The Malang Widow

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"Flower.....Baby....!!!" the cry of Deri staring at me fell to the edge of the rice field. Spontaneously he lifted my body and refuted by his body to support me standing. He patted my cheek gently. For a moment I began to wake up and open my eyes little by little.

"Why you, baby???" said Deri anxiously and clenched my body.

I began to wake up, and immediately pushed his body so that it no longer had a chance to hug me. My eyes that were still twitching made me feel a little floating. Almost every object I see is shaded. I held my head which was still feeling dizzy. As hard as I can try to recover that feeling.

"Flower.... I'll take you to the doctor... Maybe you're sick.." said Deri to me who immediately let me ride on the bike?

"I can do it myself.. !!" immediately I patis himself and I try to climb on the bike myself.

"You're strong, aren't you, baby??? Please hold my waist... I'm worried that you're falling..." Veri said before blaming the bike.

Although the heart was heavy, I tried to clutch her waist with my hands. My head that feels dizzy is indeed worried if I will fall when the motor goes later. Well, I don't want to obey his wishes right now.

He slowly drove his motorbike towards the nearest clinic.

Arriving at the clinic, he tried to get me into the clinic. But I refused, and I tried to walk on my own without her help.

"What do you complain about?" ask a doctor at the clinic.

"Lately I've been dizzy a lot... Sometimes nauseous, my eyes twitched...." Replied that I still feel a little nausea in my stomach.

"Maybe the mother is tired, it could be due to stress, or also low HB mother, need to be done further examination for it" said the doctor explained.

"So he fainted, doc.." said Deri, who was sitting next to me.

"Oh... Yes, sorry if you were late for your period?" ask the doctor again.

Glug. Instantly I swallowed.

Oh Allah....Why did I forget that this month I did not menstruate... I may not be pregnant.... I was surprised by the doctor's question. I who was only then realized that I was late for my period, because my mind had only been fixated on this heavy problem of mine.

"Iiiya my doc this month has not yet come month... But I'm a Pill Dock." I said a little nervous and full of anxiety.

"Yes...Maybe you have a schedule that you forgot to drink??" ask the doctor for my explanation.

As soon as I woke up, a few weeks ago I forgot my pill schedule because I was so busy taking care of my two children.

"I forgot doc too... But I'm sure I'm not pregnant." I dodged and regretted myself why I had to go to the clinic at the time.

Deri's face seemed to hear the doctor's explanation. Her eyes were hoping that I was pregnant.

Stupid me.... If I remember that I haven't had my period, I could definitely pack myself, and Deri wouldn't need to know about my condition...Huft... I muttered, who continued to regret.

"Well ma'am, let's do the examination first to be more convincing" said the doctor invited me into the examination room.

A urine I contained in a cup which I then handed over to the lab officer for examination.

We had to wait a few minutes to see the result. We sat in front of the examination room. Although several times Deri tried to approach, but I kept trying to stay away so as not to sit lined with him.

"Mother Flower... The lab results are out, please go back to the doctor's room" said the lab officer let us into the room.

My feelings are starting to get worse. The vibrations of my heart grew stronger, and I felt unable to accept the fact that I was pregnant. I took a deep breath before entering the doctor's office.

"Mother Flower... Congratulations yes... It is true that the mother is pregnant... So the mother does not need to worry when often dizzy, because it's early symptoms of pregnancy....Congratulations sir.." said the doctor to me and also deri with a happy face.

"Alhamdulillah.... Thank you, doc... I'm so happy that my wife is pregnant again." said Deri so excitedly.

I just stupefied staring at the wall.

We returned home shortly after the doctor gave me some vitamins I should take.

On the way, Deri looked very happy. It was as if he had the chance to stay with me.

"Mom.... Pregnant flowers again ma'am." said Deri shortly after we got off the bike in my yard.

"Alhamdulillah....And another windfall..."

"Yes Alhamdulillah... Dear uwais... Soon you will have another baby grandpa." said Deri to Uwais who was busy playing.

"Horay....Really um Uwais want to have another grandpa?" Say Uwais to me.

"Yes dear.." I said flat.

"Mom please take Uwais maen first with Umar." I asked my mother. Soon I took Uwais away from me.

"Don't expect that since I'm pregnant I'm undoing the intention of divorcing you...!!! That's not gonna happen... Pregnant or not, I'll make sure we split up... Know you!!!" I said in a high tone.

"Don't do that, son... I hope if it can still be fixed, you better not split up...." Said the mother who suddenly approached us and heard our conversation.

We were silent too. Neither me nor Deri are out of words. Even so, in my heart it is still chuckling with my stance.

Deri stared at the watch she was wearing on her arm. Time showed that the plane he was going to Jakarta was leaving soon.

"Flower and Mother... I'm sorry I have to go back to Jakarta as soon as possible, because tomorrow I have to work.... Flowers, please think carefully... I still want us to live with our children..." His words indicated that he would be ready soon.

"Law.... Abi went home first to Jakarta ya.." exclaimed Deri at Uwais who was playing in the yard. Instantly he approached us.

"Pig... Why doesn't abi work here just let us stay with us.....??Let Uwais not kangen-kangen continue the same abi...." The whimper that makes our hearts cut.

"Hmmm... Abi wants that too... Uwais said yes to umi, so we can stay together again like first.." said Deri seduce.

Basic hemmm, how dare it affect a small child. I muttered with a furious face.

"Permy....Umi why would anyone want to go to Jakarta on their own? Why don't we go back to Jakarta.... Come umi...Let's go back to Jakarta the same abi.." whining Uwais which certainly makes anyone's heart pity.

Our eyes glazed over watching that. My mother, who wished we hadn't parted, sobbed beside us. But he can't do much. All decisions are in my hands.

"Precious quais.... Umi never said... We must be patient in receiving the test from God... So Uwais, don't be so anymore....Let abi go, because abi has to work.... Laen when Uwais wants to meet abi, Uwais can call abi tell dateng....Yes baby...." My appeal is trying to take her heart.

Spontaneously he ran into the room and sobbed. Until finally I, my mother and Deri also sobbed feeling so deep sadness. I felt that he might have been hit more by this separation than by the pain of my heart over Deri's treatment.

"Already Deri... There if you want to go... Let Uwais take care of me.." My words tried to strengthen my heart.

"Please Flowers, think again before it is too late and hurt Uwais...Think about our three children later." said Deri as she reached for my mother's hand to say goodbye. Not forgetting he hugged and kissed Umar who was carried by my mother.

He was eager to hug me as a sign of farewell. But I didn't pay attention. Instantly I immediately went after Uwais into the room.