Black Room

Not a real man

A real man is a man who can maintain his virginity for his future wife

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Interchange muaro bodi quite crowded on a week night. I sat in front of the qonita mart waiting for Annisa to meet me. After coming home from the field this afternoon, Annisa invited me to meet her to take off her longing. I burned my cigarette after buying a bottle of drink at the qonita mart.

We failed to reach the semi-finals and had to go home early. We lost to Padang Pariaman with a score of 2-1. Pariaman is too tough for us to beat. Throughout the game, we had difficulty withstanding pariaman field attacks. They are very disciplined and patient in attack. One goal was scored only through the penalty spot. After Rezi was dropped in the forbidden box.

The shophouses across look very crowded. In addition, there are also many solo meatball stalls. The street vendor is huddled in front of the post office. Not far from where I sit. People are busy getting in and out of the atm. Shortly after that Annisa came with her motor matic.

"Tok a bag?" My toot.

Annisa smiled and approached me.

"Annisa's out of studying?" Ask again.

"Make alesan let him go out of the house" said Annisa sitting opposite me.

I laughed knowing Annisa was lying so I could meet her. Annisa must not be allowed out the night by her mother. That's why he chose a reason to study.

"That's how it struggles" Nisa looked relaxed with her wild eyes.

"But tomorrow at school we can also meet"

"That's different" Sahut nisa looked me sharply in the eye "Nisa buy munum first" Her pamphlet walked into the qonita.

I stared at the busy nisa inside the qonita. I felt that feeling start to grow slowly. Annisa loves me so sincerely. Even when I upset and disappointed him. Annisa remained patient and forgave me. Annisa came out with a bottle of sprit and chitato.

"Yuk" Get Nisa standing in front of me.

"Where" I asked.

"Then where the hell" answered annisa ketus.

"Where are we going?" Tanyaku.

"Meng" Sahut annisa smiled.

I'm laughing a little. "Genit yes"

"Kangen" Annisa put on a lebai face.

We left the qonita mart and looked for a place to sit together. The motor continues to drive on the streets in the village. Annisa tells the story of the school victory in the Kabuhpaten-level DrumBand race and will race in January.

I deviated from the right side of the muaro bodi market. Football fields are a common place for young people to date. I took Annisa there too. On the field there are a pair of teenagers dating in the left corner. I parked the bike in the right corner of the field. Dark dominates when I turn off nisa's motor. I turned my body around until I sat facing Annisa on the bike.

"Ang a team is the same bang andika?" Ask annisa.

"Yes, she said what's the same nisa?" My leg is back to asking.

"At first she asked if nisa was my brother's girlfriend. After that he said that brother had a girl other than nisa. Nisa iya in aja. But after that he just admitted that he was in the same room brother in the field"

"Where do you know him?"

"On BBM"

"Long time I knew him"

"Just yesterday. When he said he was in the same room as brother"

"Bo'ong" I joked.

"No. Nisa wasn't lying"

"Don't believe. But dika says she knows nisa for a long time" I said teasingly.

Dika had said that once. He also said he was an ex-Anisa. But I know you're just joking around to make fun of me. And I also jokingly don't believe in nisa.

"No bo'oong kikan" Nisa said with her hands pursing my lips.

I took Annisa's hand and let her out of my mouth. I held annisa's hand. We talked about enjoying a moonless night. I began to dare say that I love Nisa. The feeling began to grow and bloom since a week ago.

"Again a vow" Annisa made sure that I loved her.

"Would an oath prove that my dear brother with annisa" Sahutku refused his request.

"Yes at least nisa can believe because of her sworn brother"

I laugh. It's just a swearing oath. This is not my first time dating. Swearing an oath will always be together. But finally a promise is only the way to a farewell.

"Did you love nisa?" Ask annisa again

"Honey. Too bad" I teased Nisa with a joke.

Annisa laughing. We love each other's hands. Annisa took my hand and wrapped it around her. I haven't had time to ask Annisa's been poking at my lips. Kissing Anisa feels warm until I return the kiss.

I feel the perfection of love. Annisa turned to kiss my nape. His hand rubbed my chest. I squirm for pleasure. The cold night air became warm with a touch of annisa on my body. We wrestle to celebrate love on the grass of the field.

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I live in an age where men and women make courtship synonymous with intimate relationships. Although not everyone who is dating will do that. But around me is a reflection where women are oppressed by sacrificing their dignity as a proof of affection. He said it was a powerful way to make a woman crazy. And I just felt what real love is.

Yeah, I just did it with Annisa. Anissa has managed to get my hands on the fight. I also did not expect, I could not resist when the touch of nisa was very pleasant to me. Happiness is accompanied by bitterness. My plow was taken by a woman who was no longer a virgin.

The piece disappears when Annisa admits that her virginity was taken away by her ex-boyfriend three years ago. His girlfriend's name is gio. I cursed in annoyance all the way after accompanying the scared nisa back home.

Annisa is very aggressive. She had even prepared a bottle of sprit and insto in order not to get pregnant. I just found out from Annisa that sprit and eye pain medication can also be used for safety. Annisa is experienced. It was as if she had been having sex repeatedly. And I don't know what victims I'm getting.

I regret what I did. But what is the use of regret in an event that has happened? I can only condemn myself who has denied my own principles. I am no longer a real man.

If I don't believe in principles. I must have had sex a long time ago. I have a principle that a real man is a man who can keep his virginity for his future wife. Therefore I as much as possible refrain from orgasm in myself. I could have made love with a hundred and fifty if I had not stood by my principles. However, annisa managed to get my virginity.

I opened the door of the house that had not been locked. Mom was standing there preparing something at the dinner table. My mother looked at me and was busy with her activities.

"Mommy's not asleep?" Ask me and lock the door.

"You want meatballs?" Bargain mother.

I nodded and approached my mother. Mother halved a portion of meatballs that she had just bought not far from home. Strayed four not far from my house, there are meatballs who often sell there.

"There's something you want to tell me" said the mother, bringing the plate in front of me.

"What?" I sat facing my mother.

Mom gave me a spoon. Mom's face is so bright. What mom will talk about. I started makapon meatballs.

"Will you divorce your father?" Say mommy porch take a drink.

I was silent for a moment. I want to divorce my father. Why can you say that now? It's because I always told my mom to get divorced.

"No. But sometimes giving up is the right decision" said the mother berakon her meatballs.

"Have you talked about it with Dad?"

"Your father agrees. And I'll take care of the paperwork as soon as possible"

I wonder why mom suddenly wanted to give up and get divorced. Wasn't yesterday mom so strong she didn't want to divorce her dad.

"You will know too. Buruan eaten meat. Cold hunt" said mom.

I wondered why my mother got divorced from my father. He was sure of his choice. Mom ate the meat slowly. His straight gaze described the pain.

"The heart is fickle. Like your father's heart which is no longer reserved for mother. What I can't understand is why your father left you after so many years of living together"

"Father cheated?" Ask surprised.

"You will know too. Now don't think about it. Just focus on your school"

I don't care about divorced mom and dad. I also think that's what's best for them. I do not want my mother to continue to be hurt by the attitude of the father who rarely supports his family. However, I will take revenge and hate on father if he does not wish mother.

"Mom will be happy if you can pass" said the mother and drank.

I just nodded. I finished the remaining meatballs in the bowl. Fuck the father. I'll try to make mom happy with graduation and good grades.

"Tumben you came home quickly" asked the mother to switch the topic.

"Hahh" I'm confused.

I just kept quiet and sipped a drink in a glass. A glass of water is lacking. I poured the kettle water into an empty glass.

"Usually a new morning comes home" said the mother.

"Isn't that what mom expected" I asked teasingly.

"Why is your neck red?"

I covered my neck with my hands. Shit, this must be the former kisdmark from annisa earlier. Was my neck red until my mother asked.

"Oh there was a bug biting" I answered lying.

"You don't lie to me" Mom smiled and stood up. "Mom was young too" she said

I just kept quiet without being able to say. There is shame in myself. Annisa is no longer a virgin. I felt the pain of remembering all the pleasure Annisa gave me. Suddenly the flower that would bloom for the annisa, died and felt withered instantly.

"Mom just ask you not to harm girls" advised the mother and passed into her room.

It's not me who's ruining mom's girl. But it's the girl who ruined your son ma'am.