The Mist In Arumi's Heart

Pamite

Arumi rested her head spoiled on Edgar's shoulders, while the man still hugged her from behind so affectionately. Every now and then, he swiped his nose against the girl's cheeks with a slight cringe.

There were a lot of warm and relaxed conversations between the two of them. All that is seen from the attitude of Arumi who often laughs widely, when he heard what Edgar said to him. I don't know what jokes Edgar is giving to Arumi, because not infrequently he also smiled widely.

For a moment, Edgar forgot all about the problems that were happening to him. He just wanted to enjoy the beautiful night. His last night with Arumi.

Tomorrow he will return to France and may only return for a long time, until he really finished all his business in the land of the Eiffel Tower.

Edgar still placed his chin on Arumi's right shoulder so comfortably. The night did not feel cold at all for the two, although the wind blew quite hard.

Arumi occasionally glanced at the man while laughing spoiled. Edgar had greatly comforted him. This was even more fun when compared to his holiday event yesterday..

Sometimes Edgar also feeds Arumi with potato chips that the girl is holding.

“May I know one of your biggest secrets?” Arumi asked, glancing back at Edgar and feeding him with potato chips.

"What secret? I have none at all" replied Edgar very calmly.

Arumi frowned. He was not sure of Edgar's answer. “I can't believe it. Everyone must have a secret that is completely kept secret from the people around him. What's more a man, usually they have more secrets when compared to women,” said Arumi.

“Wah .. very good observation, Arum,” Edgar satirized with a smile that began to be overwhelmed with anxiety. He seemed to have known if Arumi would definitely ask her all sorts of questions.

Arumi looked straight ahead. The dark susasana did not make him uninterested in enjoying the beauty of the night. While Edgar still held her from behind, looked after her, and made Arumi feel safe. Every now and then the man gently kissed Arumi's shoulder.

“I love the smell of your parfume, Arum,” whispered Edgar. Her heavy and deep voice sounded so soft as well as warm in Arumi's ears.

Arumi glanced at the face of Edgar who was right next to her. He let the man place his chin, which was covered in fine feathers, comfortably on his shoulders. Edgar returned the girl's glance softly.

“I love you, Arum,” Edgar said in half a whisper. His hands were playing around Arumi's neck who was looking back at him. Again, Edgar attached his forehead to Arumi's forehead. The girl closed her eyes. 

“Did you ever love me too?” Whisper Edgar again.

“I think ... yes,” replied Arumi slowly.

“Can you present that flavor again for me?” Ask Edgar again with great expectation.

Arumi remained silent. He is trying to bring back all the flavors that once existed for Edgar. It was quite a taste he had, before he finally gave it all to Moedya. Arumi only hopes that Edgar can understand that he needs time to be able to convince his heart more. Arumi no longer wants to get caught up in feelings that will only cause an inner torment for her.

“Are you aware, Arum? You are a very selfish woman. You hope to always be understood, without caring and understanding what others feel. Yes ... Call it another person named Edgar Hilaire.”

“Am I that bad?”

“No! That's not a crime. Maybe, because sometimes I feel tired. I want to give up and end all my struggles. I want to go back to France and never set foot in Indonesia again,” Edgar said. His tone sounded very sad.

Although the atmosphere was so dim and could even be said to be dark, but the man's smile still looked so bright and beat the light of five candles that became a light for both of them.

“You'll be back, right?” Ask Arumi. There was a gurat of uneasiness on his face that looked filled with an erratic sense.

“Do you want me to come back?” Edgar asked back.

Arumi was silent again. He was still staring at the handsome man with a million charms, with his eyes beginning to glaze over. “I'm trying, Ed! I'm trying to re-discover you in all the shadows about Moedya. Until now, I am still confused about what I am feeling? What do I want?”

“What does that man have that I don't have, Arum? What makes you so heavy to take it off?”

Arumi covered her face with her palm. The girl was crying. Of course, Edgar did not like such a thing. He would never have the heart to see Arumi shed her tears.

Arumi's body is so tight. “I'm sorry, Arum. I didn't mean to make you cry at all, ” said Edgar.

“I cry for myself, Ed,” Arumi said. “You were my first boyfriend. I was once very interested in the charisma and good looks you have. I loved you too. However, it felt very different when I met Moedya. I felt something else that was not the same, a strange desire .. Everything felt new to me. I assume that it was first love. An experience that feels so ...” Arumi was unable to continue his words. The crying did not stop either. The girl looked more and more in pain.

“I have trouble forgetting..I am helpless, Ed,” Arumi again shed her tears in Edgar's arms.

“I don't want to rush to you. I'll do it slowly, but I assure you that I'll make a move. I won't just stand by and let fate play me. I will definitely step up, but for now .. I need something to be able to support me so that I can stand up straight. If I can stand up straight, then I will definitely run straight away, without caring even if I don't wear footwear, because I know ... you'll lend me your leg.”

Edgar tightened his embrace. He could already understand what was in Arumi's heart right now. “I will always be waiting for you to run towards me. When that happens, then I'll never let you go again, Arum. I made enough mistakes. I will not repeat it again,” Edgar said with great confidence.

The night is getting late. They both decided to go home. During the trip, Arumi did not talk much. He was swept away in his own daydream and finally fell asleep.

Edgar glanced at him occasionally. This was the third time he had seen Arumi's face while sleeping like that. The love in his heart was growing.

Not long after, finally the car that Edgar drove entered the courtyard of Arumi's luxury home. This time, Edgar had to wake the girl.

“Arum, wake up!” Edgar patted Arumi's cheek gently. Slowly Arumi opened her eyes. Edgar smiled then. “We have arrived,” said the man again.

Arumi rubbed her eyes slowly. He looked around him. His gaze again ended on the beautiful face that was still watching him since earlier.

“Is my car very comfortable, so you sleep so well?” Canda Edgar's. Arumi only responded with a smile.

A moment later, Edgar grabbed Arumi's fingers and held them tightly. “I'll leave tomorrow with a morning flight. I won't ask you to take me to the airport. I will only ask you to pray for me, so that I may be given the patience to travel for approximately seventeen hours. Pray that I don't think about you every second, because there are a lot of other things that I have to think about there. However, I will pray instead, so that you keep thinking of me .... at all times,” Edgar closed with a warm smile on his face.