The Malang Widow

Headstone for Deri

"Who does Shanum mean Flowers?". Asked Deri who had been holding back curiosity ever since.

"You knew him...". My heart with a heavy heart.

"Who? Our buddy?".

"Dad... He's our friend... As well as your former bedmate...". I answered with a face that started to turn red.

"You mean Lani??". Teri asked with a surprised face.

"Yes, he's Lani..."

"What is he sick of? Why is it treated here?". Said Deri with grimacing lips to endure the pain in some parts of his body.

"His regime flipped out and got cancer...".

"Subhanallah.... So this scent??".

"Dad... It's coming from the pain...".

Deri let out a long sigh with her face staring towards the ceiling. His eyes looked as if he was thinking about something.

"Permy... Abi came out blood...!!". Umar's panicked cry saw fresh blood flowing from Deri's nose and ears.

For a moment his eyes seemed closed. His breath began to sting marked tightness. From his mouth he finally let out so much fresh blood.

"Hurry and call the nurse's aunt outside Uwais...!!". My cry in panic. Immediately I caress some parts of his body that let out that fresh blood. I put an oxygen hose in his nostrils.

The nurses begin to scatter towards Deri and help with first aid for Deri. But fresh blood kept coming out of the ear hole and growing.

"Call the doctor cepetan...!!". My love started to panic and was terrified by Deri's condition.

The doctor came to check on Deri.

"It looks like there was bleeding in his brain that yesterday was blocked, but this time his veins have ruptured, we quickly refer to the big hospital for surgery....!!". The doctor told us. With attitude we also prepare the referral.

At once we put Deri into an ambulance that was ready in front of the ER room.

"Pulse... We're coming...!!!". My eldest son was about to get into the ambulance.

"Don't kid, you guys will follow...". I'm trying to prevent.

"Umi I beg you to let us come... Do not let if something happens the same abi we do not know... We want to be next to Abi um... Please don't stop us...". Uwais said pleading with her tears beginning to flow.

I also could not see the anxiety of their faces. Those who have just touched Deri, must now experience the shock of the condition of Deri who do not know the clarity of whether to improve, or will even leave forever.

I finally let them get in the ambulance with me. We sat next to Deri, who was lying with blood pouring out of her ears. His breathing continued to sting during the trip. And now his face began to turn pale, his lips turned blue.

Uwis grabbed Deri's fingers full of the scratches.

"Pulse... Abi's hands are cold...". Saying a voice with a panicked face.

"Umar and Shanum keep praying... Don't get disconnected... Abi really needs your prayers...". I said with my eyes that were beginning to pour water.

"Yes um...". Those who then put their hands together express prayers in their hearts.

Deri's lips moved, as if reciting a sentence that Uwais was leading in a limp, but could no longer speak.

Instantly he seemed to take a breath so long and stopped for a few seconds to be able to pull it back. His chest jutted inward highlighting his ribs which some of his pieces had broken.

Again he took a long breath, then exhaled again. But that time was the last, after which Deri no longer breathed and no longer moved a bit from his limbs.

His eyes were tightly closed and his face no longer looked reddish. His body began to pale. Uwais who was tearing him down also felt his body so cold.

I tried to close my fingers under her nostrils, but there was no longer any warmth. As soon as I reached for the pulse on her wrist, there was no more throbbing.

"Innalillahi wainnalillahi roojiun...". Said me instantly with a sobbing tone.

"Pig... Abi...Abi...!!!". The cry of those who then hugged the body of Deri as if trying to wake him up again.

I can no longer hold back my tears. My tears broke with her now forever departure.

"Patience to you, son... Don't be so wailing... Let Abi rest easy...". My words were then hugging Shanum who was sitting right next to me. I tried to be strong in front of them, so that their hearts were not so chaotic to let go of the departure of Deri.

"Well... We just met abi... But why now abi instead go forever umi...?". Said Shanum in a hoarse tone due to sobbing.

"Prophey, baby... We all have to be sincere... This is God's destiny... You can be sad... But don't wail... If you lament, kasian abi, then he can be tortured as an angel....". I told them to calm down.

Finally, the four of us hugged each other and soberly sobbed. A moment later my three children kissed his forehead in turns before I closed a white cloth all over him.

After they kissed Deri's forehead, I kissed them one by one.

Then I took my salary, I typed a message for Ferdi to report this sad news.

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"Pulse... Yesterday Uwais ustad at school gave PR to make tombstones. The goal is that we always remember the same death... And now this gravestone of my creation I'm going to put it on top of the abi navel...". The words of Uwais who thrust a block of tombstone when the coffin of Deri was about to be sent to the grave.

I looked at him and nodded in agreement. Then we started to step up to the coffin where Deri was inside.

After the ground on the pit was finished mound, Uwais also put the tombstone on it. Then hugged him for a moment to let go of his ashes.

We all stood before Deri's grave before we stepped out. Ferdi was also seen sobbing beside us.

"He's gone... My best friend is gone forever...". Say it with a glazed look. The look on his face today was the most crybaby face I had ever seen in my entire life.

"Unclose him... May he be received with all his charity and worship all this time...". My words are trying to toughen, although my feelings crumble dimly to release the departure of my soul mate.

Goodbye my husband... Wait for me in jannah... I promise I will never marry anyone again when our love is reunited in the eternal world. For you.and for our children... I will love you forever.... I muttered while staring at the Deri navel with fresh flowers on it.