldi replied.

"Ohhh" I nodded.

Aldi and ijep continued their discussion of the tenth-grade women who are now the target of ijep. Aldi and ijep are very close. They always talk about women. Nando and I focused on the field. The juniors in the field are still passing the ball. Futsal games have not started because their numbers are still lacking.

Bojek and the other tenth graders competed against the eleventh grade plus two twelfth graders. Deal the game as usual with a bet of two thousand headers. The game begins after both teams agree to the agreement. The match was fierce and fun. Laughter and laughter are throughout the game.

After playing futsal. I walked up to the captain of the apin with heavy sweat pouring down my face. The hot afternoon made me feel very gera after playing futsal. In the cafeteria pak apin, there is buk mutia sitting with habib and also pak fadlan. But there is something different about the attitude of buk mutia this afternoon. His attitude was so cold and did not look even at me. Is it because there's a fadlan next to it?

I ordered ice tea to bik surti. Ripo ordered empty ice. Ripo and I sat at the table opposite the table where buk mutia sat. I was jealous to see buk mutia sitting next to Mr. Fadlan. Moreover, the jealousy was burning even more when the attitude of buk mutia who did not care about my existence.

"The porprov kids are now holding tc disawahlunto" Ripo said.

I looked at the ripo who was focusing on the android. Ripo learned of the news from the introduction of bbm bang wanda which posted his status "Bismillah pawahlunto".

"How else" Sahutku

"If school allowed us to have fun right now" Ripo said.

I just smiled knotty. My gaze focused on the buk mutia who was busy talking to my junior habib who was sitting in front of her. I don't know what they're talking about until buk mutia seems to really enjoy their conversation.

"Straight" said Mr. fadlan.

I'm appalled. Did fadlan notice me staring at buk mutia? I just smiled back at Mr. Fadlan.

"You guys weren't given permission by the school to go porprov" asked mr. fadlan.

"No sir" Ripo replied.

Even when Mr. Fadlan called my name, buk mutia also did not look at me. What happened to buk mutia? I feel alien to buk mutia's attitude this afternoon? It's not usually buk mutia doesn't care like this to me. Buk mutia always smiles every time she meets me. But this afternoon, I just got my heart burning jealous. Ah, jealousy. Am I ready to open mutia?

Mr. fadlan and ripo chatted about the futsal lomab in the field yesterday. I feel uneasy with myself in the cafeteria, sir. I walked into the area with my head full of questions. I believed what aldi said yesterday afternoon. Buk mutia has a relationship with mr. fadlan. I blow a rough mouth. I tried to get the name buk mutia out of my mind. I feel like my heart is hurting so much if I keep thinking about buk mutia and mr. fadlan.

And at night. I went back to talking to buk mutia through BBM chat. Buk mutia commented on my true status to her. I chose not to discuss the cold attitude of buk mutia this afternoon. I felt like I wouldn't find an answer if I asked her why she was being cold to me. I was quite self-aware that I was nobody who had the right to be jealous of seeing buk mutia so close to another man. Me and buk mutia talked a lot until it ended with a good night.