My madam, my poison

Obstinately

Although it was already much different, I was still able to recognize that face. 

"Aryan?"

"Yes. I'm Arya. Whose mother?"

"It's me, Zura."

"Which zura is it?"

"Azzura."

Arya seemed to think for a moment before finally recognizing me.

"It seems I only know one name Azzura. What Azzura's mother ever worked at, …"

"Yes. It's Azzura."

"How are you now like this?" he asked while observing my appearance from the tip of my hair to the tip of my foot.

"How is this?"

"I'm sorry, you used to always dress openly. Now your appearance is covered like this. It's natural, if I'm plucking."

The man I was talking to was Arya. He used to be a bartender where we worked.

"I never thought I'd see you again, Ra. When you used to jump from the roof to the river, I thought you wouldn't survive" Arya said.

"I almost died bitten by a river crocodile, but God still gave me a long life. There was someone who helped me escape the crocodile.

"Thank God. That guy must be great. Who can you be a boy or a girl, Ra?"

"Male. And he's the one who became my husband."

"What a sweet story. Like a fairy tale."

"Indeed sweet, at first, but now so bitter, beyond poison," I murmured inwardly.

"You two sons?" ask me to divert the conversation.

"Yes. Maureen is five years old, this is her sister, Arman, only six months old" he explained.

"Sorry, you said his mother was dead. When did your wife die? Is he sick?"

"Yes. My wife died of appendicitis."

Astarghfirullah's. Isn't that the disease that is now attacking me as well? Aryan's wife lost her life due to this disease. What if I have the same fate as him? Maureen and Arman may be lucky, having a father as good as Arya. But what about Lyra? Who will take care of it if I really leave? Fabians? The karmila? It doesn't feel possible. Rabb, why am I this scared? Will not all that You create be taken back?

"What's wrong with you, Ra?" ask Arya.

"It's okay. Oh yeah, where do you work now?" my many.

"In the BB office. After marriage I decided to quit my job at the club, and then try to apply for a job in that office. Yes, even as an Office Boy, but I feel that work is better than any time having to struggle with that intoxicating drink" he said.

"Bb Office?" 

"Yes. Why why anyway? Does your husband work there too?"

"D-g-yes."

"Seriously? What part of your husband?"

"Name Fabian. He's a marketing manager."

"Oh, mr. Fabian. Yeah, I know. He used to be an ordinary salesman, but since the office was held by Silvi, all management was changed. Suddenly, Fabian was appointed marketing manager."

Who's Silvi's mom? This time I heard his name. Ah bodo very! I don't want to know anything else about Fabian.

"Oh yeah. If you work, who takes care of them?" my many.

"My mother" replied Arya.

"Alhamdulillah, there is still a mother."

"Yes. I don't know what it would be like if no mother would help me take care of them."

Suddenly Arya observes Lyra's face.

"How many months is your son, Ra?" tanyakanya.

"Almost three months."

"My son and your son are the same age. Maybe we could be besan," he joked.

"Ngaco. Children are still baby gini have been playing games," I said.

"Who knows they are a soul mate."

How should I answer this question? Would I be honest if I no longer lived with Fabian and now live in a boarding house?

"R. Are you just quiet?"

"Ehm, I-I live not far from the LR textile factory."

"Can I have your phone number? I just want to connect the cord," said Arya while thrusting her phone at me.

"Can." I grabbed Arya's phone and put my phone number in the phone book.

Suddenly Arman who was in Arya's arms cried.

"Sorry, Ra. I have to go home now. Arman must be hungry" said Arya.

"Be careful" I said as I gently stroked Maureen's hair.

"Assalamu'alaikum, Mrs Azzura" Maureen said.

"Getishalight."

Arya and her two children left the park. In my heart I was amazed by Arya. Although it was so heavy, from the look on his face I could see that he was so sincere in his current role. Being a father and mother to both of his children. Maureen and Arman. Would it still be appropriate to complain?

After leaving the park, I went to a supermarket not far from the park. My current financial condition forces me to downsize. Aju only buys baby diapers, telon oil and small-sized powder.

What I didn't expect when I crossed baby clothes. I saw someone filling their shopping cart with lots of baby clothes.

"Baby clothes are only used briefly, you should buy a few pieces only," I said.

"I shop with my own money. It's up to me to spend what," he said without looking at me.

"I'm sorry, I'm just giving advice" I said

"No need to be sober?.Mbak Zura?"

I was surprised not to play when I looked at the woman's face. The shopkeeper was Karmila.

"Mila's? Your age is still young. It's not good to buy baby gear this early. You should buy it if your gestational age has entered seven months and above," I said.

"Bak spoke so surely because I was envious of seeing me shop so much."

"It's not so, Mila. There is a prohibition for us to buy baby equipment when the gestational age is still so young. Fear something unwanted happened."

"Oh, so Ma'am swearing my baby away, is that it?"

"It's not. What's wrong if we avoid that abstinence for our own good."

"Colot is the way Maak thinks. Just say Mbak envious because my spending money is many times the amount of Mbak's money," said Mila. He then glanced at my shopping basket which only contained a pack of baby diapers.

"Your husband said? Not at all. Ever since I decided to leave Fabian's life, I've been willing to give that man to you. You are very proud to have used goods," I said.

"What did you say?" 

"Used goods."

"What do you mean, you're talking like that?"

"Why are you offended? My words are right, right? Fabian is a used item from me."

"Bad!" 

Apparently Mila did not accept my words. He suddenly carried his right hand and prepared to throw it at me. However, I swiftly brushed it off and deliberately gripped her a little.

"sick! Aw!"

Mila quickly pulled out her hand and rubbed it repeatedly.

"Review yes! I gave you aduin to Fabian!" threaten her.

"Aduin time. You think I'm scared?"

"I want to tell Fabian to hurry up and take care of your divorce!"

"Please. I'm just glad that we officially parted ways quickly," I said.

"Sorry, what's going on?" ask someone who is suddenly standing behind me. I also turned to look towards him. I was surprised when I looked at that face.

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