Black Room
Dreaming of impossibility
There is no wound in sincerity
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The moon is smiling outside the window. The light forms a circle with a white color in the dark sky. But only half of the moon's circle is visible from the bedroom window, while half is covered by dark clouds.
I sat in my foyer bed staring out the window. Tired and tired feeling gnawed at my body after a day of activity. I took marijuana out from under the bed. Then start rolling for doping tonight.
"Tinggg" Incoming BBM notifications.
I continued rolling without seeing my blackberry. I can already guess that's a reply from fiona. Fiona is having a hard time breaking up with her boyfriend. Fiona told me a lot about her relationship that ended two days ago. Fiona decides afdal because afdal's ex-boyfriend is still contacting afdal. Surprisingly fiona who ended the relationship, fiona also felt heavy. It is true that women have a higher ego than men.
I saw my Blackberry after I burned marijuana. Her ex-boyfriend Afdal is also a schoolgirl with fiona. Her name is raisha nadiva. Fiona decides afdal because fiona does not want to be hostile to raisha. Fiona also said that Raisha often judges her with words. That's why fiona decided afdal and chose to get hurt. However, I tried to comfort fiona with passion and words. What is destined for us will never belong to anyone else.
I grabbed my bag that was above the bopet. I remembered buk mutia after reading a message from fiona. I took out my Indonesian practice book and started invading buk mutia. Then suck my cuffs as deep as possible. The events before returning home from school were ringing in my head. The smile and small laughter of buk mutia became a powerful way to release fatigue from my body.
I started fantasizing about being a lover of buk mutia. I knew that all I thought about was wishful thinking. But I was too hard to stop my mind from working. It all feels so beautiful and fun. Despite the fact that outlines all of it is not necessarily going to happen. But I still do it to amuse myself.
15 Minutes passed. I check every minute of BBM notifications. But there has been no notification of buk mutia who has accepted my friendship. I had thought that buk mutia would reject my friendship. But I hurriedly cast out those evil thoughts. Patience first, maybe buk mutia is busy. Gumanku's.
Fiona sends a graceful song titled Dream to describe her feelings. I felt my heart at the song Fiona sent. I felt what Fiona was feeling. The pain will be painful when we have to let go so that someone we love can soon find happiness. The wound will be bitter when we know that sacrifice is what makes the heart broken. What is now happening in fiona, I felt three years ago when fiona changed partners. But one thing I understood after that incident. There will be no wound in sincerity.
Half an hour later. The name Mutia Heriyenti finally came out updated BBM. I was directly stalking photo profile buk mutia. I smiled at the photo buk mutia that was lined by the office corridor. The eyes of the panda buk mutia like it has the allure to keep looking at me. Smiles and dimples on both cheeks also managed to sedate me to continue staring at photo buk mutia. I'm ScreenShoot photo buk mutia to save it. Then start inviting buk mutia to chat in BBM.
The Alendra
"PING!!"
Mutia Heriyenti's
"PING!!"
I smiled at the reply of buk mutia who was so quick. I type with smiling lips.
The Alendra
"From that day I waited for ibuk"
"But new ibuk acc yes"
Mutia.
"Which is my mother?"
The Alendra
"From this afternoon, I've had meinvite ibuk again"
Mutia.
"Where is there"
"Request was just entered magrib earlier"
The Alendra
"Haha"
"It's beautiful that ibuk is photographed again"
Mutia Heriyenti's
"Ohh so it's really ugly"
The Alendra
"More beautiful original anyway 😁"
Mutia Heriyenti's
"Heeh dikan, dikan"
"Sleep again"
The Alendra
"Yes, this is going to sleep. Gd Night buk's"
I don't know what else to do with buk mutia. Buk mutia only saw a message from me. I started to lay myself on the bed. Marijuana makes me sleepy.
I don't know if buk mutia will return my feelings or not. I still hesitate to tell you my true feelings. When I feel the attitude of openness buk mutia is only limited to appreciating my feelings that admire it. Ah, I don't know. I don't want to think about any of that. Anyways. My goal is to have him pin buk mutia just want to be friends with him. Although I really hope to be able to be the boyfriend of buk mutia. But I was too cowardly to try. There was a sense of awkwardness that made me not dare to take that possibility. And I finally put myself in and just live what was outlined for me.
I opened my twitter and posted a photo of buk mutia. "Lord, this is what I want" I wrote on Twitter. Tonight I feel happy to be able to reply with buk mutia. I also slept faster than usual.
