The Malang Widow

Kak Arif's News

Today I went back to kajiyan after a long time I comforted myself because of my labor yesterday. Not to forget Uwais I carried along with me to go to kajiyan. I deliberately took him with me, because at the lecture also some friends brought their children, from babies to toddlers, although sometimes the sound of crying is quite disturbing when the kajiyan took place, but we mutually understand each other.

Rianti seemed to have been waiting there with some other friends. I was so embarrassed that I met him, but I thought he was a good person, so there was no way his heart would think badly of me.

"Assalamu'alaikum?" say hello to Rianti and the rest of my friends.

"Milkahmur"

"Alhamdulillah... anti udah lahiran to? kog not news?" chirp one of my friends sitting next to Rianti.

"Yes, it was 2 weeks ago" I said a little embarrassed.

"God is the cute baby, what's his name, son?" greet one of my other friends kindly.

"Uwais.... Uwais Al-qarni" I replied smilingly.

"MasyaAllah".

Shortly after having a conversation with my friends, Kajiyan began. Today my friends seem so friendly, besides maybe because they missed me a long time ago, and now I come to bring my little and adorable baby. Almost all my friends wanted to pet her and just caress her adorable cheeks. My heart grew grateful for the presence of Uwais in my life. Although full of pain, but his presence really able to shed my inner wounds when looking at his face.

Two hours passed and this time it was finished. Some of my friends also gathered to congratulate me, and some gave me envelopes filled with money like people. Their solidity has moved me. Although in this study I was fairly new, they were very enthusiastic to embrace me, and indeed no one knew about my story, except Rianti. There were also no friends to pry into my situation, because they were not the type of people like rented neighbors I used to meet. Our commitment is to keep each other's disgrace when it already knows, and try not to pry each other if it does not know.

"Who's the flower going home with?" greeting Rianti to me, I did not think his attitude was still very friendly as I used to know him.

"I was alone, this was naek angkot" I replied while fondling Uwais.

"Owh..so where does Anti live now?"

"In the Puri Indah housing complex, contracted there, sometime maen to my house?" answer her.

"Oh yeah,emmm,... I'm sorry, but the anti didn't live together.....?"

"Get that mean?" I said before he continued his sentence.

"I'm sorry ana, just wanted to remind you not to be too free with men not mahram" she advised me.

"Yes Rianti, I understand that, Deri was the one who gave me the house, but now he has returned to Lampung" I explained.

"Iya Rianti. Maybe because of the presence of Deri also that makes Kak Arif disappointed in me" my sentence was lethargic.

"Qadarulloh, everything has been arranged by Allah.There may be another story after this that we do not know" Rianti replied.

"Oh yeah, how's Arif? I had time to pass in front of his frame, but did not seem there himself, I also want to stop by doling" asked me who was curious about Kak Arif who had not met it long.

"He is now in Kalimantan with his parents, reportedly attended his sodaranya married, but rather long there because he wanted to open a new branch in Kalimantan in cooperation with his sodaranya there" rianti explained.

"Ohh.. so.." said I bowed who wanted to know more about Kak Arif but sung.

"Do the anti still want to continue ta'aruf with Kak Arif? later let me try to help, who knows that Brother Arif is still willing with Anti, has not anti never rejected his proposal?" asked Rianti who instantly gritted my chin looking at her face slightly surprised.

"Ehmm.. but Rianti.. I'm not up to the heart. I'm so ashamed of Brother Arif.." I'm not sure.

"Maybe yesterday Arif was only disappointed by the presence of Deri, then he tried to avoid, because anti himself also did not answer Kak Arif's proposal the other day".

"It's all my fault Rianti. I was worried for too long, at once I had to try to convince my heart so that I could get back to believing in men, only that Arif came too early, at a time when maybe my heart was not ready and had not thought about marriage at all, I was too focused on my pregnancy, especially when suddenly Deri disturbed my life again made my heart more upset Rianti...." my words express what I feel while sobbing softly.

"Here is the Flower, do not be sad, do not know what is anti-feeling, make sure that all this has been revealed from Allah, wait for Kak Arif to come home from Kalimantan, if indeed you guys are paired, ana sure can be united.." he said to calm me.

Instantly I wiped away the tears that ran down my cheeks. Soon I returned to my rented house escorted by Rianti berbongcan with his motorbike. He wants to know where I live, so he can come help me when I need something.

A few days after that, I got a message from Rianti that it was telling me about Kak Arif. Instantly I opened my gait and I read the contents of the message.

[Assalamu'alaikum, Bunga, ana want to tell you about Kak Arif, apparently in Kalimantan he was married a day ago, he just contacted me to give the news, he said, his family there who has betrothed Kak Arif to his wife now, qadarulloh he is not a match with anti.we just pray that this is the best for Kak Arif, also anti after this will get a better mate of course, Wasallamu'alaikum]. The contents of the chat from Rianti that instantly shook my entire body.

I shut my mouth to hold my sobs. Dismissed already for me to continue my relationship with her, but on one side there was a sense of happiness coming to my mind. A Brother Arif who is very kind to me, has now got his heart mooring that matches his of course. With my hands still shaking, I replied to Rianti.

[ Walaikumsalam Rianti, Alhamdulillah, I am happy to get news from you about Kak Arif, I hope that Kak Arif is happy with his current wife, it is okay if I am not a match with him, it is okay if I am not a match with him, as long as he has found a more deserving soul mate for him, I am already very happy, Wassalamu'alaikum]. My instant reply was to send a message of greeting to Brother Arif. Without a doubt, I started typing messages for him.

[Assalamu'alaikum's chat... Sis Arif congratulations on his marriage, hopefully later to become a family that Sakinah Mawadah and Warrahmah.... Aamiin.] The content of my message is not at length.

[Walaikumsalam... Aamiin.. thank you Flowers for their prayers, hopefully later you will also be met with a good soul mate] reply to a message from Kak Arif shortly afterwards.

[Aamiin.] I answered briefly, which at once made my heart relieved and again held Uwais and suckled her.