The Malang Widow

Defending Divorce

After two days of gathering my energy, today I intend to go to the religious court to register a divorce lawsuit with Deri. Some of my files are fully prepared. I am not confused about this, because I have done the same thing before.

"Yourf...." My long breath accompanied me who looked at our wedding book. The tightness in my chest that never thought that my marriage would come back to this.

"Permy....Uwais kangen same abi um.... Uwais wants to all abi.." Uwais's voice greeted me with a sad stub. His face looked clear, describing the sadness of his longing for his father.

"Dear queens have to be patient, son.... Umi has said, abi lives far away because abi is looking for money, patient yes dear.." I said while giving a warm hug despite staring at his face really I could not bear.

"But why can't we stay with abi again um?? Yesterday can be, kog now can not??" said innocently.

"Because there is a test from God for abi sama umi that makes us unable to stay together anymore..... So Uwais must patiently accept this test from God...." I said my words softly. As I rubbed his innocent face. Well, his face is a lot like that of Deri. For a moment, a shadow of him flashed as he made fun of me. Immediately I patis so as not to affect my determination that has been round to immediately file for divorce at that time.

That innocent face fell silent at me who was preparing to go to the religious court.

"Where are you going?" ask her again.

"Umi no need son.... Later Uwais same Umar at home used to be the same eye uti ya..."

"Why aren't we invited?"

"There's a need that you can't bring a baby...."

"Yes, but not for long..."

"Yes dear...."

Two hours I drove the car, finally I arrived at the place where I had a divorce trial first. I looked at the building with my big breath. Although it felt heavy, my footsteps were still put forward to enter the building.

A few hours after I joined the administration, I finally managed to register as a plaintiff for my husband Deri. Relieved for my heart, I finally rushed back home to meet my two children who were waiting at home.

***

The next day, Deri came after me. After returning home from work, he immediately prepared to go to the airport to be escorted by Ferdi.

A few hours later the plane he was on landed in our city. He came down with hope to take my heart back for him.

"Assalamu'alaikum" said Deri on my mother's doorstep.

"Walaikumsalam" answered me who was a little surprised to see his arrival here.

"Pig....Abi... Hooray..abi dateng....!!!" uwais's cheerful voice approached her.

"Dear quiz." said Deri who immediately hugged him tightly. He kissed her all over his face to let go of her longing.

Before long he looked at me who was standing carrying Umar. For a moment we were silent to each other.

"May I carry Umar?" ask her who at that time my face began to redden the sign of restraining emotions.

I extended my sling towards him to give Umar to him.

"Flower.." she called me as if she wanted to talk to me.

While I don't even bother him a bit.

"Deri.." said my mother who approached us a few moments later.

"Mother.." he said while kissing my mother's hands reverence.

"How are you, ma'am?" greet Deri to my mother.

"Thank God, how are you?"

"Alhamdulillah is healthy too".

"Hemmm started acting.... Don't be so good in front of mom.... Stench you've kissed." said I really hate to see Deri talking to my mother.

"Deri come with me" I said as I pulled out the motor to the yard.

"Mom, Uwais nitip with Umar, I go first with Deri" I told Deri to immediately turn on the motorbike.

"Umi same abi go first yes son.." I said to Uwais who was staring at us as if he wanted to come along and still resisted longing with Deri. He just nodded slowly.

I took Deri around the rice fields of my village. I don't want to have a fight in front of my two children and my mother. On the edge of the green rice field our motor stopped and soon we lowered ourselves from the motor. The roar of the wind that blew could not quell my re-peaked emotions.

"How dare you appear before me? Not embarrassed??" I said cynical to him.

He fell down in front of me and prostrated himself before my feet.

"I'm sorry Flowers... Forgive me for hurting you." said he as he held back sobs.

"It's been.... Enough of your acting.... Now stand...!"

"I won't stand until you forgive me"

"Hemmmm your mode is always that..... Okay, I'm sorry..."

"really??" instantly he woke up from his prostration with a cramped face.

"But baby, I've filed for divorce, so don't expect us to come back to life like we used to." I said, pointing out evidence of my administration to her.

"Flower.... I'm begging... Cancel this..."

"Nobody once you said... This is not my will either... This is your will... ! If it wasn't because you started, it wouldn't be possible for this to happen...!!!" my cry with a grumbling face.

"Yes I was wrong.... I'm khilaf..."

"Khilaf you said?? Husband whose war is so thoroughly exposed for adultery, then easily say khilaf???"

"I'm married to Lani Bunga...."

"What??? Married married??? Owhhh siri??? Hmmmm? That's presumptuous..."

"Listen to my explanation.... Lani came to me, she said that if her husband left her for so long, she needed a protective figure while in Jakarta, which is why I intended to help her..."

"Helping an ex at the expense of his household??? It doesn't make sense..."

"I intend polygamy, if you agree then I will continue, but if you do object, I will leave Lani...."

"Pologamy?? Haha... There is no polygamy like this.... You don't have to make excuses.... Very funny how you do.... After enjoying sleeping with another woman, then just saying will leave her??" My words in a mocking tone.

"I don't know what else to say, I was wrong, but I honestly love you... I don't want to lose you...." Said it while sobbing.

"Bulsit....!!! No one loves you but have an affair?? Good thing to be found out, try not?? Whoa..."

For a moment we were silent because we were tired of fighting.

"It's not fair to me and Der's kids.... You destroyed everything, now you must dare to let us go... Do not bother me anymore, please continue your life story with Lani adoration of your heart long ago..."

"No Flowers... You're still my wife I love the most...."

"It's been... Thats enough.... I'm sick of...!!! Your words are not in sync with your behavior.... It's disgusting that I remember what you did....!!!" I said with tears beginning to break.

"I won't be able to grant your lawsuit." he said as if threatening.

"And you will not be able to avoid.... Your panties and the video I made will be witnesses at the trial....!!"

Deri was running out of words. His face seemed very sorry for the reason that soon he would lose everything to him.

"Brongha..." My body suddenly crashed on the edge of the rice field. My head that momentarily felt spinning and my stomach that was nauseous as I had felt since yesterday started attacking me and making me instantly unconscious.