Tidying Up Asa, Inviting Hidayah

114. Disappointed 2

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Toilets are the most appropriate destination to avoid, pull over for a moment to just throw away the unpleasant taste. I exhaled repeatedly, unraveling the tightness and neutralizing the choking throat. My hiccups are gone, but my throat still doesn't taste good. I took off the hijab hook, hoping it could be a little soothing to breathing. I take water to wash my face, remove the remaining tears and sweat. I wish I could feel my freshness and my face doesn't look wrinkled.

Satisfied with calming down in the toilet, I went out after fixing the hijab and clothes to look neat. I exhaled once more before stepping back to where I left Aina and the others. Realizing that the face was still wet, I looked for tissue, but I did not find the item after rummaging through the contents of the bag. I guessed a wet face with my palm, hoping to dry it a little.

I was about to step up, but I stopped when I found one hand outstretched right in front. A handkerchief hung between the fingers, making me tilt my head to find out who the owner is. How surprised I was, when Pak Hara emerged from behind the wall.

“Still clean, use to wipe your wet face!” his orders.

I said, taking a handkerchief and saying thank you. The man leaned against the wall of the toilet hall. There is a divider partition between the toilet and the main room of the cafe, minimizing the view from the main room to the toilet area.

“The event is done, you want to go home directly?” ask Mr. Hara. Unreadable was his facial expression, as he said the sentence in a flat tone.

I'm nodding. Returns the handkerchief to him, which is received and directly put into the pocket of the shirt.

“Bone me!” I don't think it's a question or a statement, but a command that should not be disputed. Who was he, how dare he give such a strict order.

“Sorry, but I came with Brother Lion and Aina. So I also have to go home with them.” I replied as it passed. Reluctant to respond, after seeing his attitude during this tasyakuran event. Sucks.

I heard a rough gasp of breath coming out of Mr. Hara's nose. Then the sentence pitched satire that said from his mouth, “Oh! So since there's someone else, don't need me anymore?”

I frowned, what did that saying mean? Wanted to confirm, but dropped out because I didn't want to argue. I decided to just leave, rather than getting hurt because I did not know what Mr. Hara meant.

“You don't feel guilty, Jen? At least don't you want to apologize to me?” the innuendo question made me stop and look towards Pak Hara.

“Why should I apologize to you?” I don't feel guilty for him.

Mr. Hara was heard sighing deeply, then walked a few steps closer to me.

“I am waiting for news from you, deliberately going home once afternoon because waiting for you, good time you need a ride to come here. It turns out you are comfortable with others.” said Mr. Hara.

Not yet I can digest the sentence that Mr. Hara said, the cold man has continued, “Is he more considerate of you, Jen? Does he know what you like, dislike, and even make you uncomfortable? Maybe he understands you better and can protect you than me. So you'd rather have her delivered, than me. Though I have been offering since a few days ago.”

“Pak Hara said what, anyway? I don't understand.” I'm seriously confused by his words.

“Other times do not try to give hope to me, if you finally ask to be picked up with him.” Mr. Hara pointed towards the main room with his chin, from the gap of the partition it seemed that Brother Lion came to us.

I didn't even have time to open my mouth, because Mr. Hara hurriedly left. He stopped right in front of Brother Lion who was only about two meters away with me.

“Come, we go home, Jen!” bring Brother Lion.

I fixed the bag strap, then went to approach Brother Lion. Actually I don't want to go home with him, but it's night time I can't go home alone. Ask Mr. Hara to drop off as well, because he seems to be angry. Aina didn't bring a bike either, so I had no choice but to go home with Brother Lion.

“Go home, no need to stop by!” cetus Pak Hara without looking.

“Pak Hara take it easy, I will drive Jenar safely to his house.” Lion said full of confidence.

“It is precisely because he is the same you, I am not calm.” said Mr. Hara with a firm tone while passing by.

Mr. Hara's departure makes the memory in my brain work to remember something. Fill our conversation in the phone this morning, and I promised to give it up if I wanted to be picked up. If until the afternoon I don't give the news it means not to come. What a lamenting sloppiness, you forgetful!

I quickly caught up with Mr. Hara. Until he had to pull the tip of the shirt he was wearing, because he did not also stop the step.

“I'm sorry, you must be very angry with me.” I said when finally Mr. Hara stopped and turned his head.

I thought he was going to answer my apology, apparently not. Because it is precisely another sentence that is said, “Take care of yourself! Because I can't take care of you.” after that he passed without turning his head again.

Aina approached me who was still dumbfounded with Hara's attitude. My best friend whispered, “You had a fight with Mr Hara?”

I shook my head, “She misunderstood me, because I didn't tell her I wanted to come here.”

“Pak Hara must be very disappointed. You did not tell him, instead came with Brother Lion. She must have thought you were making a pact with Brother Lion," Aina gave a short lecture, whereas I could only be silent about the mistake.

“We just go home, Na.” my mood has been very bad, it is impossible to continue to be in this place any longer.

“Eh, wait! Mas Akbar invited us to pray together before going home, I found you to tell it.” said Aina.

Although actually want to go home soon, but rejecting the good invitation from a good person is not wise. I participated in the congregation prayer’ah with all the guests who came, except Mr. Hara of course. Still spinning in my mind, how to get that guy to stop being mad at me. Tortured to get a shitty attitude from Mr. Hara, because of my mistake.

“I think Mr. Hara likes you, Deh, Jen.” muttered Aina slowly, but it sounded very clear in my ears when we were about to leave the cafe.

My mind repeated the memory since close to Mr. Hara, is it possible that Aina's words were true? If so, how? I must behave like what, because it is not denied if I also admire him. Although I know, it is not appropriate for this feeling to grow in the heart. For we are two different beings, unworthy of union.

Uh! That, right, was only Aina's estimate. Why am I thinking about the no-no.

No talk after that. I didn't even dare to approach Mr. Hara just to say goodbye. Highlight the eyes full of disappointment, a flat facial expression, adding a haughty aura to him. I'm not afraid, it's just crowded to get such an attitude from people I've been bothering a lot lately.

“Jen, Gus Hafidz send message. He said you were asked to tell Mr. Hara when he reached home.”, Aina said as we were on our way home in a car driven by Lion.

Why use Gus Hafidz as a tool, can't he talk to me himself? Could it be because it was too disappointed to cause him to be reluctant to contact me directly? Tightness in the chest increasingly felt, radiating to each joint. It hurt a lot, but there were no visible wounds.

Ah, Mr. Hara ... Why was he acting so cold again after paying so much attention lately.

Na, I'm really hurt just because I was harassed by Mr. Hara, huh?

I sent a short message to Aina, there is no way I can speak directly because there is Brother Lion among us. It was no longer able to bear disappointment, found Mr. Hara's attitude was not pleasant to me, but familiar to others.

At a time like this, I would like her to catch up, or at least send a message so I can explain everything.

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Connect ....

Well, misunderstand me again, right? Indeed these two humans can not stop misunderstanding😁. Next, kira2 they can be better, right?

Wait, yeah. Another week😁