The Malang Widow

Revealed by Deri

"The flower...!!" exclaims Deri who continues to follow my steps.

I was no longer able to step because of weakness finally resigned to arrive on the front page of the hospital. A Ferdi seemed to follow us, but he stopped to give me and Deri a chance to talk together.

"Flower.... I already know all now, what good is it that you avoid me continue??" asked Deri staring at the face of the doldrums of Flowers.

"Now say, is it really the child in your womb that is my child??"

Flowers just ran out of words.

"Well, answer the flowers? why are you quiet?" asked Deri again who was about to hold my shoulder and then undo it.

"I can't answer!" my reply tried to evade.

"Try to explain why can you write my name in your checkbook as a husband's name? so if Si Arif is your husband, where is he now? why don't you check it out? you lied about your marriage?"

"Yes, I'm a boong, so what's your business?? haven't we broken up long ago? aren't we in a relationship now?"

"Yes something to do, I was wrong at that time, sorry I Bunga...."

"I'm sorry you were there long before we met, so please don't bother me anymore, my life is quiet enough without you!"

"But I need to take responsibility for my actions as you do. I beg you to give me a chance..."

"What chance is Deri?? chance to hurt me again!!" I answered tightly trying to hold back the patience while sighing a long sigh.

"No Flowers, I promise I won't hurt you anymore. Please trust me".

"I trust you if you don't bother me anymore, understand???"

"Pliss flower...."

"You want what?? huh uh?!" I'm starting to get upset.

"I want to marry you flowers, as I promised before. Now I will keep my promise, I beg you to trust me.." said he was very begging to me.

"Your words are sweet, as sweet as they used to be when you tricked me. And I won't fall for the wrong thing a second time".

At once Deri prostrated before me, begging for mercy.

"I will do whatever Flowers, so that I may have a chance to take responsibility for you, please do not torment me for my sins.."

"Stand you!! do not worship me, I am not your Lord, if you ask God for forgiveness!" I said ketus but almost melted.

Now that my tears are unstoppable, I recall the bad treatment that Deri had for me. I remember all the journeys of my life that have been so tangled with my condition after it was decided and humiliated.

"Nine months Der...Nine months I was pregnant with this child alone... I could hardly eat and support this child, but I tried my hardest until Brother Arif and one of my friends came to help me give me a job, so I could survive until now... then easily you come say want to marry me?? where have you been?" said Bunga while occasionally wiping his tears that flowed profusely.

"Sorry Flowers. I'm sorry. I don't know if you're pregnant, if I had known for a long time, I would have looked for you long ago"

"Good man, it won't be that easy to leave a woman he's been sleeping with!! don't you want even you to insult me the last time we spoke!! I'm a silly woman you said, I'm a lowly woman!!! so what now do you ask me to get married?? heh??" I cry non-stop.

"Quite Flowers.quite...yeah I'm khilaf, I'm selfish, maybe this could be a lesson for me, this slap for me that should not demean women".

"Because what?? is it because you're more like Arif?"

"What did you say?? don't mention her name!! he's the best guy I've ever met!"

"Well..well... I understand, maybe he's the best for you, he's also more established than me, if that's your choice, I'll try to understand, the important thing is that you are happy, happy, but I beg you, do not separate me from my son.Please give me a chance to meet and give him as much as I can" said Deri who somehow teary eyes and cry like me.

Up to now me and Deri both cried sobbing so sad.

"You don't need to support him or consider him your son, which is obviously my husband, not you, because he will be born outside of marriage" I said while stroking my stomach.

"Yes I understand, but whatever my instincts as a biological father I want to remain responsible to him, please give me a chance to love him, the rest I will not bother you anymore and you will be calmer, I promise you will be free to marry anyone." he said again begging.

"Well, if so now you live on my own, later if my son was born I tell you" I said as I wiped my tears and tried to stop my sobs.

"But I have to tell you to come home, I have to make sure you're all right, because that kid is also my son, so I have the right to take care of him, let's now take the prescription vitamins of the doctor, I'll be responsible for the cost of checking your pregnancy from now on." said Deri while inviting me back into the hospital to the cashier.

I just nodded because I was tired of arguing. My stomach was contracting, a sign of having to rest immediately.

"Huft.. huhh..huhh.". "my sigh took a deep breath while stroking my stomach which was contracting falsely.

"Flower, what's wrong with you? you must be a saucer? let's sit down, slow down." take Deri gently and attentively to me looking worried about me towards the patient's seat.

"O Allah, protect your servant so as not to be tempted by this man again, O Allah.." I muttered in a whipping heart.

"I want to go home now" I told Deri after receiving the medicine and paying the hospital bills.

"Okay, you wait here for a moment, I'll pick up Ferdi first, let's take you to your house"

"I can go home by myself, I pesen ojek online only" I said as I tried to stand up and hurried to walk away.

"Don't Bunga.. Your stomach is so big, the doctor himself said you have to reduce activity, you love our baby, let me take you with Ferdi using a car?" said Deri seduce.

"My son, not our son, don't you mention it again like that, I don't like it, because you were never there for him! understand you??" ketus.

"Yes I'm sorry.. do I understand...o that Ferdi came here by chance, let's go home?"

"Fer, yok... turning? hope you are elo?" asked Deri to Ferdi who suddenly appeared near me and Deri.

"I hope, this is done taking the medicine as well" he replied while showing off a bag containing his medicine.

"We're flower anthers, huh?" deri said to Ferdi.

"Okay.. yuk, wait in front yes, the cave take the car first in the parking lot".

Finally we went together to take me home to the shophouse. I sat in the middle seat, while Deri and Ferdi sat in the front. Deri looked back to make sure I was okay.

"Where do you live Bunga?" ask Deri.

"In the shop where I work that you went there this morning" I said.

"Oh.. Okay, Yok Fer, to the counter-junction of the elo house" said Deri told Ferdi.