The Love of the Sinner

CHAPTER 7. Istighfar

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CHAPTER 7

      Hearing the words of Grandpa Joseph and Grandma Halimah, Aulia fell silent and pensive. He knows that Allah is Oft-Forgiving and Most Merciful. However, bad luck always accompanies him and he blames the fate he gets. He recalled when the religious teacher at his school explained that people living in this world must be patient and grateful. The folly and fakery of religious science, makes him feel empty in his life. Have no purpose. Especially now that he has no one else.

"May I come with you?" aulia asked as she looked at Grandpa Yusuf, Grandma Halimah, and Fathir.

"Thank God, of course, son. We will be your family" said Grandpa Yusuf.

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     For 2 weeks Aulia was hospitalized plus 4 weeks in her contract. Now he will return to the house of Grandpa Joseph who is in the village of Joy, Sukahening Subdistrict. Aulia carried the goods that were in the boarding house only. He also paid tribute to boutique owners and restaurant owners. They were the best boss for Aulia. In fact they were somewhat disappointed by the decision of the beautiful girl. However, they also could not forbid that Aulia could gather with people who loved her.

"May you always be happy wherever you are" said Ana, the boss of the boutique owner, hugging Aulia.

"Thank you, Miss Ana," Aulia replied.

"It's a little bit of money from me, your salary for this month" Ana said, handing over the envelope.

"Thank you, Mom. Hopefully this boutique is getting crowded and in demand" said Aulia with a sweet smile.

      Now Aulia was in the car sitting with Grandma Halimah in the back seat. Meanwhile, Fathir was driving the car and Grandpa Yusuf was sitting next to him. Aulia had argued with the restaurant owner who insisted on delivering Aulia and Grandpa Yusuf using his car. The reason is so that one day he can get married. Fortunately when the debate occurred came two bus groups who came to eat at the restaurant. So that his former boss could not deliver.

      Aulia occasionally talked to Grandma Halimah and Grandpa Joseph. He was actually curious why the man named Fathir rarely asked him to talk. Especially looking at him. So Aulia thought that the man did not like her.

      On the way there was the sound of Adhan. So, Fathir was looking for the nearest mosque to perform Ashar prayers. Aulia who is still in a state of puerperium just sits on a chair in the mosque garden. He saw a little boy in a hijab staring at him. Very funny, especially his blue eyes.

"This is a very beautiful boy, his parents are like," murmured Aulia.

"Hi, pretty little sister, what's your name?" aulia asked with a smile.

"My name is Aqilah. What's Brother's name?" ask the little girl.

"Sister's name, Aulia," Aulia replied with a sweet smile.

"Why is my brother sitting here? No prayers in the mosque?" the boy asked, looking at him in wonder.

"Sister is not praying" Aulia replied with a pinched heart upon hearing the little boy's words.

     Not long after came the beautiful woman beras bule with facial skin that is very clean, smooth, and radiant. The woman smiled at Aulia. He also returned that smile. The little boy smiled at his mom.

"Maybe my son too if born will look prettier than me. Because Rangga's sister is handsome," murmured Aulia.

"Ouch, Aulia~. You don't think of anything that hasn't already passed" Aulia muttered as she patted her head.

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     They also went back on that journey. It was almost midnight when they reached Grandpa Yusuf's house. Aulia saw a joglo-shaped house made of wood. 

"Thank you Gus Fathir, give my greetings to Abah and Umma you" said Grandpa Yusuf and Fathir also agreed.

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     Now Aulia was in a simple room. There is only a bed and a closet. No other furniture. 

"May you be at home here" Grandma Halimah said as she stroked Aulia's head.

"Hopefully, Grandma. Because I already feel affection for Grandpa Yusuf and Grandma Halimah as well, I will certainly be happy and at home to live with you," said Aulia.

"Now sleep. Tomorrow there will be a lot for Grandpa and Grandma to talk about" said the old woman. Then he left the room, so that Aulia could quickly sleep.

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     At three o'clock in the morning, Aulia was very surprised when she heard the sound of adhan that almost resembles iqomat. He heard the voices of Grandpa Yusuf and Grandma Halima. So Aulia went out of her room.

"What's up, son?" grandma asked Halimah when she saw Aulia standing in front of her bedroom door.

"This is how I felt, when it was only three?" aulia asked with a confused face.

"This is the initial adhan, usually to wake people up to pray qiyaumul lail. Like the tahajud prayer," answered Grandpa Yusuf. 

"Oh. Sorry I don't know, Cake." Aulia was embarrassed.

"It's okay. Later you will learn the science of religion here," said Grandpa Yusuf.

"Then I go back into the room again" Aulia said with a shy smile.

"Yes, just continue your sleep, son," Grandpa Yusuf said with a smile and a shady look.

     Aulia went back to her room and continued her sleep. However, it was also only a few moments when he fell asleep that the voice of people with a melodious voice sounded. The voice shook Aulia's heart and body. Without her noticing her tears falling down without her being able to hold back. Even she was crying.

     The shadow of his past actions filled with sin, was clearly displayed in his memory. He regretted his actions. He also regretted not studying religion properly. In her sobs, Aulia begged for forgiveness.

"Astaghfirullah .. astaghfirullahal'adzim," said Aulia repeatedly.

"O Allah, forgive your servant. Who committed so many sins. You are the Most Forgiving, "Aulia murmured with tears.

"Astaghfirullahal'adzim .. astaghfirullahal'adzim," said Aulia chanting istighfar. This was all he knew when he asked forgiveness from his Lord.

"O Allah, You are the recipient of repentance for Your repentant servants and want to return to Your righteous path. Accept my repentance," said Aulia, and her weeping grew bitter.

Aulia's chest was in pain as she recalled her past sins. He rarely performs obligatory prayers and does zina. This was the great sin he had only realized at this moment.

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