The Malang Widow

Occupy Ruko

After eating soto both of us went straight to the counter where I worked. There, Arif began to help me arrange some of the equipment that I would use to live there.

There is a room next to the counter that I usually wear when I rest eat or pray. In the corner of the room there is also a small bathroom that is quite comfortable. In addition, the back also features a mini kitchen plus clothes clothesline but never used. Although Kak Arif used to keep this counter, but certainly never stay here.

"Flower, I'm out for a while, yes, I'll come back here again" Arif said to me.

"Yes, brother, thank you for helping me".

"Yes together".

Then I started to continue my activities as usual there. Now I no longer need to think about the fatigue I went back and forth on foot from the counter to my contract which was actually quite far away. In fact, my residence is now more comfortable than my contract there, here it is equipped with a kitchen that can make me cook of course.

Not long after, Arif came back. He saw that he was pulling something out of his car. A fairly thick and quality foam mattress and some pillows he lowered from his car.

"Sister, what's that for?" many wonder.

"Yes this is for you, the figure of a pregnant woman sleeping on a mattress that thin without a pillow?" he answered while transporting the mattress into the shophouse.

"Yes but I'm used to brother sleeping with it, even here the room is already quite spacious than my boarding house, I'm very grateful, why do you bother all to buy a mattress anyway Kak?" my very sad whine.

"Well, can't you, can you?"

"Yes that is not it. but I have a lot of ngrepotin Arif.." answered me with teary eyes.

"Udah, you don't think about it, instead we have to help each other right?" say he came back while arranging the mattress into the room. And it looks a flower patterned bed cover was he put there complete the mattress that is fairly soft.

"So brother let me put it up" I replied distracting himself.

"Yes already you continue" said Kak Arif who then stood looking at me to clean up the items he had bought.

"Why is Brother Arif so good to me huh??? Don't.don't.... Ah...this must be because he is the same as me!!" I muttered inwardly and nervously.

"Yes, I say yes Bunga, not good here together with you, later if there is anything do not forget to contact me immediately yes, now I live first, then, hopefully you can stay here. Assalamu'alaikum?" He said while leaving me.

"Goddessalam".

A few days I stayed at the shophouse, I started cooking for myself to eat, unlike usual I can only buy food outside, now I can cook according to my taste. Several times, Brother Arif also I asked to taste my cooking. He was very fond, even we so often eat together, especially breakfast before I work.

Brother Arif looks very happy by eating with me. Not infrequently he also brought some food for me to cook. Well, ever since I've been here, Arif has always come to bring equipment for me here. Slice one by one until everything is complete like a small household.

Starting from kitchen equipment, refrigerator, washing machine, even until the Ac was paired by Kak Arif for my facility. I don't know why the more days he gets the better of me, the more attention he gives me. If I refuse what the gift is, it will still be pushy and useless for me. I finally resigned with his attitude that was so good to me, even though I was so hesitant.

"Flower, I've seen since you've been here kog never check the content? don't you want to know the state of your pregnancy? or do I want to take you?" brother Arif's offer one day that makes me surprised.

He's not my husband, why would he want to take me to check the contents.... I murmured in my heart.

"Sir, I udh kog self-check as much as I can, as long as the fetal movement is still good, I do not need to worry kog, the important vitamins I always drink" I replied refusing.

"Yes but is it USG is important too, do you not want to see your baby in the belly?"his words convinced me.

"Yes later I'll take time to make USG Kak, a calm brother, btw kog brother like understand very well about USG and pregnancy?" in fact, I was surprised to notice her speech as if she had accompanied a woman to check the pregnancy by mentioning the movement of the fetus in the womb.

"Yes, I used to have a wife too, when I was pregnant I always wanted her to check" she replied with teary eyes.

"Sorry brother, I made Brother sad to remind you of Brother's past." said I feel guilty.

"No papa kog, no wonder you're pregnant I'm my wife's keinget first, she finally left with her affair, and it turns out that pregnancy is also the fruit of love from her relationship with her affair, not from me". He tries to remember his bitter past.

"Yes, it turns out that when she was married she was pregnant first with the man......."

"Udah Kak stop...don't continue...no good to tell disgrace.." said me who did not want to hear the story because my heart hurt him.

Brother Arif looks teary. Every now and then he sighed as long as possible to just disturb his sadness.

"I'm sorry, brother.because I'm for sad brother.." I tried to calm down.

"I'm not papa kog, it's just my past, and now I can forget him kog". While smiling at me.

I was silent for a moment and then continued my work as usual so as not to focus too much on Kak Arif who had been staring at me.

"Flower, will you forever choose to live alone without a companion?" asking her immediately made me so nervous.

"Emmmm... has not thought like sister, anyway anyone would like the same woman like me who is not good" I replied bowed embarrassed.

"Do you want your child to have a father figure?"

"Hmm.eeee...I'm sorry, brother, I haven't thought about it.." I'm really confused and misbehaved.

"Otherwise there's a guy who wants to make you a wife, are you ready?" ask him again.

Why does he keep asking me like that.

"Hehehe Brother Arif this is strange, where there are men who want to be with me sister.satusku widows, and now I'm pregnant is not clear, where anyone wants...." reply while laughing a little trying to break the atmosphere so that I am not too nervous.

"You're a good woman, you're just an irresponsible male victim, if you're willing, I want to be the father of the baby you bear".

"C.deg....glek..." My heart felt like it was going to be dislodged to hear it and gulped a few times not believing the taste.

O Allah...Dream what I..Why can there be anyone as good as Kak Arif want to marry me? did he tambet..gumamku while taking a deep breath.

"Sorry, I don't seem to be able to answer your question at this time..."

"Why? don't you like me? or do you still want the baby's real father?"

I just kept my head down without a word. Then he kept asking me again.

"Flower, your decision to leave the man is the right thing, because I'm sure he's not a good man for you. If you marry him, not necessarily he'll love you, while for his actions, he is not responsible, and men who love women, will never fear to desecrate women." he said like advising me.

My heart melted, he seemed so mature and able to read my mind. I just don't know why I haven't been able to agree to her desire to marry me. I don't know, it seems like with Brother Arif I don't feel anything. It's just that I owe him too much, which is why I always try to be friendly with him.

Moreover, he is my superior, and until now I have not been fully confident in my circumstances. I feel unworthy of anyone, especially Brother Arif.

"Well Flowers, if you can't answer my question, I said first, don't have to answer now what kog, can be considered first, the time is also still long, if we are a match, if we are a match, I can only marry you after you're in puerperium."

"I'm saying goodbye, Assalamualaikum?"

"Goddessalam".

He left in his car and drove away.

"Huft.." I took a deep breath so relieved after his departure.