My love is You

Episode 89 - A false feeling

POV TYAS

It was late afternoon when the ojek I was riding finally arrived in front of a minimalist house with a variety of beautiful flowers on each side. I have not yet entered the house, my eyes are still staring at me in the direction of the house that I have lived for several months.

Nothing has changed. That's right, since my move a few months ago to this complex I haven't changed or renovated anything. Everything still looks the same. Even when I first stepped on my foot in the house, I accidentally found a brown teddy bear that was quite worn out on the bed of the room that is now my room.

For a long time I stood still and looked at the whitewashed house until I finally decided to go in before the past memory took my mind further and further.

I went into my room, I put my waist bag on the sofa and threw my body into the bed. Actually I haven't eaten since morning, even now my stomach is so sore, but my appetite suddenly disappeared after the news spread that Kaesang and Zefa are dating. I wanted to think positively if maybe all I saw was a rumor, but my world seemed to collapse after I saw Zefanya kiss Kaesang's lips in front of everyone. Everyone cheered, even Kaesang did not seem to refuse, he just left and accidentally hit me while he was walking.

At first he put his hand on me, I don't know if it's Kaesang. I took his hand, and I got up. However, as I turned my gaze towards her, I gasped as her cold eyes stared straight at me. The eyes that have been making me opiate, and increasingly mired deep into his charm that can not be refused.

For a few seconds we just looked at each other without any conversation. None of us started the conversation until I finally decided to leave after I threw a smile at him.

Huuff....

The long breath escaped from my sense of smell. For a moment I fell asleep until the knock on the front door made me open my eyes and wake up lazily.

Geck...

Geck...

Geck...

The sound of the knock was getting louder followed by the voice of someone, "Assalamualaikum, Yas.... Assalamualaikum..."

My door knob is swiveled, unlocked.

Czech....

The door opened, and a middle-aged mother stood right at my door. He was seen wearing a long negligee and a red veil covering his head. He smiled while looking at me.

"Yes, how are you?" He took a step forward and gently touched my shoulder.

"Oh yes, Ms. Maya.well, I'm fine. Um Maya, how are you? Long time no see Bu Maya buying vegetables as usual?" manyu friendly.

He smiled again and lowered his hand from my shoulder.

"Um, I'm good thank God. Yes, I do need to go out of town with my husband again, so yes this week there is no house. Just got home yesterday. Oh yes, Miss Tyas..Yesterday night I went to my mom's house, but she wasn't home, so I just went home."

"Yesterday I had to go outside, and the night just came home. But, Miss Maya does anything need to be with me?" tanyaku later.

His smile receded and shifted his eyes to another direction.

"Can we just talk inside? I'm ashamed to hear people." he said with a smile.

"Um, Alright. Please enter Ma'am.sorry yes, the house is a mess." said I allow Ms. Maya to go inside followed by me behind her.

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It's been an hour since Miss Maya's return from my home. I was still sitting at my place staring at the closed door. Well, it seems that the words of Bu Maya have a point, I am quite old to feel in love and dating, especially all my classmates are married all, some even already have children. Sometimes I can only smile when they show off their affection in front of me.

Talking about that I remembered the story of one of my friends when we were still sitting in High School. He told me about his senseless love case in my opinion. How not, he never told me if he was in love with a foreign girl who accidentally passed him on the road. But that's not what I think is strange, but rather who is the girl my friend likes. She is not the same age as him but she is an elementary school child.

I laughed at him and said that his joy was strange. But look now, I was shocked when I got the wedding invitation from her. He married a girl who had attracted him during High School. That girl just graduated High School when my friend asked for her.

I was filled with knowing the struggle of my friend who did not play games. He gave up everything in order to get the girl, and look, now the girl is officially his, and they are happy.

Seeing the love story of those who are adrift in age far enough, I became reminded of my own love story with one of my students, Kaesang.

Have I made the wrong decision all this time? What was my feeling all this time was fake, why wasn't my story as beautiful and interesting as my friend's? Is this relationship a mistake?

"Have I wrongly decided to like you? Why is it so painful to know the news, have I really liked you Kae?" I said it myself while sobbing.

"And why do you like me and ask me to relate if you end up hurting me like this, it's true yes, a man's mouth can't be trusted, he'll say sweet promises in front of us and then when he gets bored, we'll just throw them away."

"It looks like your decision to get Zefanya in touch was Kae's right decision. You're a lot more suited to him than you were to me." I continued, still crying.

"Well, I'll make an important decision now."

I sent a message to Kaesang. I asked her to meet somewhere without mentioning my reason for meeting. I immediately turned off my phone when I saw that Kaesang had read the message I sent. Because I myself know that Kaesang will definitely contact me when I find out I have gone online and sent him a WhatsApp message.

After sending the message, I erased some of those still-stained tears. I took a deep breath after I got out of my place. But before I really move on I say this solemnly in my heart, "May this decision I make be right, and you can understand, Kae."

Seriate........