Black Room

Deathly dreadlocks

Everyone has the opportunity to heal their pain.

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I could hear or lyrics a song that says that love can't also not have. And that's what I feel for buk mutia.

I was again defeated by pessimism for the second time. The same thing I felt about fiona three years ago. I don't dare to tell you my true feelings. Merely, I felt unsure that Fiona would return my feelings. That's why I chose to hide. Keep love and hurt as deep as possible. Then I came to understand the meaning of sincerity in love.

I'm used to living with pain. A broken family is enough to be a picture of how painful the life I am living. But I have trained myself not to complain and not to give up my life to pain. I have always believed that every human being has a chance to heal themselves of pain. So that way, broken in love is not a big problem for me.

The sun is shining cold on Tuesday. The light did not feel hot even though it had entered half a day. My class cheered for the sixth hour of sports. Doris and aldi change uniforms in the classroom without caring about the female students who are still in the local. Some of my female friends screamed in disdain and stepped out of the classroom. I, nando and ijep also changed uniforms with sportswear.

Aldi and I walked to the office cheerfully after changing sports clothes. Students are always excited about sports lessons. In the office buk ida is talking with buk febi, buk ida, and buk de. Aldi and I walked into the office through the left door. The teacher's office has two entrances at the front. Another one on the right near the local row of ten, and another on the left across the computer lab.

"Asalamulaikum" Salamku. "There's a ferry buk" I pretended to ask.

This morning, the ferry was not present at school because there was a need for dimuaro. Pak hendra ferry is an athletic trainer at porprov this year. There are five students of my school who become students of the ferry taught porprov which will be held in the grow. And three of them can appear to scent the name of sijunjung up to the national level in east Jakarta.

"Sir hendra ferry. Sports now?" Ask ida to us.

"Yes buk. We can minjam buk balls?" Aldi.

"Seek the same buk febi. Buk febi guru picket" buk ida replied.

I walked into the office. The buk febi stood up from his seat. Buk mutia and buk diana sat next to each other on the corner of the wall by the door. I greeted buk mutia with a smile. Buk mutia replied with a smile. There is happiness that the universe leaves when I see a smile buk mutia.

"Why mother smiles to herself" Aldi's laughter patted my shoulder.

The dimples from the smile buk mutia disappeared instantly. Buk mutia looked at aldi with a flat face. I smiled at his suddenly changed expression. Even when her face without expression buk mutia still looks beautiful to me. Or maybe I'm the one who's gone crazy for love. Until whatever shape buk mutia face will look beautiful by my eyes. Buk Diana laughed as the foyer shook her head to look at aldi.

"Turns of sports lessons only teachers are sought if they do not enter" said buk febi.

Me and Aldi just kept quiet. We followed the buk febi who walked towards the warehouse in the front corner of the office. Footsteps were heard running towards the office. Doris and Nofri entered the office with breathless breathing.

"One more ah... Sports hours exchanged the same MTK lessons" buk ida tried to joke.

Doris and nofri just laughed with flattering buk ida. Doris and Nofri are buk ida's favorite children in class. Doris and Nofri are good at math. They often become my competitors in math quizzes. In the math quiz, who first solves the problem will be rewarded with money by buk ida.

"Aldis. Aldi still has the same remedy mother" said buk de.

"Yes buk" Short said.

"Semester five, UH one, UH two. When to finish"

"Yes buk, immediately" replied aldi.

Buk de chattering about aldi. Buk ida observes the words buk de. Buk mutia and buk diana laughed happily to see aldi. Aldi chuckles at receiving revenge buk mutia and buk diana. The febi buk let us into the barn to get the ball. Aldi took the ball of the foot for us to bring the field.

"The real smart kid. But unfortunately he didn't care about his cleverness"

I heard buk ida say my name after coming out of the warehouse. Buk mutia looked at me long. We looked at her for a few seconds before she finally gave in and turned her face away.

"He only cares about his mischief" Buk Febi chimed in.

I just smiled kissed. Then run down towards the field. In front of the fourth tenth grade. Bojek and his other male friends were sitting outside their classroom. Ten-four get the idle hours after the break. We walked down the stairs in front of their class

"She, opponent?" Ask bojek to me.

"You're no match for me" my heart laughed.

"Say you're scared" said Bojek.

I just laughed while walking around. They're not my match. I am not as good as the runtuboys who can enter the Indonesian futsal national team. But I feel better than Bojek and his other friends.

"Our sparing's on?" Ask bojek to aldi who is walking behind me.

Aldi was heard discussing with bojek. I walked and played the ball on the ground. Doris and Nofri were also in discussions with them. Not long after that they walked up to me.

"You losers are left out" cried bojek from above.

I just kept quiet and laughed at the bojek. I don't want to accept the bojek challenge. But I feel weak with the abilities of my other friends. Doris, aldi, and nofri can only play futsal. While nando and ijep do not understand other than just kicking the opponent's basketball.

"The....Just accept their challenge" Doris suggested.

I nodded after aldi and nofri were also excited to accept their challenge. Bojek and his friends ran excitedly into the field. This afternoon's game starts with six against six. Our team wears sportswear while the bojek team wears a white-gray uniform.

"Thousand heads" said bojek pongah from his goal.

"Two thousand" I don't want to lose.

"Okay, who's afraid"

I kicked the ball up into the sky which signified the match had started. Nando and ijep who are less able to play ball become laughter in the game this afternoon. The game went well with games that attacked each other. Bojek shouted haughtily as my hard kick was again broken to become a goal. Tullo scored the second go five minutes apart with the first goal.

"Two blanks" said the proud tullo.

"You see now it's on the bank. Next time never underestimate us again" cried bojek from his goal.

I just laughed a little. I'm under their control. They only needed one more goal to seal their victory.

The match resumed. I dribbled the ball and passed some opponents by myself. But my opponent does have the same prowess as me. I am no longer surprised by the greatness of the children of the sibusuk field in playing futsal. They have trained themselves by playing in gor montela. I just play ball downstairs.

The goal was finally created with a hard kick from the middle of the field. Tambukku managed to make bojek die step. The score changed to 2-1. The match became fierce. Aldi as a goalkeeper desperately held back their attacks. Aldi passed the ball to me after he pulled a tullo shot. With neymar's skill I passed three opposing players. I'm dealing with bojek. I split the ball to Doris after the goal. Bojek was fooled and complained. Doris plays like a professional footballer. His arms were spread out like the wings of a plane. Doris swerving in the middle of the field with her celebrity. Buk mutia and buk diana chuckled at the celebration of Doris.

"Where's mom?" I asked buk mutia.

"Pak apin place. Come with me, ngak?" Buk mutia.

"Now. But payin yah" I joked

Buk mutia nodded and smiled. I also returned it with a smile. Then get back in the game. Buk mutia and buk diana walk into the canteen pak apin. The match was eventually won by Bojek and his friends. Me and aldi ran into the cafeteria, sir. Nando, ijep, nofri, and doris are held captive by bojek and his friends. They ask for the betting money as the winner.

Dikantin pak apin there is only buk mutia and buk diana. The two of them had just prepared breakfast with a dirty plate in front of them. Buk mutia smiled as me and aldi entered the canteen. I immediately ordered a cold drink to bik surti.

"Why did my mother smile herself from earlier" asked aldi.

I laughed at the expression of buk mutia. Buk mutia cute once with her pursed lips. Aldi sat in front of buk mutia. I sat next to Aldi. Buk mutia looked at aldi with a pouting face.

"Maybe. Buk mutia again happy in" Sahut buk diana looked at aldi and then looked at me.

"Happy why mom? To the extent of smiling to myself?" Aldi took off his sports clothes. Sweat flowed in the white.

"Serba is wrong ibuk same aldi nih. Wrong smile, angry also wrong" Sahut buk mutia.

"Why did I keep smiling. So I'm the same as Mr. fadlan?"

Buk mutia grew even more pouting with her frowning frown. I looked at buk mutia. Is buk mutia also close to mr fadlan? But I feel happy about the mutia buk that was upset by aldi.

"Aldi bang. Pay the bang" said junior walking into the canteen pak apin.

"This aldi has lost will not pay" Gurau doris behind adan.

I chuckled to see there was charging the stakes money. Aldi complained about taking the money in his pocket.

Adan left the canteen after receiving the money given aldi.

The junior just looked over and kept going. I laughed at my junior who ignored Doris' words. No one would dare to ask me for money betting. I was respected at school.

"Fear he asked the same time" said nofri.

"You're betting on tenth grade?" Ask buk mutia.

"Answer my question buk. Why are you happy?" Tanya aldi again made fun of buk mutia.

We laughed at aldi's words. Buk's face had begun to shine back sourly to see aldi. Doris and Nofri pamit walk into the local to change uniforms.

"Look, happy why mom. Abis meeting mom same mom's boyfriend?" Aldi urges buk mutia.

"What is this aldi. Strange" said buk mutia with her sweet face.

Aldi laughing. Doris and Nofri return to the canteen. I don't know why they don't change clothes. They ordered a cold drink to bik surti. And sit a chair behind me.

"Who's in Buk mutia soan? Same fadlan sir" I'm fishing to make sure.

"Yes, buk mutia again deket same pak fadlan" replied aldi sipped his drink.

I looked at buk mutia. His face looked annoyed and disliked.

"Aldi is a gossip. Where can aldi get such cheap gossip" asked buk mutia complaining.

"Sir fadlan himself said that he likes mother" Sahut aldi laughed and stood up from his seat.

"Don't that's the joke. Later if others hear how" complains buk mutia with a serious face.

"If so, what's wrong?" My speech.

Aldi agreed to my words and walked into the house of the fireman. We all laughed. Buk mutia put on a sour face looking at me. I smiled at buk mutia. Buk mutia took her eyes off me.

"But if Ade's girlfriend isn't gossip, is it?" My question is flirting.

Buk mutia exhaled a rough breath. His face was upset with my question. But I'd rather tease buk mutia.

"Where did you know your boyfriend's mother?" Buk mutia.

"From my mother's status" My voice is short.

"Iya ibuk has been dating her name ade. But we broke up three months ago" said buk mutia

"Keep why the status of mother is still his name? Still hoping?" My toot.

"New fish last night friends with mom at BBM. But already pretentious" said buk mutia with her face that remains manyun.

"Let's see it a month ago in front of the buk lab. Ibuk at that time again playing hp continues to be deliberately ngak see the status of ibuk with the name Ade Spd" I explained.

"See Doris the same nofri who has long been friends with mother in BBM" said buk mutia "Doris, is there a status of mother's name?" Ask buk mutia to doris.

Doris looked at me. I blinked my eyes so Doris would help me to upset buk mutia

"Yes there.. What is his name.... Forgetting" Sahut pretended to think.

I laughed at Doris's play. Buk mutia and buk dian also laughed. Doris also laughed at her own lies.

"Doris nih same as the bo'oongnya" said buk mutia leaned her purse against the wall of the chair.

"Emang yes... Mother who lied because it was dikan right" said Doris accused.

Buk mutia smiled and shook her head at Doris's behavior.

"Yes there is a tuh.. Aleksander ade if ngak wrong name buk mutia boyfriend" Nofri co-chimes.

The canteen laughed. Buk diana asked if doris and nofri were one village. I turned my eyes back to buk mutia. Buk mutia looked at me sharply. From the eyes of buk mutia I could see myself falling deeply. Doris and Nofri tell each other stories with buk diana. I was talking to buk mutia.

Buk mutia explained that ade was just the nickname of her ex-boyfriend. Nando has the full name akbar deliando. I asked buk mutia why her relationship could end. But buk mutia just smiled at me.

"Besoklah ibuk storyain" Sahut buk mutia "Oh yes, so because it was dikaren away from ibuk?" Buk mutia whispered.

"No ah... When was I going to do ngejauhin ibuk?" Sahutku awkward.

Buk mutia nodded her head and smiled. I felt the smile of buk mutia laughing at me. Buk mutia sensed that I stayed away from her because she already had a lover. I stood up and stepped near the door, sir. Doris and Nofri were arguing with buk diana about economics. Doris and Nofri are also good at accounting lessons.

Buk mutia was still smiling looking at me as I glanced at her. I felt myself very stiff this afternoon. Bell could be heard roaring for the turn of the clock. The lesson is still an hour away. We finally broke up from the office to change clothes. Buk mutia and buk diana are also seen standing to leave the canteen.

"Buk mutia who paid bik" said Doris porch running away from the canteen.

Buk mutia laughed at Doris. Nofri also runs after Doris after buk mutia is also willing to pay her.

"Their germs are buk" said aldi also weld

"Yes ibuk bayarin. How much is all the bik?" Buk mutia.

"It's good to be mother again. May the money get cheaper. Amiin" said aldi.

We laughed. Buk diana shook her head looking at aldi's attitude.

"That's how it wants to be" said buk mutia.

Aldi smile. Bik surti calculates the number of orders that buk mutia must pay. I stood behind buk mutia to pay my debt.

"When you pay mut" said buk diana.

"Oh yes, there was nothing before" asked buk mutia.

I shook my head "Let's be the one who pays for himself buk" My heart was not good.

"No papa. Let me just say it" replied buk mutia.

I shook my head. I'm not happy to be paid by buk mutia. After all buk mutia has paid my friends' debts. I have money to pay for my own groceries.

"So all eighteen thousand with dikan" said bik surti.

Buk mutia took twenty thousand out of his pocket. I was forced to give up and let buk mutia pay for my order today. I smiled at the good buk mutia.

"Cieee was embarrassed" said buk diana to disappoint me.

I just smiled and looked away from Diana's book. Aldi laughed at me who was embarrassed by the buk diana. Me and aldi stepped out to leave the canteen.

"Dikan" Call buk mutia.

"Yes" I stopped and turned.

"Dimuaro body there is no guarantee?" Ask buk mutia porch walking behind me.

"Well, why are you buk?"

"Yes" Buk mutia smiled "That means no trouble tomorrow if we marry" said buk mutia.

I laughed at the mutia buk. How dare buk mutia joke with such a death row. Buk mutia and buk diana strayed to the ground. While aldi and I chose straight to walk towards the local.

This afternoon I became convinced of my earlier prejudices. Buk mutia did not have the kind of feeling I felt towards her. His chatter this afternoon is proof that buk mutia just appreciates my feelings that admire him. Doesn't a woman have a very high ego if she falls in love? And I feel that buk mutia does not love me with her courage this afternoon.