The Malang Widow

Waiting for an answer Istikharah

"Assalamu'alaikum Rianti? how are you?" I called Rianti this morning.

"Walaikumsalam, yes ukhti, Alhamdulillah well, anti itself how are you?" rianti Balak.

"Thank God be healthy too, oh yeah, can I tell you a story?" ask without hesitation.

"Yes, would you please?"

"So Brother Arif has already bedded me Rianti, and I am very confused.." said I who was sitting casually in a small chair.

"What makes the anti doubt on Brother Arif? he is a good person, God willing and a good priest, yes even though he has not long migrated just like the Flower, will be able to learn from each other".

"Yes, not because of that, but somehow the door of my heart seems unknocked on Brother Arif, Rianti.

"Love can be present because of the devotion of Flowers, if we have cultivated faith in the heart, then God who will later present that love" he said energetically.

"Then what if in the household it can not also present love? I don't want to bully Arif because I lied to myself.." I said sadly.

"Flower, ask God for guidance..."

"It's Rianti, but it seems like my heart has not sided with Kak Arif, for some reason, even though Kak Arif is too good to me" I said weakly with a pushy look.

"Something seems to make you anti-doubt?" ask her as if she knows my heart.

"Let's go. And a few days ago, Deri came to me Rianti, he started to bother me again..."

"Subanalloh's.... Wawllohi, stay away from him anti, he's a bad young man for anti, except...."

"Except what Rianti?"

"Unless he has also emigrated, he has changed all his behavior from what he used to be".

"That's it, but it doesn't seem like it yet, it's just that what I see now is much better, but either because it's about to be deceived like it used to be, or how I don't know".

"Be careful proof..do not fall, you should not pray a lot to be protected from evil".

"God willing, Rianti... Assalamu'alaikum?" I closed that conversation.

"Yes, Walaikumsalam".

A few days I prayed Istikharah, but none of the feelings answered over Kak Arif. I feel like I don't want to accept her proposal any more. But I am confused, if I refuse it, then I will be very embarrassed if I still work here hanging facilities and salaries from him, of course this is a difficult choice for me. While I always have to earn to meet the needs of me and my baby later.

"flower?" greet a Deri who suddenly broke my daydream.

"Deri? when are you going to bother me?!" I yelled at him with anger.

"I don't want to bother, I just want to say something to you, please if later you marry Arif, give me a chance to keep visiting our child at any time, and allow me to keep giving her a living even if your future husband is more established and doesn't seem to need my money too much". He said himself to be clear.

"Do you know I'm getting married to Arif?" just pissed.

"Yes, I know from his attitude to you, he cares about you kog, and seems to love you?" said he looked at me.

"So you know!" my reply squeezed my fingers.

"Marry Arif, or whomever you choose, I'm sincere, as long as you're happy and he's willing to accept you and our son of course, Arif's a good person, he fits you as well as I am". Said Deri with teary eyes like she was not willing to let go of me.

"So, the child in our room is Deri's son?" sahut Kak Arif who turned out to have arrived at the side of the shop. Not as usual he came to drive his car in front of the shophouse, because there is a construction of a gutter that makes him have to park on the side. Without us realizing it had been a long time since he was standing next to the shophouse listening to our conversation.

"Sir Arif?" tanyaku was shocked to learn that he heard our conversation.

"No papa kog, I've been horrified everything" said Kak Arif with a disappointed look.

For a moment the three of us just sat staring at each other. My face paled with embarrassment. Cold sweat fell on my forehead and all over my body.

"Flower?!" shouted Deri and Kak Arif along with full of panic.

Brother Arif who tried to help me but he paled and looked at Deri who swiftly carrying me as if he gave all his energy for my size is quite heavy because of two bodies.

"Bring to the hospital!" exclaimed Deri who was carrying me.

"Let's take my car with us!" exclaim Arif without thinking long.

Brother Arif immediately opened the middle car door, put my body to sleep by Deri. Shortly afterwards he immediately entered and sat in front with Kak Arif who was driving his car at high speed due to panic.

Arriving at the hospital, several nurses and doctors treated me in the ER room. Rumbling noises paced the medics who were acting on me.

Deri's face was so anxious when she saw me lying on the bed with an oxygen hose and an infusion attached. Likewise with Kak Arif, despite being overwhelmed with feelings of disappointment, he also looked confused as Deri.

"Who is the husband of the mother of Bunga?" ask a nurse to Deri and Kak Arif.

They were silent and looked at each other.

"He's sus!" exclaimed Brother Arif pointed at Deri with a flat gaze.

"Eeee.." replied Deri could not dodge.

At once Brother Arif approached Deri's ear and whispered,

"You're his biological father, you're more entitled than I am" said he, who left me and Deri shortly after the hospital.

"Yes sister, am I her husband?" eri replied nervously.

"Mother Flower has entered the phase of labor, now it has opened 2, but earlier it seemed he was experiencing severe stress, so his body was weak, so his body was weak, and now the recovery is being done so that his energy can recover and be able to carry out a normal delivery" said one of the nurses explained to the anxious Deri.

"Do your best sus.." replied Deri.

Soon he approached me lying on the bed with his eyes opened and awakened from my fainting. Deri was sitting in a chair next to my bed. His anxious face, made him faithfully accompany me for hours there without any boredom.

"You're a tough lady my flowers, baby.... Forgive me for ever having shown you.." whispered Deri to me with an unbearable look on my face that began to fight me with the contractions of my stomach getting bigger.

All day I was struggling with a few injections and actions. Now I entered the delivery room to be immediately led by labor. Deri looked confused at the time. Between wanting to come in, or outside because we are not a married couple.

"Father Deri, please accompany his wife yes, give him support so that the spirit" said one midwife calling Deri who was in front of the delivery room door.

He who can not be evaded because his name was listed in my medical record because I wrote his identity made him want to not go into the room of labor.

I who had been struggling to endure the pain of the contractions of my uterus, no longer care what and who I will be accompanied by maternity. I could no longer think of anything, for what I felt was how I could ease my tremendous pain at that moment.

"Let's go on ma'am...keep going.." lead the midwife and some of her partners to me.

"Aaakhhhggggg... huft..."youft.."yelling me to push and endure the pain of my contract while occasionally taking a deep breath.

"Oek..oek.." The end was born a son who was very funny to make me cry.

The sobbing sound of Deri was finally heard by me, he looked at a baby boy by the midwife's hand and was amazing. It dawned on me that he had been accompanying me in labor.

Spontaneously I whispered to him to immediately leave me who was dirty and will do the next action. Of course I began to feel embarrassed because there would be a lot of my aura visible at that time.

"Help you out" I whispered to him.

"Yes, I understand, forgive me. You are strong yes.. I love you.." he said softly as if he wanted to kiss my forehead like a husband and wife full of me should accept the presence of his baby. After asking permission from the midwife, she left me.

"God indeed I had hoped for this, accompanied by the delivery of the Deri, but as my husband, not as my enemy like this, was this the answer of all O Allah... I murmured in my heart with unstoppable teardrops.