Black Room

Happiest

To see you and hear your laughter is happiness. Happiness is perfect when I'm the reason why you laugh.

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Fear is a prejudice to protect yourself from the fears that may occur. Like a sandro who is subject to fear so that his life is free from all accusations and terror. Like me who chooses not to be like an ipan or dori who is at risk of living in prison. I don't want my future to end there.

However, I also can not escape from the drug trap. Even if that fear had built up inside me, I remained an active drug user. Even though I knew that the black world was a false pleasure, I was still unable to defeat my own selfishness. I've been pressuring myself to change and stop being human in the dark. However, a person who is addicted to drugs takes time and a process to stop. So with that, for those readers who have never tried drugs. For those of you who are still innocent. Never think that drugs are the right escape place for all to go wrong. Because it's just a distraction to the abyss of heresy. Logically, you'll only add to the problem. Become a fugitive with a case of betraying the country.

Don'tdon't. If you don't want to be shot dead. Hahaha of course I can't be shot dead. I'm just like a rat in a black room. Do not be overly prejudiced. Super paranoid.

I farewell after finishing my mother's dish of soy sauce fried rice. Mom told me she'd be late this afternoon and be home by night. Mom showed me the key to the house later if I was a repairman. As usual, I put the key under my foot. I drove my bike slowly after mom smiled proudly.

No matter it's past the entry hours. The cold air forced me to drive my motorcycle at moderate speed. There are no lessons after the exam. I didn't get a deadline to get to school.

The canteen is crowded this morning. My arrival did not eliminate the noise of many voices. Nando pointed at me from the back room. Eleventh graders and a few man kids dominated the front room. While the back bench was occupied by my three friends who were accompanied by Doris and nofri.

Aldi and ijep immediately looked over. Aldi whispered something to Doris. I ordered cigarettes and hot tea. Tek Rida took out a pack of cigarettes in her magic bag. I took one stick and walked the back room. In the front room, left and right noisily the sound of chatter and laughter.

"Silver. Buk mutia looking?" Guraun aldi as good morning.

My three friends laughed. I also held back the laughter of hearing their throats. Zico and aldi laughed in surprise at me.

"Yes dik, it was mutia nanya in loh" Doris said.

"Yes, let it be" My husband joked. Turn off their characters with a little arrogance. Nando and ijep laughing. The back room was also joined. Diki whispered to zico.

"It's rumored selfie thread with buk mutia yes" said Doris.

My friends laughed at once. I was annoyed by their tearing. But how can I be angry? They're just kidding. I also posted a photo of myself with mutia. Don't say love, if you don't dare to approach. The caption is mutia twitter status before being with me.

"Young teacher's boyfriend..."

"What's up" I complained about cutting aldi's talk.

Laughter began to break. Aldi is the most chuckling. Zico and Arga also laughed.

"Evening dori to the cave house" said zico

"Who?" I asked more clearly.

"Dori last night to the cave house" Zico said

"Oohh" Sahutku's. Zico is a native of the sibusuk field. I've known Zico since I was in tenth grade. The tall white man was a graduate of SMP three.

"Lu know what he's doing" asked zico.

I just kept quiet. I don't want to hear what Zico said. The people in the front room were still rumbling with laughter and chattering. The atmosphere in the back room was silent for a moment.

"Crazy. He was riding in a cave room" Zico said

I just laughed a little. Zico laughed considering his astonishment towards dori. Aldi and Doris looked at me. Maybe they asked about zico's intentions.

"It's a good thing there's no father in the cave" Zico said

I just nodded with a small laugh. I hope the chat about dori passes soon. And I'm not surprised anymore with dori. That's part of the marketing strategy. Zico could try and get addicted. Then become a dori permanent passien.

"Dori sama bok yan---Rian Admanagara" said zico "Lu all day with him right" accused zico.

I shook my head in the air. Bodo time with whom dori. I don't want to hear more about Zico. My name is still good around my friends. Only Nando knows about my identity as a human in the dark.

"Dori said it himself"

I can no longer argue. I smoke my cigarette.

"Just yes" Revealed me.

Zico nodded. Doris and Aldi were still laughing.

"If he doesn't believe me try deh lu lattin dor" Appoint aldi.

Doris reaches her blackberry in her uniform. I laugh in a shudder. I'd rather be bullied by my best friend than talk to Zico. But I understand zico didn't mean to piss me off.

"Said dori she's just your puppet. You're the mastermind that moved it" Zico said.

Damnit. What does zico mean? Doris showed me her phone right in my face. I saw clearly the chat with mutia heriyenti.

Dori also chatted a lot with mutia. Doris also has a long chat history. And dori was shocked when she saw my name was distatus mutia.

"Run tikung" said aldi laughing.

"Lose at the end" said Doris.

The back canteen was full of laughter. I just laughed a little. Zico and Diki move into the school environment. The teacher's voice had already begun to sound chanting from the field. Students may be lining up on the ground.

Mutia came to school today. This morning, via BBM. Good morning greetings with hope to see you at school. I'm getting closer to mutia. Maybe because I love mutia too. I feel very happy days. Last night's call was still an oddity in the mind this morning. Mutia told me about ade last night. His ex is still chasing him. He kept telling long stories. Even if he asks me it's okay? But I said I'm sure I'm okay. It was his past, it should be his. So does my past. The pain made me wonder about the continuation of the story. Until I felt my heart being pricked by a needle when mutia told me about her first kiss. The needle was bloody jealous of the past that was still chasing mutia. Although never again ignored mutia because it has often been disappointed. But still, I feel insecure about the presence of someone who doesn't want to be his past.

Mutia also said that her parents had not given her permission to date. That's why I drove her Wednesday and then not to the front of the house. Only until the front sd 05. Mutia's father was the most forbidding. Her father is very sensitive if a boy friend comes to see mutia. She said mutia had to graduate first. Her father doesn't want mutia's college to fall apart just because of romance.

"The same point is doris" said Nando.

They laugh. Doris shook her head "Fuck her boyfriend" Cetus Doris walked forward. Laughing is exploding. Zico and Diki also laughed.

"Sick for sure" asked aldi.

"Don't ask again. Shadow alone heart as if pierced thousands of needles" Gurau doris "Yuk lah pri" Doris invites nofri.

"Dihhh. But isn't his heart broken?"

"Not" Sahut "There is still a sintya buk" Guraunnya porch running.

"Well go play volleyball we laugh again" Invite nofri.

"Anything Clasmeeting" I asked.

"Vollyy and basketball"

"Who said?" Ask aldi.

"Joko said it" Sahut nofri. "Futsal race is no longer fined" complained nofri.

"Yes. Futsal replaced the same ball negligee" explained aldi.

"Tomorrow yes start" asked nofri "Tomorrow ball same negligent pillow fight" Nofri stood up from his seat. "Yes cave first dik, di, jep, ndo" Pamit nofri.

I'm nodding. The mood was silent for a moment.

"Wieh war pillow. Excited tomorrow tuh" Enthusiastic aldi broke the silence with laughter.

Talk about classmeeting. A few minutes later the canteen occupants began to leave the canteen. My three classmates and I walked into the school. The students were still wandering in front of their class. The members of the osis were seen pulling over the tool before starting the race on the basketball court. In front of the lab, someone called me my name.

"Consideration"

"Bag until you forget that your brother's jacket is the same as nisa" said I approached.

Annisa gave the jacket to me "Have washed it" she said.

I kissed my jacket. Perfume paris fragrance smelled. Smelling "Kok still stinks" Gurauku.

"Hidung's brother is troubled times" Sahut nisa laughed. "Nih note pkn abg is ready" he said giving a brown-coated book.

"Thank you" I smiled. The task of recording my PKN lessons is ready thanks to nisa. In the eleventh grade, Mutia was standing beside the pole, she looked at me. I smiled at the mutia who seemed to be deliberately pecking at me from afar. Annisa looked towards mutia.

"Jude bang. Nisa pamit first?" Pamit nisa's.

"Why rush it?"

"Later buk mutia was jealous" Annisa said with her lips holding back a laugh.

I laughed too. Mutia turned her gaze when she knew I was looking at her. I smiled once again.

"Since when did you become the same buk mutia" Tanya nisa was walking.

"A month after breaking up with nisa" I replied.

Nisa nodded and walked back around. Below. Mutia was seen pointing at the class of eleven ips one. Sometimes he looks at me. I could have once kissed that mutia was holding back anger. But I'm happy to see his behavior. I'm just nothin' with Annisa anyway.

I walked into my local and put my bag on my desk. Locally, two lovebirds and aldi are arguing with Lola about the remedy. Everyone who witnessed their debate would be comforted by their chatter. Lola was the queen of alay at school. Anyone who argued with him would be upset. I walked out of class. Nando. We sat in front of the ips class.

In the field, Joko as the head of the osis opened a clasmeeting event with words of greeting. The basketball race begins by bringing together the tenth grade two against ten one. And the volleyball match brought together the twelve class IPA one against the twelfth class IPS one (Kelasku).

My classmates ran towards the field. Doris ran from lola. Lola cursed upset because she could not catch up quickly doris. Some people laughed at the lola curse from the local doorstep. I walked with nando towards the field. Aldi, ijep, doris is seen getting ready in the field of volly. The game in one team is filled with three men and three women. In a basketball game, three men and two women play on one team.

I kept walking through the volleyball field. I want to see mutia. The woman who this week left me longing as a burden in my mind.

"Sir, where are you going?" Asked nando who was straying in the field of volly.

"Cantin sir apin" my heart kept going.

"Lu ngak come with me?" Ask Aldi who's playing volleyball.

"No. Continue" I answered without looking.

The local eleven. Mutia was seen walking on the corridor. I smiled from a distance. He put on a sour face. Must be jealous seeing me with Annisa earlier.

"Happy abis met the ex" said mutia who walked beside me

I chuckled, "So jealous" I asked

"No. Why am I jealous" he said without looking at me. How could it not be jealous with such a sour face? Fucking chick. What's so hard to be honest.

"Yes, Annisa was returning the jacket that was borrowed yesterday" said "The same note pkn"

Canteen pak apin deserted. There's only bik surti there. He smiled warmly as we entered.

"I ngak nanya" Sahut mutia

I laughed at his sinisterity. Mutia sat back against the window.

"Lontong one tek" Mutia's message.

"I'm a promotion" I teased and sat in front of him

"Hhh buk mutia. What message was that" asked bik surti

"Lontong plate bik" mutia said

"Without?" Ask bik surti

"No bik. I ate at home" I replied. "Bikinin frenta cola aja bik" My message.

Mutia looked out the window. The basketball game is about to start. I eat fried bakwan which is still warm. Mutia paled towards me. He looked at me coldly.

"Why do I keep seeing" he asked

"No. Just want to see it. I don't care" Sahutku keeps chewing bakwan.

"Yeah, kangen. I don't want to be the same as me. Just like Annisa there" he said staring out the window.

"Kok annisa anyway?" My protest.

"Just like you just released the kangens" he said looking at me with an angry face.

"It's just that the jacket is the same task. There's nothing either. You can't do it donk. The ex does not have to be an enemy" I said with an angry face.

"You asked her for help" mutia asked with a cold look on her face.

I grunt. Come onl. This is not something that should be a paranoia. "I asked for help when I was his girlfriend. Long time ago. And he's just coming back now. That's just. There's nothing" I explained.

"It has. It's been. Don't fight here" said bik surti by putting a plate of lontong in front of mutia.

"Tau nih bik dikan. Can't take care of people's feelings" he answered taking a spoon and fork.

My forehead wrinkled. Bik surti chuckles, "Makanya mutia do not expect too much as a man" said bik surti "If you are too hopeful the risk must be ready to be disappointed" Bik surti continued.

"Yes bik. All guys are the same" said mutia looking at me with a deliberately detained laugh.

I exhaled. Patience. Mutia's originally sour face is now back beaming. I prefer silence. He was joking. But, the jokes aren't funny.

"Big. There's a guy whining" Shouted mutia.

"What the hell" I complained.

"Cowok if the rambling means bencong" replied the surti bik from the door of his house.

Mutia laughed happily "You're a hunch"

"Yes yes I hate" My husband succumbed to the "Hunt eaten lontongnya"

"You don't eat"

"Suappin yes"

"Sama annisa just there" said mutia laughing again.

I just laughed a little. I felt happy to see Mutia laughing. Further away. Happiness is perfect if I'm the reason for laughing.

Mutia and I talked about my memories. He told me to finish my remedies even if there were only two more lessons left. After eating. We sat down and watched the race. All three of my best friends managed to quench the volleyball race and continue to kebabak next. But finally the volleyball race was won by the class of eleven ips one and the basketball race was won by the class of ten two.

This afternoon, I drove mutia back home. But just like yesterday. I didn't drive him to the front of the house. Although the reason mutia should not be dating makes less sense to me. But I just believe that mutia will not lie to me.