Black Room

Happiest

To see you and hear your laughter is happiness. Happiness is perfect when I'm the reason why you laugh.

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Fear is a prejudice with two possibilities for it to happen or not. And that prejudice is a conscience so that we are more aware of ourselves. Like a sandro who is subdued with his fear and chooses to no longer be human in the dark. Like me who is not as brave as ipan and dori who managed to defeat their fear. Then live with instincts and thoughts that fight because of prejudice, it is not possible for dori and ipan to go to prison, with cases of betraying the country. But that's the best way. I'm standing at the intersection. I don't follow Sandro, I'm still gonna need marijuana in my day. But I was too afraid to be like dori and ipan. Freedom of the soul is at risk of suffering by being locked up in prison for years. I don't want my future to end there.

I farewell after finishing my mother's dish of soy sauce fried rice. Mom told me she'd be late this afternoon and be home by night. Mom showed me the house keys. I drove my bike slowly. No matter it's past the entry hours. The cold air forced me to drive my motorcycle at moderate speed. There are no lessons after the exam.

The canteen is crowded this morning. My arrival did not eliminate the noise of many voices. Nando pointed at me from the back room. Eleventh graders and a few man kids dominated the front room. While the back bench was occupied by my three friends who were accompanied by Doris and nofri.

Aldi and ijep immediately looked over. Aldi whispered something to Doris. I ordered cigarettes and hot tea. Tek Rida took out a pack of cigarettes in her magic bag. I took one stick and walked the back room. In the front room, left and right noisily the sound of chatter and laughter.

"Silver. Your boyfriend's looking for you?" Guraun aldi as good morning.

My three friends laughed. I also held back the laughter of hearing their throats.

"Yes dik, it was mutia nanya in loh" Doris said.

"Yes, let it be" My husband joked. Turn off their characters with a little arrogance. Nando and ijep laughing. In the back room there is also a zico and diki. Zico also laughed a little.

"Evening dori to the cave house" said zico

"Who?" I asked more clearly.

"Dori last night to the cave house. Numpang swept in the cave room. Maddened. Good thing there's no father to the cave mother." Zico

I'm nodding. Zico's story makes sense. And I'm not surprised anymore with dori. That's part of the marketing strategy. Zico could try and get addicted. Then become a dori permanent passien. Who's dori with?

"Sama bok yan---Rian Admanagara" replied zico "Lu all day with him right" accused zico.

"No" Refuted.

"Dori said it himself" Zico knew I was lying.

I smoke my cigarette. "Just yes" I answered the porch blowing thick smoke kezico. Beautiful smoke forms a circle in the air. I was upset by what Zico told me. Even though I knew he was just joking.

Zico nodded. Doris and Aldi were still laughing.

"If he doesn't believe me try deh lu lattin dor" Appoint aldi.

Doris reaches her blackberry in her uniform. "If you don't believe it" Doris said opening her fold blackberry.

"Said dori she's just your puppet. You're the mastermind that moved it" Zico said.

Damnit. What does zico mean? Doris showed me her phone right in my face. I saw a clear chat with mutia heriyenti "Again chat ngapin good morning. School nanyain nanyain loh dik. "Obviously doris.

"Yes, let it be" I said casually and sipped some hot tea in front of nando.

Mutia came to school today. This morning, via BBM. Good morning greetings with hope to see you at school.

Last night's call was still an oddity in the mind this morning. Mutia told me about ade last night. His ex is still chasing him. He kept telling long stories. Even if he asks me it's okay? But I said I'm sure I'm okay. It was his past, it should be his. So does my past. The pain made me wonder about the continuation of the story. Until I felt my heart being pricked by a needle when mutia told me about her first kiss. The needle was bloody jealous of the past that was still chasing mutia. Although never again ignored mutia because it has often been disappointed. But still, I feel insecure about the presence of someone who doesn't want to be his past.

Mutia also said that her parents had not given her permission to date. That's why I drove her Wednesday and then not to the front of the house. Only until the front sd 05.

"The most forbidding father. He said graduation first. Just thought it was dating. It's not just you. Two of my exes also never went to the house" Mutia explained last night.

"The same point is doris" said Nando.

They laugh. Doris shook her head "Fuck her boyfriend" Cetus Doris walked forward. Laughing is exploding. Zico and Diki also laughed.

"Sick for sure" asked aldi.

"Don't ask again. Shadow alone heart as if pierced thousands of needles" Gurau doris "Yuk lah pri" Doris invites nofri.

"Dihhh. But isn't his heart broken?"

"Not" Sahut "There is still a sintya buk" Guraunnya porch running.

"Well go play volleyball we laugh again" Invite nofri.

"Anything Clasmeeting" I asked.

"Vollyy and basketball"

"Who said?" Ask aldi.

"Joko said it" Sahut nofri. "Futsal race is no longer fined" complained nofri.

"Yes. Futsal replaced the same ball negligee" explained aldi.

"Tomorrow yes start" asked nofri "Tomorrow ball same negligent pillow fight" Nofri stood up from his seat. "Yes cave first dik, di, jep, ndo" Pamit nofri.

I'm nodding. The mood was silent for a moment.

"Wieh war pillow. Excited tomorrow tuh" Enthusiastic aldi broke the silence with laughter.

Talk about classmeeting. A few minutes later the canteen occupants began to leave the canteen. My three classmates and I walked into the school. The students were still wandering in front of their class. Members of the osis are seen preparing a speaker and table as a tool for the race in the basketball field. In front of the lab, someone called me my name.

"Consideration"

I looked back. Annisa. He stood up and approached me. In his hand was a book and a black jacket. Maybe he'll give it back to me.

"That's why I forgot my brother's jacket" said I approached.

Annisa gave the jacket to me "Have washed it" she said.

I kissed my jacket. Perfume paris fragrance smelled. Smelling "Kok still stinks" Gurauku.

"Hidung's brother is troubled times" Sahut nisa laughed. "Nih note pkn abg is ready" he said giving a brown-coated book.

"Thank you" I smiled. The task of recording my PKN lessons is ready thanks to nisa. In the eleventh grade, Mutia was standing beside the pole, she looked at me. I smiled at the mutia who seemed to be deliberately pecking at me from afar. Annisa looked towards mutia.

"Why rush it?"

"Later buk mutia was jealous" Annisa said with her lips holding back a laugh.

I'm shaking. "Not to think about it" I answered. Mutia turned her gaze when she knew I was looking at her. I smiled once again.

"Since when did you become the same buk mutia" asked nisa.

"A month after breaking up with nisa" I replied.

Nisa nodded. Below. Mutia was seen pointing at the class of eleven ips one. Sometimes he looks at me. I could have once kissed that mutia was holding back anger. But I'm happy to see his behavior. I'm just nothin' with Annisa anyway.

"Jude bang. Nisa kelokal first" Pamit annisa.

"Ohh, thank you again" I said

Annisa looked over and smiled. I walked into my local and put my bag on my desk. Locally, two lovebirds and aldi are arguing with Lola about the remedy. Everyone who witnessed their debate would be comforted by their chatter. I walked out of class. Nando. We sat in front of the ips class.

In the field, Joko as the head of the osis opened a clasmeeting event with words of greeting. The basketball race begins by bringing together the tenth grade two against ten one. And the volleyball match brought together the twelve class IPA one against the twelfth class IPS one (Classm).

My classmates ran towards the field. I walked with nando towards the field. I kept walking through the volleyball field. I want to see mutia. The woman who this week left me longing as a burden in my mind.

"Sir, where are you going?" Asked nando who was straying in the field of volly.

"Cantin sir apin" my heart kept going.

"Lu ngak come with me?" Ask Aldi who's playing volleyball.

"No. Continue" I answered without looking.

The local eleven. Mutia was seen walking on the corridor. I smiled from a distance. He put on a sour face. Must be jealous seeing me with Annisa earlier.

"Your son met his ex" said mutia who walked beside me.

I chuckled, "So jealous" I asked

"No. Why am I jealous" he said without looking at me. How could it not be jealous with such a sour face? Fucking chick. What's so hard to be honest.

"Yes, Annisa was returning the jacket that was borrowed yesterday" said "The same note pkn"

Canteen pak apin deserted. There's only bik surti there. He smiled warmly as we entered.

"Lontong one tek" Mutia's message.

"Yes wait a minute huh" Sahut bik surti "Dikan not?" Ask bik surti.

"No bik. I ate at home" I replied. "Bikinin frenta cola aja bik" My message.

Mutia looked out the window. The basketball game is about to start. I eat fried bakwan which is still warm. Mutia paled towards me. He looked at me coldly.

"Why do I keep seeing" he asked

"No. Just want to see it. I don't care" Sahutku keeps chewing bakwan.

"Yeah, kangen. I don't want to be the same as me. Just like Annisa there" he said staring out the window.

"Kok annisa anyway?" My protest.

"Just like you just released the kangens" he said looking at me with an angry face.

"It's just that the jacket is the same task. There's nothing either. You can't do it donk. The ex does not have to be an enemy" I said with an angry face.

"You asked her for help" mutia asked with a cold look on her face.

I grunt. Come onl. This is not something that should be a paranoia. "I asked for help when I was his girlfriend. Long time ago. And he's just coming back now. That's just. There's nothing" I explained.

"It has. It's been. Don't fight here" said bik surti by putting a plate of lontong in front of mutia.

"Tau nih bik dikan. Can't take care of people's feelings" he answered taking a spoon and fork.

My forehead wrinkled. Bik surti chuckles, "Makanya mutia do not expect too much as a man" said bik surti "If you are too hopeful the risk must be ready to be disappointed" Bik surti continued.

"Yes bik. All guys are the same" said mutia looking at me with a deliberately detained laugh.

I exhaled. Patience. Mutia's originally sour face is now back beaming. I prefer silence. He was joking. But, the jokes aren't funny.

"Big. There's a guy whining" Shouted mutia.

"What the hell" I complained.

"Cowok if the rambling means bencong" replied the surti bik from the door of his house.

Mutia laughed happily "You're a hunch"

"Yes yes I hate" My husband succumbed to the "Hunt eaten lontongnya"

"You don't eat"

"Suappin yes"

"Sama annisa just there" said mutia laughing again.

I scrunched my lips. Although I was annoyed by mutia carrying around the name of annisa. I am happy to hear him laugh. Further away. That happiness felt perfect because I was the reason mutia laughed.

Mutia and I talked about my memories. He told me to finish my remedy even though there were only two more lessons. After eating. We sat down and watched the race.

This afternoon, I drove mutia back home. But just like yesterday. I didn't drive him to the front of the house. Mutia says she can't date her mom and dad. A less plausible reason for me. But I just believe that mutia will not lie to me.