The Malang Widow

Palau

After Deri drove me back to the shophouse, he immediately returned home. Sis Arif was waiting for the store to look at me alone who got off Ferdi's car.

"Assalamu'alaikum?" my sap to Arif.

"Walaikumsalam, who are you going home with?" ask him a little wonder.

"That's my schoolmate, brother, happened to meet right in the hospital, so he'll take me" I replied a little worriedly.

"Oh...., how is your fetus? healthy?"

"Yes Alhamdulillah all healthy, just waiting for the delivery period".

For a moment we kept quiet. Arif seemed to hold something he wanted to express, but was thinking how to express it.

"Eee Bunga, I want to ask you something..can you?"

"Ehmmm something what sis?" I asked who started with a heartbeat.

"After your baby is born, don't you want to find a father figure for your child? kasian if he's big without a father".he said looking at me sharply.

"I mean brother Arif?"

"I mean, don't you want to get married?"

"Oh.. If for that at this time it has not occurred to you" I replied nervously.

"Why haven't you thought? isn't marriage good?"

"Yes, but that's not what I meant....".

"Wantas? wh why? are you still traumatized by men?"

"Well, you could say so possible"

"Don't think of it that way, that prolonged marital trauma is prone to shaiton whispers?" said Arif to enlarge my heart

"Not that I don't want to marry, brother, but.entahlah.." answered me moving the shoulder.

"But because there's no candidate yet?" ask him again.

I was silent without a word. But for a moment Kak Arif continued the question again which seemed to hit my heart more and more. Just now that I was at war with Deri, this time I had to be mentally prepared to go to war with Brother Arif.

"Flower, I. e.. I. meant to propose to you."

Glek, my mouth immediately gulped with my heart increasingly fluttering.

"Why should it be so fast, brother? doesn't Arif not know me enough?".

"With you working as my employee, I already know you well, you're an honest man..."

"But brother, I'm sorry, I can't answer now" I replied lethargic.

"You can pray Iskharah first make your choice, I wait before your delivery,. My plan after your puerperium later, I want to marry you...."

True what Rianti said, Brother Arif wants to marry me after the puerperium. Is this my destiny? or... huft... I am confused, should I choose Brother Arif as my husband, while I do not love him at all, but if I refuse him, will this be fair with all the good? My heart is flogging.

"Give me a week to answer my brother, while I'm istikharah, God willing before labor I have prepared an answer" I said with uncertain feelings.

"Well, if I say so, I'll wait for your answer, Assalamu'alaikum?"

"Goddessalam".

*****

Meanwhile, Deri's at Ferdi's house.

"***, actually***... The child who conceived the Flower was a cave boy.." exclaimed Deri excitedly.

"Weits... trus, what about her husband?"

"He was yesterday boong, he was a wedding ballerina, Arif was a flower boss who love cooperation Flower time slumped...."

"So what's your plan after this?"

"Belom know, like Bunga already do not want the same cave anymore.he already hates the cave".

"Yes, but I'm not sure Fer, he really hates me".

"It takes time by Flowers to apologize you are ***! yes elo jerk same as him, it is not that easy he wants to nerima elo again. But I'll try to help".

"Yes anyway..gue emang jerk...I am afraid of karmas Fer, I am really afraid.." said Deri clenched his grip beat himself with regret.

"Where was khilaf elo?? now I just realized, right? try if the one in the Flower position is adek loe? or the elo who ngalamin in the position of Bunga as a girl?"

"It looks like the cave will kill the tuh whose name is Deri" said Deri as he patted his face.

"Well, that's elo know, yes that's why you should be able to understand him how he feels at this time ***".

"Fer's promise cave, cave will do anything to let Bunga want sorryin cave, but confused cave should how....? said Deri glazed over her eyes.

"Udah.. don't cry, we'll see, let the time answer, tomorrow try to meet him again" said Ferdi trying to calm.

*****

The night began to dissolve, my eyes could not be closed thinking about Arif. What happened this afternoon was meeting Deri. I can't understand why Deri is back in my life, plus Arif wants to marry me.

It did not feel at 01.00 in the morning my eyes had not been closed, although several times my stomach contracted because of the movement of my fetus as if protesting me to go to sleep. Finally I took ablution water and performed Istikharah prayers for this matter.

I stir with all my soul this thing before Allah. With tears in my eyes, I told him all my turmoil to find all this. Wish the divine would guide me so that I wouldn't be wrong in determining my choice.

After performing the prayer, my heart began to calm down, for a moment I could melt myself.

The next day, I started the activity as usual. Opening the counter and doing my other work, it's just that since my pregnancy got bigger, I started cooking less and prefer to buy outside so as not to get too tired of my body.

"flower?" deri's figure called out to me who had been sitting in the customer's seat.

"Deri?" tanyaku stumbled to look at his presence this early.

"Here I bring you chicken porridge for breakfast, you haven't had breakfast, have you?" ask her while thrusting a savory-scented package.

I just kept staring at the package and didn't budge. I continued my activities so as not to serve Deri much at that time.

"Rest first flowers, later sapean loh, said the doctor you should not be soybeans because it is already before labor, come on breakfast first". Persuade him who does not make me flinch.

Not long from that, Arif got off his car immediately approached us. A package of food was in his grasp in a plastic bag container.

"Assalamu'alaikum ? Flowers early in the morning already have customers?" brother Arif's greeting to me that spontaneously made me misbehave.

Deri immediately turned to look at Kak Arif with a cynical look. But welcome a smile by Arif.

"Looks like his face is familiar, what is this mas subscription here huh? oh... yeah, the morning ones also come here right?" asked Brother Arif to Deri who immediately made my face red.

"Yes, I know Bunga, Deri my name" said Deri to Arif as he reached out.

"Oh yeah, I'm Arif" he replied with a friendly smile.

"Yes Bunga, this is me bringing you breakfast, your favorite chicken soto, which the other day we ate together there" said Kak Arif thrust a plastic package in his hand, while glancing at the package carried by Deri on top of the display case.

"Well, this is not just a boss, but there are seeds of prospective husbands as well, where is there a boss so early in the morning if there is nothing, then eat together too?? huft.." Deri's grunts looked at Arif.

"Yes Bunga, I said yes, sorry to disturb you at work". Eventually, Deri resigned because he was confused about what to do here. His steps so quickly disappeared as if filled with disappointment.

"Flower, is this the breakfast you bought? or was that Deri the one that brought you?" ask Arif suspicious.

"Eee.. yes, I was the nitip kog kak, he happened to be interested if he wanted to come here to buy pulses, so all I nitip" said I was nervous because I had to lie.

"Oh, so you want chicken porridge? why not ngabarin me, you know that I bought you" said Kak Arif a little disappointed because he brought the chicken soto.

"Ohh, yes no what, brother, this was because I was confused about what to eat, so I came from nitip aja, I ate his chicken soto first aja kog kak, kak, besides if it's cold it's not good, chicken porridge let me save it for later in the day" I said to fool Kak Arif.

"Oh, is it up to you that it's important that you have breakfast and take care of your health?" he said he made me look but he didn't make my heart melt like Deri's attention to me.

"Yes, brother, thank you." I reply.

"Yes, you have breakfast first, I say yes, Assalamu'alaikum?"

"Goddessalam".