The Malang Widow

Nudism

The month of Ramdahan has arrived, a month after Deri away from me, now arrives where the moon is waiting for the rented residents to prepare for homecoming.

No different from me, even though I only have a few days off, because my work period is classified as still junior did not dampen my spirit to imagine homecoming and soon met with my mother and family in the village to release my long-cherished homes abroad.

One by one I buy every work holiday, considering here a lot of unique knickknacks that are suitable for souvenirs. I collected the tiny things like pretty bracelets and some other trinkets that I planned to share with my bangles in the village. Because usually they will always charge me for souvenirs if they find out I came home.

Unlike my mother, she always prevented me from buying souvenirs for her, because she knew my salary was not too much, she only advised me to save and for my needs while abroad. As long as I can live enough, he thinks he is very grateful.

A week before Lebaran, almost my contracted neighbors had gone home one by one. The more lonely I feel. I was on vacation less than two days before Lebaran made me have to be patient stepping into the work site through the streets that are increasingly lonely because there is no greeting from the neighbors that I usually always find every my move.

Likewise with Deri, that morning after I woke up and cleaned the floor of my room, I saw himself preparing to go home soon. On top of his motorbike he prepared some cardboard and a bag of rangsels tied up in the back seat of the motor.

Followed a few minutes later he was fully dressed with his thick jacket, gloves, helmet, and no bag of rangs carried by him. Soon he got on his bike with his luggage.

I who can only look at him from the front door of my contract was staring with a pushy look. I remember how long ago when he was close to me he wanted to be able to go home with me to accompany him on the bike so as not to be lonely. Although I have explained that my holiday is approaching H day, he will still wait for me to go home together. Ah, but that's all a fantasy now. Deri seems to have gone further and further on his bike.

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Deris

One night he traveled from Bandung to Lampung making himself quite tired. Crossing the sea using a Ferry that he always uses when going home makes himself daydream at the edge of the cabin door staring at the irregular waves of sea water due to the speed of the ship he was riding.

It flashed in his mind about me, he who had once promised to take me home, but now he could only imagine my figure beside him staring at the sea and feeling the whirring of the wind so strong.

He smoked a few cigarettes to accompany him daydream at that time. A feeling of resentment and disappointment still enveloped his heart to this day. I don't know why Deri could be. Is this so low my status, as if I am completely worthless to him. At least, even though he no longer wants to continue his relationship with me, being an ordinary friend who can just chat normally is okay for me.

But not like it was with Deri, he would prefer not to know me at all.

"Bags....Tung..." the sound of the ship's horn that indicates soon the ship in Deri will be leaning.

Deri rushes down from the cabin to deg to immediately prepare the motor out of the ship. The queue of vehicles lined up accompanied by a rumbling sound collided with vehicle engines that were ready to slide to get out of the ship.

The smoke of vehicles that billow each other also makes the stomach of Deri's breath a little tight. Luckily his nose and mouth were protected from the mask he wore before riding his motorcycle.

Shortly after that the door of the ship was opened slowly. Sunlight from outside highlights the line of vehicles that are ready to slide it. One by one the vehicles drove slowly over the bridge from the ship to land.

Finally Deri has set the earth Lampung. The hills are overgrown with dry grass he passed during his motorbike. Sometimes he stopped on the sidewalk to down a bottle of mineral water to quench the thirst he had prepared in his rangsel bag.

Two hours passed and he finally arrived at the house where he grew up. The house is actually quite spacious size of the land, but the model is very simple and looks very old for the size of today. The almost faded color paint settled on every wall of his house. Even in the kitchen that is still based on the land that is the house that always missed a Deri while abroad.

"Mom....Mr...!" deri greeted her parents who had been waiting for her at her doorstep after she saw the sound of a motorbike stopping in her yard.

Smiles appear on the faces of those who welcome the arrival of Deri from the region. Pride mixed feelings should be seen in their gazes towards Deri who while getting off his bike tiredly mixed happily.

The rest of his parents' hands and in his kiss as a sign of respect for Deri. His mother who was so long to embrace him tightly while shedding tears should be reunited with her eldest son who almost a year did not meet.

Deri, who has been in contact for a year and broke up with her boyfriend Lani, makes her reluctant again to go home as often as she used to want to see him.

Almost 7 years he is in love with Lani, he strongly believes that he will marry her immediately, but the relationship must run aground because Lani has chosen someone else to be his life companion, but the relationship must run aground because Lani has chosen someone else to be his life companion, although until now no news of marriage from him.

"Bas....!" greet the sister of Deri who is 5 years old while hugging her sign of longing.

Deri who then returned her hug by kneeling unceasingly kissed her face longingly. Followed by the presence of two younger brothers who are still in Junior High School and High School did not escape to welcome his arrival.

Rushing he issued souvenirs that he had prepared yesterday while in Bandung. Not to forget he bought Pizza for his sisters who before he reached the house he took to stop by the outlet, because remember his sisters rarely eat food like that unless he bought it.

With joy they gathered together to ask each other the news. They did not eat the pizza that Deri brought, because that day was fasting, only little Rino who had been impatient to chew the pizza voraciously because he had not time to fast like the others.

Magribh arrived, excited, and Deri and her family gathered in the dining room to break their fast. A special meal menu has been prepared by her mother for the reception of Deri. His favorite fried sambal is always made because it is a menu that is always missed by Deri.

Deri who was not fasting at that time because of a long trip was greedily accompanying his three younger siblings and his parents ate the iftar food.

Deri stayed at his house last night. He took his dress while lying on his bed. Look at the contacts in his play. Instantly he stopped at my contact number, looking at the profile photo I used for my Whatshap app. He wanted to contact me, but he paused and dragged his finger back to his screen, and found Lani's contact that was still stored.

Instantly he sent her a message, hoping she could meet him this time, even for the last time. Actually, he still has a taste for her, he wants to fight for marriage with her, but he does not dare to speak to his parents, but he did not dare to speak to his parents, given all this time there was no blessing from the parents of both parties.

I don't know why that night like he misses him, and want to try to re-establish a relationship with him like in the past when he was in an LDR relationship for 7 years.

The relationship that he lived during school to work was not easy for him to forget it just like that. Almost half of his life was on his side, he said, because Lani was a friend during SD until at the time of High School she just established a relationship with him. She often remembers many of her childhood memories with him.

[How are you Lani?] The contents of the message of Deri on Lani's contact that there was no response even though it had been read.

Deri, who had hoped for him to return the message, wanted to see him immediately to his home, now denied his intention, because it had been an hour since the message was read no reply at all. Finally he fell asleep with his car that was still in his hands because he was tired of waiting.

In the afternoon, Deri went to pick up his sister who played at his friend's house which was a good distance away, so it had to be reached by vehicle. He accidentally saw the figure of Lani who was busy chatting with a man in a restaurant while waiting for their food order.

Her heart is now completely sliced by her, Deri who after losing contact with Lani, had never before discovered that she had a new lover. In the past when breaking up by phone, Lani did explain that she had cheated on others, but at that time Deri was a little incredulous about it. Although he agreed to Lani's decision, but he still wanted to convince her to keep marrying him if there was still a chance.

He should have come back by now to see Lani, but he did not think that with his own eyes he had seen her with others. Although heavy, but it has opened his eyes that Lani is not his soul mate, and he must immediately forget it, and leave it to others, even though their relationship is long enough, but in reality Lani's love for Deri has faded first with the presence of another man.

Deri who looked lethargic continued to advance his motorbike to the place where his sister was about to be picked up. Along the way he kept daydreaming about Lani, not knowing why he who had been in a long relationship with her was not a match. Well even though he realized that this was fate, but his heart was so sliced.

"Tin..tin..." the sound of the car horn from the front of the direction of Deri who was riding his motorbike that was whizzing spontaneously startled himself from his daydream.

"How to get the bike!" said his sister was upset who had been shocked also because cenas almost hit by a car just now.

"Yes I'm, sleepy, still tired of just coming home yesterday" I told him.

"Owh, pantesan, yes it's over this don't go anywhere first, horrified to know, uhg.." ketus his sister while holding the waist of Deri tight.