The Malang Widow

Deri's Disfigurement

"Ders... That's your sister just called for remittances for college tuition, if you don't see her she can be dismissed today too." said her mother Deri from behind her bedroom door.

"Don't you know I don't have any money yet, can you just as you can't work for a while?" sahut Deri who immediately opened the door of his room and he spoke in front of the door with a slightly irritated face.

"Your father where is the money? As for also will not be enough to pay for college adekmu, wong your father's income is just enough to eat only for this long...!" said the mother with a tinge.

For a moment, Deri breathed a long sigh. His right hand held his forehead which had been frowning at the sign of thinking hard.

"From the beginning of your lecture, my mother has already passed to you the problem of cost, yes already, now it is your responsibility... It was you who sent your grandfather to college." said the mother who continued to speak in front of Deri.

Deri just fell silent. His hands clenched furiously feeling what he was going through. The burden he thought felt heavier, especially he also had to think about the needs of his three small children.

"Mak... I have three children... I beg you to understand my situation." said Deri who felt depressed.

"What's? Three kids? Does your ex-wife have any more kids??" ask the surprised mother.

"Yes mak, Bungan just gave birth yesterday.."

"And you're sure it's your son, you're divorced?" said the mother with both eyebrows that raised the sign of disbelief.

"Astaghfirulloh... Do not just accuse carelessly mak. when divorcing the condition of Bunga is pregnant young mak.." said Deri a little pressure to talk to her mother.

"Yes, why did you say three kids? Your only child is two, right? That Uwais isn't your son, why should it be your responsibility too??" his sentence with both eyes glanced sharply at Deri.

Again Deri can only sigh long unable to speak anymore. Soon he went back into his room and laid his body on the bed.

"Ting" heard the sound of his play a sign of a message coming in.

Instantly he sambar gawainya who was beside his body that was lying down.

[You promised the children would often look at you, but it's been almost a week that you didn't come home, Uwais whined at you.] Fill a message from me to him.

His eyes closed no longer had to think what to do. He was very embarrassed to come to see me, because he knew that now he could no longer give a living to his children as usual even if only a little.

Put his face on his chest. He soon fell asleep with his tired mind.

*****

"Mas, I'm finally out of my college...! You're outrageous....! Can't you work again like first so you can continue to charge me... Though soon I'm a thesis." said sister Deri who finally returned home and failed to continue her dream of becoming a scholar.

"I've been fired, sorry... I can't work anymore, Huft.." said Deri with a long sigh.

Since that incident, no family cares about me and my children anymore. They all hate me. They keep thinking I'm the bad woman who made the divorce happen. All the mistakes made by Deri were caused by me.

Day by day Deri's mind is getting messed up. On one side he misses me and the kids. But he was powerless to meet us. Although several times Uwais tried to call him and whine asking to meet.

He deliberately did not want to meet us, because he was embarrassed if Uwais or Umar asked for a snack on him while he did not have money for it.

Several times he tried to build a business like before, but always failed. Until his capital money is increasingly eroded day by day and does not leave a penny in his wallet. That's why he didn't dare to see us again.

Almost every day he messes with his family members. Starting from his mother, his sisters, even his father was always involved in a fight with Deri because of the economic turmoil his family was increasingly shaken since the presence of Deri. While he is no longer earning.

"Permy... Abi long ago forgot his promise... Do you love us no more??" asked Uwais in a sad tone.

"Maybe Abi is busy... Uwais don't talk like that... From now on, Uwais focuses on learning to read the Qur'an as well as memorization... Yuk umi guidance." I said as I opened a holy book and gave guidance to him to divert his mind about his father.

Since then I have been trying to keep my two sons busy with their activities of reading and memorizing the Quran. Slowly they follow what I teach. Especially Uwais who has begun to be fluent in memorization. While Umar though his tongue was still slurred, yet he kept trying to recite what I was pointing at him.

Thank God my children obey me...My murmurs looked at them with teary eyes and a faint smile on my lips.

While I was guiding the two of them, Shanum did not escape my attention. He continued in my arms while sucking on me voraciously.

****

Almost every night before going to bed I think about how I get back to earning to provide for our lives. Deri can not be relied on, even though I have savings, but if there is no income of course over time my savings will run out just for the needs of life.

That night I tried to open information from the internet to open my insight to build a business. On one site I found a way to open a baby spa business opportunity.

My eyes were fixed on the article and very interested in learning it. Moreover, I am a midwife, of course this will be related to my science.

Instantly I opened my account balance from the sale of a house in Jakarta at that time. It turns out that the amount is not enough for the business capital. In my daydream for a moment, it was in my mind to sell one of my late mother's legacy assets that she had allocated to me.

Netraku is focused on one of the agricultural land certificates. I took one of the vast lands not too wide. I'm preparing for the sales plan tomorrow. While some other assets I keep back into my closet for the future provision of my children.

The next day I began to be busy advertising the sale of the land. While waiting for the sale, I started building a building for the business I had planned carefully.

I strengthened my determination and mentality to lead the development despite having to face some people I had to meet for the business. Starting from the permit, to face some porters of the building that participated in the construction of the building located right next to the house I live in.

My house has a side yard that is still quite spacious, so I use it for the construction of my business building in the future. Because if it is next to my house, then I do not have to go far to take my time to leave my three children at home. With my efforts side by side, then my activities will be able to be done while taking care of my children.